mutt

get high, fall asleep, give it another go tomorrow

god i am not doing well.

keep grinding away at something that doesnt matter until you rot surely thatll do it

i fear i burnt too many bridges over december and ive either been forgotten or avoided

you want to be known for something. you want people to ask for you. to ask about you. even if its just checking up on me.

you want to be someone though.

its so warm its making us miserable

god i wont shut up sometimes

we made it , gang 💖 to monday at least. you have to treat yourself better than this sweetheart, especially after a long long couple days.

its so warm its making us miserable

we're not going wwell. spoon deficit

im not going to end up being anyone. thats okay.

proud of you girl. after all the crashing out and burning bridges. youve made it half way through feb. i was truly worried.

shes almost out of the woods. everything beyond tuesday is with self dictated urgency

not sure who ive still got rooting for me

not sure what ive still got going for me

im so tired of being tired and ill and fragile

fuck this

it mighg be like this forever

it mighg be like this forever

am i ever going to "get better" or is it all like this

yeah

the thought floating across my mind

im just not interesting enough for the effort of getting to know me.

you made it to the new year yet december still haunts you

why do you keep doing this to yourself

why did you even leave

no one gives a shit why did you post this

vaguepost, sorry that i left again. you shouldnt be reading this. but im sorry.