lady 🌸🍓

can I just pick an identity and be happy with it 🥲 id like to find a community soon...

I know I said I'd prob be cis if I could detransition fully to a point I was happy with it, but that wouldn't stop me from having a complex gender and very confusing dysphoria lol

I've thought abt this a lot bc I feel like I have to be cis by technicality, and cause so many have insisted I must be cis, but I'm genderqueer and non cis and that's final

alright that's it I'm not cis and I'll get deeply offended if you refer to me as cis. you don't have to "believe" that I'm trans, idrc, but I am not cisgender at all

hopefully they'll add that eventually, I'd love to have a blue sky gc

this is a /j but I do believe fat is a compliment

calling myself fat isn't enough. I need to compliment people by saying "omg you look so fat rn"

are there DMS on blue sky?

I hate being someone who believes that looks don't matter but still has terrible BDD

the urge to turn this into a personal/art acc... maybe that's what I'll do

fully agree, I wish mental health was taken as seriously as physical health (not discounting ableism, but there can be less moralizing and shaming of symptoms. mental health is seen as 100% your fault a lot of the time)

and it's so embarrassing to admit bc it feels like it makes me a terrible person but it's intrusive feelings and thoughts that I wish I didn't have. now I'm a lot more like "you go girl" when I see happy fat ppl as I'm working towards empowering myself

like let's be honest having an ed will cause so many ppl to have horrible intrusive thoughts about themselves and other people. the amount of times I felt angry at another fat person for simply being happy at their weight is more than I'd like to admit

I wish ppl felt more open to sharing mental health experiences. it'd be nice to feel like I'm not a terrible person for having thoughts I hate

if you chase it aggressively enough you may be able to get your acc back. I got banned for impersonating myself and they made me never use my face again but I still got my acc back

maybe I'm crazy but I always saw tubthumping as an innuendo already lol

like I'm genuinely delusional about how my body looks and have genuine bdd but not every negative emotion I have about my body is my fault. if you were constantly made to feel bad about yourself you'd wish to be different too.

like would you tell a gay person who wants to be straight that they're inherently homophobic or have some "doesn't wanna be gay" mental disorder? maybe they're just fed up with the treatment they receive and wish they fit in more, it doesn't make them bigoted or delusional

I feel like people are way too quick to call someone's hatred of their own fat body either dysmorphia and mental illness or internalized fatphobia. like idk maybe I hate my body because everyone else tells me I should? but that by no means makes me fatphobic

why am I zooming in trying to guess the function of every object 😭

maybe I'll just post my crochet content on here for the time being idk :3

I low-key reallyyyy wanna start my own crochet blog but I'm not sure where? Tumblr seems hard for crafty stuff and Instagram is a lot of pressure. this is why I will miss twitter if we do lose it :(

grilled brie with arugula onion jam and apple slices. hands down best grilled cheese ever. and it comes with fries

that yarn bowl is genius and so beautiful !!

I'm sincereposting. I'm cringemaxxing. nicepilled. going sweetie mode. friendcore

is there also an alternative out there to the USA? does anyone have an invite code?

I just want to feel better about my body and the problem is there's many ways to go about that, and I just don't know what to do most of the time. surgery is too scary but I often don't feel "whole" as a woman

me wearing a button up pineapple printed yellow short sleeve shirt, with the top buttons undone

there's nothing wrong with my chest. I hate myself for being flat and not feminine looking in this area but I think that ignores how feminine the rest of me is

y'know maybe radical acceptance of my body is the way to go. why do I need to be insecure about having had top surgery when I can just say "I did it for me" and move on with my life

tbh I consider dropping the detrans label now even. it describes how I interact with my body and the world but it's an oversimplification in a lot of ways. it's useful to spread my message Abt detransition but that's it