Borg Queen Diva

I have altered the fictional character's gender. Pray I do not alter it further 🏳️‍⚧️💖

A drawing of a feminine character with purple skin, bald, long, pointed ears, recreation of Thundercats logo in background with trans colours.

Rough sketches, portraits of bald feminine character with long pointed ears

Panthro (Panthra?) Do I have an audience that was even around when Thundercats was on?

The Kurlan Naiskos is a shrine representing the community of personalities contained within a person, and was a core belief of the Kurlan people. Many versions of this artefact were made. This one was made by a craftsperson known only as 'The Master of Tarquin Hill' #startrek #tng

A drawing of a ceramic artefact called the Kurlan Naiskos, from Star Trek The Next Generation. It is a representation of an alien figure, hollow, with many smaller figures inside. A representation of the idea that each individual contains a community of selves. Caption "We contain multitudes"

Photo of a ceramic artefact called the Kurlan Naiskos from star trek tng, hollow alien figure with smaller figures inside

Kurlan Naiskos 💖🖖

A comic with 6 panels showing a naked woman standing in front of a large mirror surrounded by a circle of flame. She gasps as she sees her reflection and exclaims that she is beautiful. A sinister and imposing alien then appears and she pleads "Not yet". The dream ends. 'She' wakes up. The final panel shows Ensign Harry Kim waking up, sad that the dream has ended.

This is an old comic I made on this day 2 years ago - 24/02/2024. Based on voyager episode "Waking Moments". I replaced Harry's dream with one of my own euphoria dreams 🏳️‍⚧️🖖

I like that idea. I often think certain religions alienate people from their emotions. Envy is seen as sinful, so you have envy compounded with the shame of carrying it. So the idea of treating it as a problem to be addressed and solved and not something shameful to be buried is an appealing one

Exactly. It's not useful. It doesn't serve a purpose. I think it has to go somewhere - be directed towards something, and I'm just trying to figure out how to do that. I hope that at least trying to identify it and its source goes some way towards resolving it

A drawing of a smiling woman with blue eyes and blonde hair, in the background, out of focus, a silhouette of a character based on the borg queen with glowing green eyes

I get jealous of people doing well in ways that I'm not. I don't want to feel that way. I want people to be happy. I want to support them. I remind myself that these feelings are the result of my own dissatisfaction and insecurity. Another person's happiness is not the cause of my unhappiness

Totally. Don't get me wrong, the borg are bad. Something else that has always resonated for me is her need to be seen as a person and to find an equal who sees her the way she sees herself, but not being able to have that because she is a monster. And the body horror - *gestures broadly*

It's an idea that has always appealed to me, ever since I watched First Contact back in '96 - a body being just a thing you can wear, and a way to present yourself to others, and control how you are perceived

It's headcanon now, at the very least 😂

A drawing of a character based on the borg queen, head neck and shoulders but no body. Robotic spine and cables attached to cranium. Caption "New ⬇️ surgery just dropped. No bod, no prob!" In pink lettering, stylised design in background based on the colours of the trans pride flag

I'm not really vibing with this whole 'having a body' thing

The reality is that you are not trapped because all emotional states are a process that runs its course and ends. You're not always going to feel angry, sad etc. You can remind yourself of this and reposition yourself as a being moving through time, able to conceive of possible, desirable futures

Certain strong, negative emotions can shut down that ability. If you feel angry, sad, anxious etc, it becomes hard to imagine ever not feeling like that. You feel trapped in the present with this feeling...

You're hungry and want a sandwich, but you don't have a sandwich. It doesn't exist. You have the ability to conceive of a future in which you have made the sandwich, it exists, and you can eat it. You have a sense of your place in time and your ability to impact the future...

Worried I didn't explain it well and sound insane right now. Might do a thread...

A drawing of a character based on the borg queen wearing glasses, pensive expression, looking at a large, disassembled sandwich

Rough sketches of a character based on the borg queen

Rough sketch of a disassembled sandwich

All emotions are temporary but strong emotions feel permanent at the time we feel them. We can remind ourselves that they will pass. If you're hungry you make a sandwich. Emotions 'want the sandwich' but hinder our ability to think of the process of making the sandwich exist.

A digital drawing of the borg queen in a cartoonish style - head, neck and shoulders with mechanical spinal column, not connected to a body, turning back to face viewer, angular pink and blue lettering on white background spelling "BQD"

Rough sketch portrait drawing of the borg queen, turning back to face viewer

Grob (Borg backwards)

A drawing of a feminine gothic character - long black hair, black dress, dark lipstick

Gothic

Thanks 😊 I'm still experimenting with lighting etc, trying to improve.

A portrait of a feminine character with blue skin and long black hair, white background with a stylised design of black wavy lines and spots on a yellow square

Rough sketches of feminine character portrait

🟦🔵🔷️💙

Stylised drawing of a narrow path winding around a mountain face

Imagining life as a narrow mountain path. Above, all of the things I wish I could have but can't. Below, despair.

Drawing of a feminine merfolk character - green shiny skin, gills on neck, fin-like ears, purple hair resembling shiny tentacles, abstract background - yellow, blue square, stylised pink reflection

Rough sketches and lineart showing process of drawing and refining rough sketch into drawing of merfolk portrait

Can I interest you in a nice mer-person in this trying time?

A portrait of a feminine character - merfolk/mermaid, green glistening skin, fin-like ears, gills, hair resembling octopus tentacles

Rough sketch portrait of a feminine merfolk character

I had a dream about drawing this character and tried to recreate it. Kind of tired and unmotivated lately and maybe that's why I had a detailed dream about working on a drawing

A photo of Sam Altman, caption "Professor loses two years of research after clicking the wrong button on chatgpt

Could be worse I guess

A digital drawing of a feminine character portrait with green skin, prominent veins, bald, pink light in background

I messed up a bit saving this because I forgot that android version of sketchbook is weird about too many layers and now I've lost my layers + sketch. I'll just start another drawing some time

A digital drawing of the borg queen from star trek

A rough sketch of the borg queen from star trek

Your ass is laminated

I remember one time a couple of years ago, I dreamt there was sunlight streaming through huge windows, my hair was long, catching the sunlight, making it look red-gold in my reflection. It was euphoric. This recent one was darker and more sinister. I think I made 'her' angry, trying to ignore her 😅

A drawing of a feminine character with a long neck, long black hair, pink skin, reptilian scales on face, green eyes, black background

Still a bit preoccupied with a dream from a few nights ago - seeing my reflection as a woman with reptilian scales on my face. Reminding me that 'she' is still in there 🏳️‍⚧️