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i find it really funny how a lot of these people are also like oh yeah im woke and aware and it's like okay not woke enough to treat others online with basic human decency and kindness LOL

i feel like people genuiely do not see other people as humans online or something they are truly just A Concept to them and their opinion about some fictional character Weighs Heavier

what the fuck ASDJF help oh my god it's so fucking bad nowadays i feel like a lot of people lack any sort of boundaries when it comes to interacting with other people or. idk. decency LOL

im hoping if i practise drawing enough nsfw i can draw yaoi for a living and then i will live my best life and my dream

JASDJF i think the fear of employers finding my side account always still haunts me even if i stopped doing freelance

i know hal would hate that shit so bad cus it's so hard to clean LMAOOOO but i know he would think dave being so excited is cute LOL

yaoi pervert talking but i was saying this in snt discord that my headcanon is that david would be a pervert about hal's glasses he would think hal looks hot in them that's his office siren otaku need to draw him uh ya know on hal's glasses LMFAO

uncensored on da patreon cuz im not brave LOL

ill colour later.. im perv for that geek sorry #suneota

yeah i really do miss that era of old twitter and even livejournal a lot it was so easy to make friends and chat to others about similar interests i do miss that sense of community

i get people have to make a living but i just feel like... it's nice if people validate your art of course but ultimately what's the joy in creating things for other people who cares

so if you do not share that motivation for some people it's like you are not in making what I want to see and I want to eat and consume etc etc

right.. i feel like participation in fandom for many has become a performance for an audience and there's a.. underlying clout searching.. engagement seeking motivation in many.. which means that you need to be weird in a way that conforms to something people like/want to see

it's like not me saying i find those traits GOOD im saying it makes his character interesting and it's part of his personality and shapes him but people don't want to get into the things that are ugly about characters

no exactly like with solid snake for example he's kind of wildly misogynist/sexist at times and people will water those negative parts of him down which i get but i also feel it says a lot about his character and i find the flaws and negatives also interesting etc etc ALSO I DONT MIND AT ALL

or it's because a character gets memefied to death so the fanon depiction is so so far removed from the actual canon people will actually be annoyed at you for not following it etc etc it's so weird

no i agree i find the dynamic interesting cus i enjoy both characters but what usually what i feel ends up happening in fandom lately is that people project their own selves heavily upon one character and it completely waters down that character to a self-insert

help jill spins you around...... pleaseeee.. sigh... where are all the suneotas... people acting like there's plenty of fans but i feel like being a suneota specifically is like torture LMAOOO

right!! it sucks so bad god... i feel like once i get into something it also consumes me for a very long time and i just want to talk about it all the time but i also dont want to bother people who are kinda just done with it JDSFJSDF

yeah! it's just like. the idea of so many eyes on your stuff. and almost a performance anxiety to post the same quality and that pressure falls away when there's a more comfortable amount of people.. it's nice!! i feel like more social and want to talk to people..! shaking ur hand!!

i always think about the big shell threesome it would be so awesome

realised i never posted this wip big shelling threesome..

i feel like my doodle account got a little too big for me to be freely tweeting like a yaoi pervert so here i am