Sethron Draigh

Nesting nesting nessssting~ doing something about my brain~

I wish I had someone to show a movie to who would delight in it tonight. Caoimhe kinda decided she was not gonna have a good time so now I'm lonely and depressed.

Today I made a call to make a psychiatrist appointment after a 7 min therapy sesh (I cut it short; tired); I had hoped to get 2 other appointments scheduled, but the psych appt involved being xfered, leaving a message, getting called back, and then lectured about not making appts enough by the nurse

I've been feeling incredible body dysmorphia. It's been hard to feel pretty and that's difficult

Spent the day working on LARP props. I'm gonna tell you scope creep is the word of the day, and that's way cooler and more wonderful than the political takes bouncing in my head. #dailies

Imo, secrets have two purposes: 1) to protect the vulnerable, and 2) to manipulate people. The problem is the latter will always masquerade as the first. Always consider what a secret asks of you before acting on it, and ask if you'd regret it if you were being manipulated.

Sleep and I were not friends last night. My body feels so stiff and pained. Ugh. #dailies

Today was wonderful. #happybirthdaytome

I was in bed since Sunday with gout flare up, which sucked, but tonight I got a bunch of Sigil stuff done which was awesome #larp #sigillarp

Sigil went amazingly. The next Campaign game is in April, but the Court Game--which is a day game low-impact parlor LARP at a friend's house for $20--is coming up in March. I'm stoked. People really enjoyed themselves, and so did I. #LARP #sigillarp

"if it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, walks like a duck, but doesn't fuck ducks .. it's still probably a duck."

#nocontextjono

Context: my s/o is a trans woman

Me: baby
Her: ... zZZ
Me: BABY!
Her: ... What?
Me: I think you've become a fully realized woman
Her: ... Why?
Me: cause your feet are cold... And they are on me.
Her: pffftahahaha (presses cold feet against me more thoroughly)
Me: this is the true sign of womanhood

I love my friends, and I am so happy to have them. I am, also, emotionally fragile. Every small mistake feels like a breaking of bones; every small thing falling on my head feels like a skull-fracturing event. I desire less of this #dailies

I did therapy today. Still hate it all. I'm tired of life, the universe, and everything. I think I'll go back to bed. Someone bring me a cookie #dailies

I went out today. Did some sewing. Saw some friends. I don't know why every part of me wants to die right now, but my mood can't seem to increase. Maybe it's the overwhelming dread. Maybe the drugs aren't working anymore. Maybe I need more food, or more joy, or something. #dailies

The feed for me is completely time-based. But I'm looking at a #mutuals feed and a list, not the Discover feed or anything.

Today I'm doing a lot of recovery. Hibernated a lot. Tired a lot. I need to draw for my patreon but I've not even posted my poll. I'm barely alive. #dailies

A friend's new content~

Me and the crew went and organized the LARP shed. It went well, but was a lot. I'm proud of us and how impressive we are.

Tomorrow I'm off to Middleground to organize the shed and see what stuff needs to be thrown away and what stuff gets to transfer to our Sigil space. I'm looking forward to it, honestly speaking. At that point, we'll know what everything is gonna look like. #larp #sigillarp #dailies

How is she so cute?!

... The dog, too, of course

My item cards and gathering nodes are done for Sigil. Getting closer every day to feeling prepared to run my first weekend boffer LARP. I'm anxious, of course. But I think it'll be okay. I need like 1000 headpats a second, though. #graphicdesign #sigillarp

Too chill, honestly. I followed you back, but you gotta accept me. My problem with MeWe right now is that nobody's on there. It's crickets. I want it to be more active.

I desire the ability to react with different faces. Alas. That sucks

MeWe: The best chat & group app with privacy you trust. Brilliant features with no BS. No Ads. No Spyware. MeWe is the Next-Gen Social Network.

If you miss Facebook functionality, mewe.com is my recommendation. Right now few of my friends are on it so I'm not as active there, but it is basically Facebook sans ads. It even does events. mewe.com/sethron.60

I have mewe as well as a Facebook replacement. It does everything that Facebook does, but is way less invasive. I only use bluesky more because my friends haven't migrated to mewe

You're not giving up. This is doctor recommended and gives you quality of life back. You can always go back on chemo if it doesn't work. It's okay! You're doing amazing

My current tactic is to watch my friends advertise their bluesky, and then go to that friend and find all the people who followed them and friend the ones I know. #dailies #tipsandtricks I'm also adding everyone I know IRL to my list on my profile.

Speak of graphic design, my website for Sigil has a members page that colors people according to their Culture and I am happy about that. I need to work on so much more art; right now it's just pulling any old drawings I've done in the past. #art #graphicdesign #webdesign #thevoiddragonart

Today I went to @eight-pointed-ruin.bsky.social and received Meat Pies as a tribute for my visitation. These were delicious, and the dragon is much pleased with the fox's summoning. #dailies