🏳️‍⚧️ Trazellie Ellie (GPose Mines)

I am evil and hecked up

top three loudest sounds on earth:

1. The Eruption Of Mount Krakatoa circa 1883

2. The Tungska Event of 1908

3. This dumbass screaming HOOOUUGHHH and HAAAAAAHHHHH every time she does 1 (one) single attack

voice claims are so tough for me because all I can imagine this nincompoop sounding like is this:

one of the simple pleasures in life is saying 'wow it looks like silent hill out there' when it's really foggy

A woesome little brainworm, if you will

It will take time. But just know my position won't change. I'll repeat this as many times as it needs to be said. Be kind to yourself throughout all of this. You deserve comfort and care, even if your emotions tell you otherwise.

And that was show your pet unwavering love and trust. They felt safe with you. If nothing else... Be sure to carry that with you. You did the best you could.
You did everything you could. And for your pet, that was the world for them and they cherished it.

The important thing to remember is that your pet lived a happy, fulfilling life with you. The best life. You were with them until the end. It's easy to blame yourself for what you didn't do, or feel like a burden with what you feel unable to do now. But it's important to remember what you DID do.

It all comes out like a thunderstorm. A silence, then a roaring downpour. It will hurt like hell for a while, and honestly? The only thing I can say is that you just have to give your heart a break and let it rest. Take the time to remember the good times and let it out.

The one good thing she can do as a mother for Eseci is give him a world he can live in... No matter what.

TL;DR Trazellie has a severe dissonance with maternity; she wants to be one with Tataru and Krile, but can't be the mom she dreamed of being because of trauma —physical and mental.

Eseci being infinitely more friendly with Tataru and Krile and being uncomfortable with Trazellie is eventually what snapped her post Dawntrail. Her overwhelming feeling of failure after the events of DT leads her to creating Perfect Hatred. Because, after all...

Her scarring is so severe that it actually irreversibly damaged her breasts. She relies on caregivers and alternative means of keeping her baby Eseci fed. And because of this, Eseci actually struggles to be comfortable around Trazellie as a result.

This is what leads to the severe depression and her slight retirement afterwards. She is completely devastated from the news. She eventually comes to terms with it and ends up adopting an adandoned miqo'te baby in the Thanalan desert... But even then, she's severely limited in what she can do.

... A bit of a darker response, but #trazlore

Trazellie always wanted to have a kid. In her heart of hearts, she wants to be a parent and make her child smile. But that dream is shattered at the end of Endwalker when it's revealed that her adventures have rendered her permanently infertile.

An Xaela Au Ra (Aysel) with blue/black short shaggy hair, silver eyes, wearing circle glasses with golden ornamentation on the horns and the tip of their long tail. They're wearing a bright red and orange PCT top, alongside a pink skirt with golden details, a red skirt over the top, and white & yellow tights. They have a white/yellow feather in their hair, on the left side of their head. They're poised as if they're mid twirl/dance, their back arched with their left leg bent and their arms outward as they grin at the viewer. They have the Obscurum DNC weapons in their hand, which are golden chakrams with a glowing pink effect, with two blades at the end and a pink peacock feather wrapping around the crescent. In the background is a blurred tan concrete gazebo (Dancer's summit area in Thavnair); the sky is blue.

FINALLY got my Obscurum DNC weapon done 💖💃🔥 It's so stunning!!!

#gposers | #gpose

It will take time, unfortunately. It will suck. It will hurt. But you'll always have people in your corner for when you're ready. You can count me among them. 💙

A picture of a flower field with a blue sky over head. The text caption reads You're either frolicking in this field with me or You're frolicking in this field against me

I'm so sorry. It's simply just too much fun, your honor. 😔 I'm both frolicking with and against this capricious raisin of a woman

If it helps, it helps. That's all I had during my loss too. And that's okay. You're not a burden to your friends for grieving. You're not "bringing others down." And you're not inconvenience for those who wish to stand by you. Not to them, not to me. 🫂

Just don't deprive yourself of things either. Take it slow, but don't be a stranger. Lean on those around you. They might not take the edge off, but they'll help stand with you.

Yeah... That's the toughest part. :/ The haunting silence, feeling like you can see them around the bend. It's going to feel like that for a bit, so please give yourself time to grieve. Let it out as best as you can and take it slow. There's no "right" way to process it.

To be fair! Requiem is SUUUPER good....

Also this was me with Berry Bury Berry a week ago lmao

FWIW it's not dragging me down. I don't think it has. I had to put my dog down a few years back and it's something I'm still coming to terms with. If you need to let it out, I promise I'll have open ears and arms for it. I know, albeit in my own way, how that can feel. You're not alone, I promise. 🫂

I have so many colorful affectionate insults for her 🥰 my favorite little wad of ABC gum

Nobody loves and slanders Trazellie quite like I do 🤩💖

She's my favorite little fig newton

Very important emote.....

I understand. I felt the same when I lost my dog. Emotions are always so complicated. Hang in there. If you ever need to confide anything, my DMs are always open.

I'm so sorry for your loss. 🫂 Losing a pet that has been with you for so long feels so hollowing. She lived her best life with you. If there's anything I can do to help in any way, let me know and I'll be there. 💙

You have nothing to apologize for.

Trazellie taking a selfie, except only half of her head is in the frame and the other half of the photo is a blue sky

"Blue Sky? Yeah, I love blue skies, too. "

( I am glad she is beloved 🥰 )

she is so high fructose corn syrup 🥰

It's just Trazellie rambling about Tataru's Boutique