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the beeg cute nerd commish for my girly @aquacoffee.bsky.social

I should get a better job, but workplaces were so happy to kill remote work very quickly. As a full time carer to a grandparent I'm really not getting anything better for my situation. Rough as it is I'm better off riding it as long as I can until this new management finally sinks this ship for good

For now all I'd like is to to unwind enough to remember what it's like to not be so tense that all I wanna do in any off time is chase escapism. Maybe once I properly wind back that tension I can get back to what I enjoy, and be mindful enough to not let it build up again.

While it does not help that I do 12 hour shifts, the sheer volume of work it puts on us now over even 8 hours is absurd and would have me collapse just as much. I'm gonna have to take like a full month off or something, I already have time off booked, but it's making it to that now that's the issue.

After a little time off work to unwind I know now it did help my energy for creativity a lot, so I'm quite sure it's burnout. Unfortunately my job doesn't know how to rest, my first day back at it we were half-manned with several fires all day long, so I'm thoroughly toasted mentally all over again.

Barria and Athena are having a delicious lunch together. @icymasamune.bsky.social

can't believe i reposted all my hilde's and forgot to repost one of my favourites, so i'm gonna put it up with one of these while i'm working on re-discovering my own artistic confidence and warming back up to drawing again lately

I've found two reasons to post this one from earlier this year today. Nice tunic and nice facts.

this girl is a great design and i wanna keep her maybe, so i think she needs a name

#HyperSky

Hildebrand's arrest record is so good it almost makes up for all the damage inflicted on the city over the normal course of a day on the job.

#HyperSky

a flat colour image of hildebrand. there's a sword stuck through her cleavage as she holds up her considerably-larger-than-her-torso-sized breasts

realised i never made a true colour reference for hilde so this was mostly a lil thing for me so i stop shifting her palette so much

hildebrand filling most of the frame with her breasts, they spill off the sides of the screen

there's no such thing as guards of unusual size

#HyperSky

a sketch of hildebrand laying on her breasts

hilde thing

#HyperSky

a doodle of sandra, an oc by aquacoffee

sandraaaaa

OC by @aquacoffee.bsky.social

#HyperSky

face shaped like :D

my main point of reference is how this same job jumped to 3x the work over covid lockdown and i all of a sudden developed all the same persistent feelings and chronic issues that are plaguing me right now, but i'd never really connected either to the amount i was being pushed at my job

i've never looked into what burnout is until now and it rings far more true than depression. my job's hiked up the workload over the past year constantly while dropping staff and it's still going up. the increased workload isn't going away so i don't know what to do with this knowledge though

there's not much point to this, i just need an outlet for the frustration my inability to make art how i want is building. i actively want to quit, and have this whole last four months, but i'm trying not to let the self destructive impulse make me act while i'm down, but it's still bad constantly

it feels isolating even though i know there's plenty of places and people i could talk to about this, that nagging voice in the back of my head saying my problems are either petty or nobody cares won out for a good while and i've just not said or done much of anything about it instead

i zoned out of entirely for the last two months and couldn't put even the smallest amount of focus into art once a few bad things hit at once, but i've been checked out since november at least, whenver i last drew quyen tbh i was feeling it. recovering from that's been tough

i've spiralled into various kinds of depression and art slumps before but i'm not sure i've ever quite hit one this persistent. finally, actively, trying to get back into creating and make good on what i need to and it's just not happening. everything still feels wrong and it's just frustrating me

A trio of friends of various sizes -- Ashley at 166cm/5'5", Antonia at 420cm/13'9", and Monica at 3086cm/101'3" -- are getting together to pose for a picture referencing that old striped sports bra meme. Ashley is struggling to get up on Monica's shoulder to pull it off, however: Monica: "Ashley, do you *hah* want me to just grab you and put you on my shoulder?" Ashley: "I wouldn't have a problem if you'd stop laughing and SHAKING ME AROUND!" Monica: "I can't help it, you *heh* tickle me~" Ashley: "SHUT UP!!" Antonia, already securely situated on Monica's shoulder, looks at Ashley with a smug expression, chuckling to herself. She's going to extend her leg over there to help Ashley up in a bit. #giantess #giantgirl #oni #giant/tiny #sizesky #oc

Monica, Antonia, and Ashley are trying to recreate that old sports bra meme, except one participant is having trouble getting into position~

The lovely Antonia and the tenacious Ashley belong to @thedrawerartist.bsky.social & @flowerrozeta.bsky.social.
#art #oc #g/t #monica #ashley #antonia

DAMN lady! Alla dat AND a gravitational pull!?

woman with orange hair cackling in a supervillain laugh while saying "are you intimated?! Jealous maybe!?" while the entire page is filled with her bosom. And then a small panel of her meekly saying "well don't be. It's actually very inconvenient"

A quick doodle I did involving a sort of inside joke character with some friends that felt just cute enough to share.

I think being in a mental funk for over 3 months is enough. I have a rare flicker of something driving me today so I'm acting on it, starting by purging anything I feel I gotta to try keep me from spiralling again.

The new window was put in today, I'm extremely apprecative to those who were able to help offset some of this. Another cold snap hit this last week so it's a good time to get it sealed up again. Hoping things can finally settle enough from here to get back to being creative before too long.