Obligatory "look at it, it's got anxiety"
07.03.2026 00:23
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Obligatory "look at it, it's got anxiety"
A memetic hazard if you will
"2026 is the year of the horse"
The horse:
Thanks! It's a fun project to work on while I look for full time work with benefits. Really grateful to Thomas Webb for making it a super easy decision to join the team.
Just when I thought I was out, they pulled me back in.
Anyway I'm starting work on the pixel mmo Soulbound on Monday.
Some of my best story ideas have come from a feeling of "I want this thing to exist and it doesn't."
When I made quest chains for WoW, I was always thinking about the version of the thing I was making and how I could improve upon its previous iterations.
Anyway I'm doing that for Romantasy.
This is big "it's what plants crave" energy
"My dad is a lawyer and I took one semester of law school" has worked to get me kicked off every jury I've made it to the box for.
11 years. I had a good run.
I don't feel like I've left some magnum opus on the floor. There isn't a story I'm burning to tell. And that's what I am at the end of the day. A storyteller. The medium has never been important.
I look back at all the trauma this industry inflicted on me and I just. Was it worth it?
Eyeing some hard left turns on my life trajectory.
I'm finding it really hard to justify staying in game dev at this point. I've accomplished so much, I got my dream job right out the gate, I've made the things I wanted to make.
What's left but to be chronically underemployed?
Re: Price discourse
The problem isn't the price point of games. There are tons of games at virtually every price point.
One huge factor is that there are so many amazing games still compatible with modern devices that new games are competing with legacy titles. Not a bad thing! But a factor.
I know self publishing is an AI hellhole right now, but is traditional publishing still a """viable""" route? I am starting to feel the beginnings of a book percolate.
What do I do if not make games? The reprise.
the cycle of “devs working for years to make a game > game launches (and it doesn’t matter how successful it is) > two week waiting period > most of the team laid off” is not only entirely unsustainable but genuinely horrifying
The cloud of executive dysfunction after my trip is starting to lift. Not a lot. But enough that I can maybe go outside tonight. And shower.
A lot of studios will keep postings up simply to screen for unicorns. They don't need that role filled but if someone absurdly qualified comes along, it's something to apply to.
It's a demoralizing and shitty practice.
What do I do if not make games?
I have to be an adult and file for unemployment and cobra benefits today (there was some weird garden leave situation at Amazon, my last day wasn't until Jan 26th), but my executive function is in shambles after my trip. This unfortunately can't wait.
He tried real hard to like it, I think, but not being the target audience is... new for him.
My extremely boomer dad about Bad Bunny: "It's not my cup of tea but I'm not mad about it."
His main expression during the show was '?????'
Real hard to watch Big Sporting Event rituals without wanting to throw things at my screen.
Nothing quite like getting lost in nature to put things into perspective. My problems are small and temporary. I am small and temporary and it isn't a bad thing.
The best we can hope for is to make life better for ourselves and those around us in any way we can.
Willing to bet that hairstyle has a hilarious name in the barbershop
Prepping for a long car camping trip and a friend helped me put together a little plywood platform to sleep level. I've been car camping for over a year for LARP and it's frankly astounding what a huge quality of life 12 degrees is.
comic: when it happens I hope people ring bells and blow horns. if I'm asleep I hope to be woken. I won't mind. if I'm in traffic I hope to see revelers. If it causes a traffic jam I won't mind. I don't want to exist a moment not knowing that it has happened.
Lil' comic about hope and longing 💗
I worked very briefly at an Ubisoft studio in 2020 and that was enough to put me off the entire org.
My heart goes out to those who have to deal with that out of touch, utterly sociopathic leadership that treats devs like interchangeable pawns.
Hope feels nice. I'm just gonna bask in that for a bit. Reality will be there when I'm ready.
Picked up Star Rupture in Early Access and it's scratching the Satisfactory itch and a few others I didn't know I had. Already INCREDIBLY polished, with maybe some opportunities for progression smoothing, but like... wow.
Survival + Factory + Shootin' Aliens is a winning combo.
