Hey all. Having some tough times right now, but March art is up! Check it out at www.codefreespirit.com. Channeling punk rock in a confrontational piece to our social conditions. Thank you for your support. #art #digitalart #illustration #protest #punk
I’ve never been married, yet I had a wife. I’m not a father, but I have cared for my children. I own no house, but I had a home. I was lost, but I had safety. Now I have nothing of it except what I came in with.
Chiron’s been in return for me since July 2024. Still have March to go and the pain is intense. Realizing the people I love can’t/couldn’t ‘see’ me leaves me with almost nothing. Twice now in my life. And it’s not something I can repair alone, so I just hurt. #astrology #healing #hope
For the moment we first talked, we just clicked. On my end, I felt like we just kept clicking, but then she’d start disappearing into herself, and I’d be all alone after taking care of everything. Even when it was just us, she’d disappear. Now she’s totally gone, and I’m a sad sack.
Trying not to beat yourself up is the hardest thing because trying is kinda beating yourself up. Trying to heal and figure out what I learned. I don’t know. This one’s hard because it feels like I actually had a real family and I messed it up in one night of going silent instead of getting angry.
Today’s song: Nothing compares 2 U by Sinead O’Connor. It’s been 15 days since she took my love away. Crying alone in my car never felt more gut-wrenching. To lose someone who meant so much. I know I’m just a statistic to the world, but what I wouldn’t give to hold her hand right now.
Need to stop reading the same texts over and over again. There wasn’t a wrong. There were two exhausted people drained from the same thing being emotionally unavailable to each other for a long time. Despite being really really in love. End of story.
Sorry all, when I get emotional, my Virgo moon talks about my process and how I make sense of others and the world. I tend to spew. And yes, you may have guessed I’m going through a breakup and trying to process my feels. I do it better in art, which won’t drop until April on my site. #astrology
I feel selfish that I do expect a partner to be able to do some of their own emotional processing on their own. Is it selfish? I had to learn the hard way and against my nature so as to be a better partner. Is it too much to ask? I’ve always been a repair not replace person in a relationship tho.
Not a business post, but just feeling emotionally alone. Told my healing process doesn’t work for a family. But my process is to be the best version of me I can be. Seems like that’s exactly what every member of a healing family should be aimed at. I don’t expect more of anyone than that.
Hey all! February art is up on my site. The Birdwatcher. You can now get as a download or art prints. If you subscribe, you get killer discounts and there’s a fun contest coming up. Hope to see you at www.codefreespirit.com #art #digitalart #comic #illustration
Happy New Year! I’ve been busy so my administrative and promotional time has been lacking. But January’s art is up. Topographical Bearing. I hope you like it. #art #digitalart #illustration #bears
December’s art is up. Title: We don’t really celebrate Christmas in the apocalypse. I’m behind on my admin stuff. Time seems thin, but check it out at www.codefreespirit.com. Thanks all. #art #digitalart #illustration #darkart #postapocalypse
Considering my fat thumbs nearly spelled two hashtags wrong a moment ago, I wonder if there’s a wasteland of misspelled hashtag posts on Bluesky somewhere? It’d be kinda fun to find out.
I guess I won’t let Monday stop me from posting my ad… this week. Please check out my art at www.codefreespirit.com and become a subscriber to get all my monthly downloads. Thank you for looking. #art #illustration #digitalart #supportartists #findmyaudience
I try to avoid Patreon after bad experiences there, but anyone in the art community here have some positives to share? #art #illustration #digitalart
After closing myself off publically for so long, coming back to social media to try and sell art is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. So… you know… subscribe to my monthly art over at www.codefreespirit.com. #art #digitalart #supportartists #illustration #findmyaudience
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Anyone else in the USA feel like we’re living in Lord of the Rings? You think people of Gondor were like, “how does this Islidur guy get away with all this shit?!!” Wish I could hang in Hobbiton, but it is what it is right now.
Listening to On The Media. As a person living everyday with the scars of trauma, I get that it seems like the cure for trauma is to destroy your perceived threat. Unfortunately, the trauma endures when you make your threat the people fighting your political revenge. Seek equality, not revenge.
Creating art on the war torn streets of… Portland, Oregon??? Frogs are friends. Subscribe to my monthly art at www.codefreespirit.com for $54/year. And no tariffs. #art #illustration #digitalart #supportartists #findmyaudience
November’s art is up! The Library at the End of the Universe. Check it out on www.codefreespirit.com. I’m playing with selling prints starting next month. I don’t have a place for inventory yet. #art #illustration #digitalart #darkart #fantasy
Last ad for October. No witty lines cuz I’m sounding like an NPR podcast, although they do more good for the world than I. My favs: The Pulse and On The Media. Subscribe to my art. Codefreespirit.com. Blah blah blah. Witty ads will return with Nov’s art. #art #digitalart #illustration #tarot
Comic page depicting an isolated man in a cabin the forest. His head is pounding with obsessive thoughts about depression. The pressure of the thoughts is so much it literally crushes his head in.
Just want to thank everyone who has followed me and reposted my art. I posted pics of a hastily drawn, unfinished comic earlier. Here’s a one pager that I drew on a break at work about my dynamic with depression. It’s a few years old now.
Little bear sleeps on bed. Hears a FUMP. Wakes up. Father bear in his underwear has drunkenly flopped in Little bear’s bed. Little bear tells him to move. Father bear shouts No! At him.
Little bear sadly stops arguing. Tries to get up and crawl over his drunk father. Trips and the unfinished panel is Little bear falling.
Serious question: should I stop spending my time doing monthly art pieces and focus on making my first full graphic novel? I don’t have time and energy to do both right now. I feel I need some guidance. I draw little comics from dreams, but don’t have time to finish them. #art #illustration
USA is really hard for INFP-types like me right now. The very air we breathe feels ripe with conflict and disharmony. I try to be strong and stay reasonably vulnerable so I don’t shut out the good with the bad, but today I feel weak and hopeless. I’m not a great Samwise to my Frodo right now. 🙁
Secretly hoping Pete Hegseth is dramatically disappointed in my gym attendance. Subscribe to my art today at www.codefreespirit.com for full access to all my monthly artwork and member extras. #art #illustration #digitalart #supportartists #findmyaudience
How else will I afford to buy those sexy wolf pajamas I’ve left in my shopping cart for years? Subscribe to my art today at www.codefreespirit.com for full access to all my monthly artwork and member extras. #art #illustration #digitalart #supportartists
Had a really not fun day yesterday and am so not looking forward to today. Can I just snuggle into some blankets with a nice mocha all day today? We need an emotional fitness routine with a recovery day after frontal lobe day. Sigh. This is why they call me a dreamer. #emotionalfitness
