Kieran ♿🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈✨

i want to smoke a weed but im so under hydrated today and still need to brush my teeth 😭 maybe if I vape instead i can wake & bake tomorrow morning. i almost never do that

Being disabled is so fucking hard. We're supposed to have a maintenance guy come in to check something out in our apartment and I'm trying to tidy up because our place is embarrassing but I'm getting so lightheaded from being upright I just want to crawl in bed and hide. Partner is working so...

I would rather die than take an oral exam 😭 that would be my worst nightmare

One of the great things about the US healthcare system is how impossible it is to get anyone to tell you how much something is going to cost before they're threatening you with collections

I don't think he should be "cancelled" (for lack of a better term) but he definitely should apologize still.

Holter monitor results came in yesterday. 91-156 for all my recorded events, and all 3 auto triggered events were tachy too. I'm back on the ivabridine and no one is going to take it away now that I have demonstrated suffering for the 13th time 🫠

I wish y'all wouldn't have handwave it with "oh, states that are cold." I should not be paying $200-$300 on for "delivery" of my $100 worth of electricity. A studio apartment should not cost $500 in electric. It's EverSource being criminally insane.

Tbf EverSource is extremely corrupt and continues to raise prices/fees for no good reason. I use roughly $100 of electricity all year round, including winter electric heating, but they charge us a "delivery fee" of $200-$300. I should not be paying $500+ for lighting and heating a 0 bedroom studio.

Holter monitor is finally done, just needs to be shipped out today. My cardiologist thinks it's IST and even though I felt certain it's POTS, starting to realize that's not an unreasonable possibility. With my luck, it's probably both lmao

So today begins 3 days with another holter monitor and I have been blursed by extra tachy this morning.

Me: *stands up*
My watch: *SCROMITING*

Prior abortion or miscarriage not linked to increased risk of pre- or postmenopausal breast cancer A prior abortion or miscarriage was not linked with an increased risk of developing pre- or postmenopausal breast cancer in a study published in Acta Obstetricia et Gynecologica Scandinavica.

A new study has shown that miscarriage or induced abortion is NOT a potential risk factor for breast cancer, contrary to continued anti-choice propaganda. Even several abortions or miscarriages does not increase risk. The study used high-quality Finnish registry data.

mind you he's medium support needs but intelligent and very capable of understanding most things. but since he's autistic people assume he can't ever do anything wrong intentionally. it's asinine.

in HS he used to physically assault people and when we tried to have him held accountable for it, he would lie and say you were lying about him and bullying him because of his disabilities. it was so ridiculous. he's a ridiculous person & you cant even say it bc ppl r fckd up & weird abt disability.

him being autistic. ppl have said, in ref to him, that autistic ppl can't lie. I HAVE LITERALLY SEEN THIS MAN LIE. but they're so ableist in the opposite direction that they put him on a pedestal and treat him like he's a baby. he's not stupid, hes rude and makes mistakes. he's just ALSO autistic

there's this guy i went to high school with who is highly involved in the local community (not in a bad way) but it's largely bc he's incapable of minding his business and receiving no attention, and it's annoying bc you're not allowed to criticize him bc people are ableist in a patronizing way abt

Let's play skateboarding🛹

スケボーで階段をジャンプして飛び越えて見せますねっ

i have had approximately 2,500mg of sodium plus whatever was in the food i ate today and feel pretty good 🧂 will probably need at least another 1000 for bed lmao. also wearing my compression socks.

lightheadedness. malaise. chest pain. migraines. breathlessness. tremors. nightmares. pre-syncope. all things i get to deal with the prove i still need my medication 🫠

Also they don't have to compete with their grandchildren for care. So their adult kids don't have an "excuse."

new friend 💓 her name is Dove 🕊️ my compensation for a fantastically shitty two weeks. i have one more coming this Thursday!

Chiitan thinks of transgender people as my mom and dad
cherish my mom and dad for the rest of my life
I love you all

I will continue to spread the message about transgender people until the day I disappear
I hope that all good-hearted transgender people can live their lives with pride and happiness

aaaaaaaaaaaaah my chest hurts aaaaaaaaaah hellfire body hellfire body hellfire eternal out of torment body

If that's what happens, I'm just going to have to request a 2 week monitor. A month. Idk. They keep giving me 3 days to prove I need help with an infamously unpredictable chronic illness. Fuck that, fuck this, fuck them.

FYI POTS is a commonly heat sensitive illness. A lot of us feel better in the fall & winter versus spring & summer. My test results being subpar doesn't mean I'm not fucking sick

It is so clearly beneficial to me but the insurance gods have to decide if im getting tachycardic enough IN THE MIDDLE OF WINTER to warrant getting appropriate treatment. i hate it here. i don't know how i functioned at all before ivabridine. i feel fuckn terrible. still 1 week + 3 days left of this

im going to lose it if i lose access to Ivabridine. my experience coming off of it has been bad enough. i constantly feel sick. like there are bees humming inside of me. my tremors are back. my chest hurts on and off. i feel overstimulated from just how uncomfortable it is to live in my body.

RAADS-R score of 160, did i make it yet?!

i really want some custom communication cards for verbal shutdowns but im broke lol

Anti-Abortion Groups Try a New Intimidation Tactic: Make Abortion Records Public Abortion rights opponents want Indiana to use reporting rules to expose abortion providers and recipients to targeting.

Anti-choice extremists in Indiana are trying to force the release of records for the very few legal abortions in the state (146 in 2024). The purpose is to intimidate patients and providers and expose them to harassment, arrests, and violence.

MINNEAPOLIS (AP) — Alberto Castañeda Mondragón says his memory was so jumbled after a beating by immigration officers that he initially could not remember he had a daughter and still struggles to recall treasured moments like the night he taught her to dance. But the violence he endured last month in Minnesota while being detained is seared into his battered brain. He remembers Immigration and Customs Enforcement agents pulling him from a friend’s car on Jan. 8 outside a St. Paul shopping center and throwing him to the ground, handcuffing him, then punching him and striking his head with a steel baton. He remembers being dragged into an SUV and taken to a detention facility, where he said he was beaten again. He also remembers the emergency room and the intense pain from eight skull fractures and five life-threatening brain hemorrhages.

ICE told nurses this Minneapolis man “purposefully ran headfirst into a brick wall.”

What actually happened is that they pulled him from a car, beat him so viciously with a steel baton that he had 8 skull fractures, 5 life-threatening brain hemorrhages, and couldn’t remember he had a daughter.