low (on trash)

always so scared that people are treating me with kid gloves, or just waiting for me to shut up and go away

I think you underestimate how hard it would be...

so fucking lonely, all the damn time

my family only tolerates me because they'd feel guilty if they cut me off

I have just... utterly failed

at everything

the only one that comes close is probably deciding to try bodybuilding, only to find out I've got Hormone Problems, meaning that bodybuilding is physically impossible without steroids that I can't obtain without unacceptable risk

there has been no other decision that's negatively altered my life as much as that one

some time after 2020 I made a pact with myself that I'd become a Good Artist™ mostly with hutska in mind as a model, and if I could go back in time and beat the shit out of myself for one decision, that'd probably be the one

I really enjoy how dynamic your poses are, and how deliciously cronchy your muscle shapes are. Plus your lineart is damn clean, and apparently that's what makes art Good™, so as a painter I'm obligated to be jealous of that.

umi and drinsanatomy and whatinsomnia and sami and gnawli and 7,000 other artists and god I'm so tired

pirun and Quadratouring and villainyy and guzreuef and taru and akhara and djdarkfox and chaztheredpanda and jinroki1 and salsabubble and ayanamifan and neekko and edgypoacher and arata and moosin and marvolk and greentark and megguado and acommonmisconception and drakei and daygo and woynich and

I wish I could draw like stagor and noeticchasm and heize and nekosaibot and aaat and hutska and phurreh and df43 and newberrychucks and regularaccount and adleto and raze and saunasaur and agon and starwolf0 and 69yano69 and dangelo and lal0 and avrgdexbuild and deriaz and lewdotch and alisteir and

Okay, how do I stop sucking at art 😭

Deliberate practice unironically scares me unless someone knowledgeable is leading me and judging my performance

That's why you never see any proper studies from me

But I'll never be able to draw realistically or good ;n;

Just remembering people like Hutska or Phurreh exist *hurts*, and stylized art like aaat's or heize's hurts in a different (but equal) way

You already get plenty of attention, aaat.

does it even make sense for me to post art at this point? it never hits off

You're in safe hands... as long as I can see you.
Gift from my good friend, @lowontrash.bsky.social

You don't even get to golf. You just sit in your apartment all day, and sometimes walk next door to chat with the fox chick.

Though the landlord DID assign you to take care of a blob that sloshes around with a sword. So there's that.

The only furniture you get are a chair, a burning torch (you have no windows), a table, 4 flags (with pics of stuff the landlord killed), and a mannequin with one of the landlord's costumes (some sort of pink ninja thing??)

And then the landlord dunks you in some lake of goop he found underground, you turn in to a fox-guy with (absolutely zero explanation for why he did it, or why you turned in to a fox).

But that works in your favor with your next door neighbor, who is also a bimbo, fox woman, and childhood friend.

The landlord occasionally starts beefs with martians that will attack *your apartment complex* in particular, and then he sells the martian shit for like $20,000, and yet he still charges rent (~$500/mo).

You gotta feel for Terraria NPCs

Like, imagine you're just a guy that likes golf, and the best apartments in the area are 1 room, 20sqft boxes some dude built out of dirt and wood.

Then the landlord goes around dressed like a tiki, finds a pet tiger, and kills God (and then God 2 thru 29)

I'm taking that as a "no"

it appears that you're the only one willing to admit such a thing

Would any of you join a discord server that had new art posted
BUT
only the artist can send messages or screen share

haha asking for a friend

I'm not holding my breath 😓

It'd be nice for something to go right again

sadly I'm only compatible with people that are at least as fucked up as I am

← wishes he could move out

getting flirted with irl must feel nice