My attempts at self control mean nothing, you just push and push until you get the reaction you want. Then just tell me therapy‘s not working.

I never win but I try my best

I try so fucking hard every day. Every fucking day I try to endure. I try to let it go. I try to keep going. I try to improve. It doesn’t matter. I’m reduced to whatever they want to see in an instant. In their eyes I’ve become rabid. Put. Me. Down.

I don’t have friends who actually give a shit. I stop mattering when I stop being funny.

I’m so lonely

Wish I was brave enough

Again. Cruel.

There will always be someone to twist the knife

When did you trade kindness for cruelty?

Pro tip: lay there and take it

Sorry for ruining everyone’s weekend. Disappointing everyone one more time and then never again

The life I want will always be just out of reach. A carrot on a stick.

Something’s broken in me and I can’t fix it. It’s just gotten worse over time. I don’t think it can be fixed.

Sell my shit and if you get rid of my dog, just make sure he’s loved.

I wouldn’t hurt. I wouldn’t have to be tough and brave anymore. There would finally be calm. A calm that could be known no other way.

You wouldn’t have to stay. You could afford to go work part time and finish school. You could get out of here. Maybe even buy a house. It’s more than I could give while air still fills my lungs. I’d mean something.

Success was never meant to be in my future

It was never gonna stop being more of this anyway.

Let’s see this stupid fuck lose his precious property value when pieces of me are stained into the walls. Fuck landlords.

Ironic that I would make more money by dying than I ever would by living.

Every day I’m one step closer to putting a bullet in my brain I swear to god shit never gets better. Everything will always fuck you over and push you past your limit and then your worth is defined by how much you can take. You will always feel alone.

I will always be that little boy wondering why nobody gets along. The holidays will always be lonely bc I only exist part time.

Instead of discussions it’s tears and shut doors

I don’t belong anywhere

I had a bad day and was then treated like shit for it.

Idiot slow down, slow down

You broke another mirror

You’re turning into something you are not

My chest pain is back so that’s cool

I don’t wanna think that so I destroy my health. I am invincible. I am invincible.

My heart is just a little boy
Holding hands like brand new toys