Vorvayne

The world has too many languages and I don't have enough time, that is the tragedy of life right there

I gave the german pronunciation, she asked if it was an arabic name and I said yeah, it's [arabic pronunciation] and was immediately assumed to be arabic. Which. I mean!

I love the spirit I just now feel rather embarrassed that I can't really speak it

The absolute funniest thing happened to me: I pronounced one single word in Arabic (my partner's last name, to the chemist) that she became immediately convinced I was Arabic and threw a whole paragraph of it at me at which point I had to embarrassedly admit that I'm not very good at it

Tho what do I know? Anyway muttering to yourself is harmless whyever you're doing it. I get echolalia for singing too but my singing voice is okay and that I can sit on until I'm home or at least only hum a little.

Of all the things my brain does that plausibly count as a Symptom, that's the one I like most. It's just a fun little stim!!! Maaaaybe the muttering makes me look a trifle odd sometimes but it doesn't seem to resemble the worrying "person having a psychotic episode" breakdown so that'll do

Important announcement: did you all know I love gay people? I love gay people.

Thank you and goodnight!

I love gay* people very much

*here meaning "any variety of queer"

(It would be fucking revolutionary and genuinely delightful if one or both of them were straight I just don't find it super likely, on balance)

Jesus CHRIST guys
(Extremely approving)

Got ads in Russian yesterday!!!

And like: I mean I'm ambivalent about how I actually feel about this but it sure is less irritating than Google falling over itself to only show me shit in English and actively removing non-English search results or auto translating. THAT sucked.

The Algorithm(TM) has my number these days

Used to be if I wanted to be recommended music/videos/etc in [language I'm learning] I'd have to go out of my way and make new profiles etc

These days I watch 1 show with Russian and it's like: hey how about this Russian song? And this Russian YT Channel?

Staring directly at whoever this is with the most exhausted despair

Like......that's the level of discourse one avoids ideally because merely hearing it depletes brain cells

Wer *will* eigentlich fliegen? Was, wenn man in ein Boeing-Flugzeug steigen muss?

Absolutely feral thanks!!!!!!!!! How dare Hudson do this to me actually

All my favourite languages to learn have given me tons and tons of echolalia phrases and the fact that I acquired a Russian one without studying Russian is.....well.

It's just SO much more satisfying to say with the right emphasis!!! And the correct vowel placement helps too. Putting the slightly rolled r in the right place - further back than for e.g. Spanish - is the sparkly icing on the cake.

I do think my brain's Languages Thing is at least 50% an attempt to direct the energy of my frankly overwhelming echolalia somewhere useful and/or find new and exciting sounds and phrases to feed the echolalia

In related news I heard a Russian person say "Ilya Rozanov" and that's my newest. Ugh.

It is too late. I found a playlist labelled "30 day comprehensible input challenge".

My excuse is this is fic research.

...sudden realisation that I (European) would not know what the fuck to do with a circumcised guy because like. No one casually circumcises their kids here, it's only Jewish families (and I think some Muslims???? Idk).

Startling thing to suddenly know about oneself

Apparently? Unless my internet is specifically gatekeeping Ao3 I guess

Look. Ao3 had better come back or I will begin learning Russian and that is a THREAT

Listen both Dionysius and I approve intensely I feel

...I spoke too soon. Wild, wonder what's going on over there

AO3 IS BACK FOR ME!!

I had to refresh a few times but it let me over the wall again

"But V, how is this different from polyamory?"

It isn't, that's what's great about it*

*Only true for the people doing an "every relationship is its own thing with its own definitions and boundaries" anarchic polyamory thing

Honestly I think they are something wilder and weirder than dating which is still incredibly intimate and that's amazing for them

Maybe they'll start a counterculture where people are allowed to kiss their friends and say I love you and call them soulmates

This is just *waves hand* vague autistic speculation but music is not just a Sound: it's this whole interlocking layers of patterns thing that I personally experience more as a whole body sensation than as a sound. Seems more memorable to me than just, like, a random sound or line of dialogue.

"Should we invite Andrea Dworkin?" Is a clapback that will be joining my repertoire actually

*Snort*

Unfortunately, that is very true

I mean, sure, although why not both?

Like, the emotional safety thing does explain it from Rose's POV but not from the POV of the truly surprising amount of gay men who were drawn to Rose.

I am not immune to hot men doing suggestive body rolls. Perhaps obviously.....