When the therapist, coach, tarot, spirits of the ouija board all agree:
“You’re afraid of being seen”
But my businesses rely on me being seen… welp!
Also what does that even mean?! - still to unpack in the next session.
The green eggs and ham is always greener on the other egg of the ham
It takes more than hard work to become successful. But it doesnt make for a sexy story. 🤷🏻♀️
Went to a startup pitch competition yesterday (to watch)… and hot damn everybody sounded exactly the same. As if they all went to the same Toastmasters club 🫣
Omg it’s been a year+ since I said YES to Magical Audios!
So many things have changed!
I dont have my day job anymore 😂
I thought I knew how to build products! 😂 Then I found out too quickly what that’s like without a team and a budget, (a lot more fun on most days lol)
I guess im back here.
I hope there are more feelings and less “hot takes” that are not even luke warm 🙏🏼
When the side hustle is giving more personal satisfaction but can’t pay the bills
Sigh.
I feel like my feelings and stress towards my 9-5 escalated when new opportunities not related to having a day job came barreling towards me.
I want more time for them.
But I also need a stable income not afforded by them (yet).
Said yes to the ceo who lives 2 metro stops away from me. After a lot of back and forth with her.
I know how to build products.
But I know zero about being a founder.
Butterflies in my stomach?
Or acid reflux?
Still have my day job + coaching.
When do I sleep? 😅
My business is still FAR from being able to replace my day job salary - but I was pleasantly surprised to find that Q3 was not red! 🥺
Just did the interview for the Sr. Direcror role.
No feedback yet.
But I walked away from that conversation:
1. Impressed with myself
2. Knowing I gave it my best
3. Feeling that I wont change anything from my answers
Im feeling my oats!
The results dont even matter anymore 😂
Yes
Officially in the process for the sr.director role.
Im pretty sure Im a good fit.
It’s just a matter of if there’s another candidate who’s a better fit 😂
So my confidence is intact.
But Im also starting to reflect more on the question:
“Do i even want this?”
Personal vision doing reality check.
Less than 200 days til my sabbatical!!!!!
Had a conversation with somebody who asked me to be a co-founder/cpo.
The problem space is cool and im personally invested in. The idea is interesting.
What are the things I need to think about/consider? Any lessons to share?
Im too excited - reality check is needed.
I guess being able to articulate this now also means I just gave myself the permission to let go.
Of expectations from people who are not even there anymore.
To stop chasing ghosts that I have long outran or… never existed.
What a feeling.
To whom?
To myself?
To the person who hired me who said i lacked creativity.
To a manager who always had reasons to not promote me.
To another person who questioned the value i provided.
I found myself in an endless cycle. Because there was always A person.
There was also always ME.
Been reflecting more lately about why Ive stayed in this company for so long.
Sure ive changed roles multiple times and pay and culture are good.
But deep down i stayed because ive been forever trying to prove something.
That all the “lack” i supposedly have or no longer true.
During mid year review, I gave my manager heads up that Im going on sabbatical next year before summer.
I am so excited 🥲
Im applying for a Sr. Director role in our org.
Whether I get it or not…
Heck Im not even sure Ill even get through first gate
The exercise of writing my CV alone was so satisfying.
Me to myself: Daaaammmnnn Girl!
😎
we're preparing for re-org wave 123456789.
im discussing with my manager different ways to structure our new tribe.
the most practical and best version (IMO) has no room for my role.
and i struggle to design something with the intention of just having a role for me. 😅
should i be worried? lols
Yes! @parvsondhi.bsky.social came through!
So is this where I can finally writr about quitting my job? 😂
