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the estrogen goes to my tits and skin and no where else.

move that fat! move that fat!

some of the ways i’ve drawn myself

gender is weird because i’ll go from wanting to be the most womanly woman who breasts boobily down the stairs, to just wishing my brain was inside a robot so i didn’t have to deal with any of the human gender stuff. i wanna go beyond gender. mega woke or whatever.

you feel slimey for a few hours but literally feel and smell amazing. i also use a facial cleanser with a face lotion that also has spf 35 in it. now if only i had an easier way to get rid of all the hair

for any girls who have seen a skin care video go around and are wondering if it works- a week later, my skin feels even more amazing. dry brush before shower, shave, scrub hard with a goshi or african net sponge, minimally dry off, cocoa butter lotion, fragrance, then body oil.

alright i just gotta say it

4 weeks oral progesterone, small pains here and there.

one week fucking boofing it? they inflated.

holy fuck my girls are HURTIN’ today

taking progesterone like this daily better be worth it

2 energy drinks and still napped

i nap and i nap but i am still so sleepy

it’s worth though i’m so soft

skincare routines are nice but they mean being slimey for an hour

however, that one night so far has been the best sleep i’ve ever had. as well all day i’ve felt better than i normally do. i report nothing negative so far. what i take is bioidentical so overdose here is not really a worry. again, i don’t condone boofing when your doctor said to take it orally.

now. i only have one day of experience of this so far, and this is the most personal part. but despite these being oral caps, i’ve decided of my own choice and research to switch the method i take these. you can assume what it is. i do not condone going against medical instructions, don’t be me.

missing out on doses just means for me, some stomach pains, hot flashes, and irritability. which doesn’t sound bad but these are hormones, it’s best to keep them balanced than imbalanced.

imbalance is totally my fault in missing out on doses before bed, sometimes i just fall asleep beforehand. i like to push it to last minute. if i remember, i have great sleep. if i forget and take it asap, i feel drunk. energy drinks are required to stay focused because otherwise i’m just out of it.

i feel as if i have mellowed out. my higher emotions have felt great still, but my low’s aren’t always world ending anymore. as well i have been able to control my anger better, gaining patience and getting less irritated. the only negative side effect of progesterone is drowsiness or imbalance.

as well my skin has started to tear around my thighs. it’s hurt like a bitch but i can only assume these mean growth- if not then that means i just need to take better care of myself and my new sensitive skin after nearly a year and a half of estrogen. progesterone changes have mostly been mental.

i have been on progesterone, 100 mg capsules for about a month now. i take it nightly right before bed as instructed (how though i changed myself, we’ll get to that). over the last month i haven’t noticed much in terms of bodily changes. the main thing is more tenderness and pain in my chest.

please note below gets personal at times, i’m talking about my body here. i don’t mind sharing the details but if you’re not good with TMI stuffs, this isn’t for you.

Progesterone stuff below: i tend to be secretive about myself outside of lady lifetime who i’ve always viewed as simple a character. when it comes to my transition however, if i can share info to help others i will. especially when there is still a lot of necessary research needed for HRT.

Middle school into high school was a strange time. i knew i was a woman, i was happy thinking i was. i would think of how people would perceive and see me, and it made me so happy. then my friend group formed. racists, misogynists, homophobes, and transphobes. i was stunted.

the complete 180 i’ve made since has made me so happier with myself. i understand trans people now as one. i understand what privilege means and why i can do what others can’t. i understand reparations and redlining and everything. i don’t want applause for this change. just talking.

deconstructing from right wing self was one of the best things to ever happen to me. airing out laundry, i used to be racist. i used to be homophobic. i used to be transphobic. i grew up in a very shitty majority white area and would say words i shouldn’t have just to seem cool and fit in.

i feel so bad for nonbinary people y’all really are just forgotten about and stuck between the problems the “binary” genders (a MAJORITY men and masculinity) create.

me when i realize ACAB includes inspector gadget

it feels like no one says his name when talking about who ice has killed

KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR. KEITH PORTER JR.

canon balls were always funny and comedic to me until they showed us The Patriot in history class and i never felt the same since.