18↑ | 🧿♀ Ishtar 🌙 ♂ NSR OC hell ♇ 🍉

NO NO NO YOU DON’T

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Since cubital tunnel is fucking w me, i’d have limited slots, & esp bc im still stuck in the awful ass job i got that i may have to axe out for my health’s sake, & there being no responses to apps ive submitted so far

But I need to get something going somehow

& id only accept chars w visual refs

But i can try?)

& also find some way of additional income.
& see if ppl take interest

Considering its all experimental / rough sketching I won’t really price the min that high, probably a $15 minimum…? & if ppl wanna pay higher up to them (might add more to the sketch if so)

But we’ll see.

Tho,

I may go forward w the pwyw headshot/bust ipad sketches as both a way to learn how to use the old ipad i have (i never learned to use it is because the surface honestly to god physically feels like a nightmare to draw in, even after I gave it the paper like screen protector it remains insufferable),

I will note that unfortunately I am incapable of taking comms, as mentioned in the link, so I’m… Mostly stuck having to resort to this rn as a result

Further, I do have other donation links as well which—are here

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After swallowing my own pride I’ve gone forward w this—despite how much i hate making these posts

Aims to move out for my own sake & my future are falling through financially
Any donations or even shares are appreciated—it’s been a very difficult spot amidst so much going on.

gofund.me/c03ae8268

Offering a spot so I can grab food until Monday. I will also resume working on Monday. Weekends I have off. Commission form is below.

forms.gle/dgw5qGizACfA...

Adding on also that I could also do more than headshot/bust stuff once I feel more comfortable if I can get ipad to work—tho the minimum starting point might be around $25-$30 ig

If that’s something people would want…?

The PWYW min may be anywhere from $10-20 & honestly they’d be rough sketchwork, nothing too clean (unless if my perfectionism takes over)
could add more details or cleanup or even glow effect stuff if more than the min is paid?

Not sure—its a consideration

Maybe its something I can offer if people want something in exchange—I don’t know

I’m just clawing at anything at this point bc I admit, desperation due to watching everything fall through + how alone I’ve been in this is kinda heavy
But maybe this can be a way of giving something in return ig—

Tunnel, its…

I need some way to at least pull in something income wise to not lose what little I have

& although my tablet is busted, I can… Try to work on my older ipad I’ve had for years if I can somehow learn it (although i don’t know if I’ll ever be able to use it for more than sketchwork)

So

Chronic pain/illness making this job that’s overworking me into the ground & potential job loss on the horizon + no luck w other job searches (& also, trying to find another pharmacy to work at as a tech just has been… yeah…) + the fact I’d lose insurance possibly & lose physical therapy for cubital

Genuine question ig: would anyone here be interested if I did PWYW headshot/bust sketches?

I’m—at a complete standstill of what to do w my own situation to raise money to get away from here, since most outlets almost always fall through

& with the looming threat of my body giving out on me bc of

your chronically ill friend... isn't lazy - they're sick. isn't "making excuses" - they're sick. isn't flaky - they're sick. isn't avoiding you - they're sick. isn't attention-seeking - they're sick. isn't faking it - they're sick. isn't "too young" - they're sick. isn't "negative" - they're sick. doesn't "just need to try harder." isn't failing - they're surviving. doesn't need your judgment - they need your support. isn't a burden - they're doing their best to carry one. Spoonie Saga - Not medical advice

@spooniesaga on insta

kill the imposter syndrome in you head because not only is there someone out there doing it worse than you, they're also using chat gpt to do it

Anyways.

My own chronic illness flares
are to the point where
Due to this place running me into the ground with overwork, & them pushing us more?
I’m constantly having to call in more, bc my health’s on the fritz & I’ve even been developing more/new symptoms

Aside from cubital tunnel also being from my job

From “you’ll only pay this & sometimes other things so you can save”, to turning me into their damn backup piggy bank while invalidating & shunning how i fucking feel for them taking so much & ruining my plans to move out & pursue my future outside of here & arguing anytime i wanna quit

Almost 30 years of emotional abuse/toxicity, & now financial abuse from parents (this being the biggest reason my fucking funds are sabotaged & turned into their funds, bc they forced me to be the damn backup to them & used my credit score for this fucking place they can’t even keep up with & went

I’m going to have to apologize for all the vents.

I seriously don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m well past my breaking point & I can’t keep it together anymore.
& Honestly I’d be keeping all this on my sode acct & not main but I’m tired of hiding how bad shit is

I don’t know if anyone would be interested in that though…

But atp I’m genuinely not sure what I can do anymore to try to earn income, especially if I end up having to cave

Because the job is decimating my health, & if it gets bad enough it might upend so much for me

The only thing I can think of is opening up PWYW commissions for rough sketches, in which I’d be trying to learn how to use an old ipad I had since a long time ago for art

I never used it for art beyond a few times because its a nightmare to draw on… but atp I’m desperate & my tablet remains busted

On top of me possibly losing access online, while being stuck in a toxic living situation
Which will ruin my mental health further (bc im literally isolated irl)

…I’ve tried anything for help financially, & its… Gotten nowhere

& I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore.

… Might have to quit my job after all.

Its completely destroying my health.

Downside?

That means I’m going to enter severe financial instability if I do.

& with not knowing if I can even pull in comms nor knowing if I’ll even be able ti get help financially?

Its going to trap me deeper here.

Glowing text on a black background. The text reads: "If you see this, name your favorite thing about this character's design.". The glow is a faint hot pink color.

A screenshot of an OC's ref, that being Ishtar, an NSR OC, with celestial themes for the ref sheet background. The reference shows their daytime palette, & shows both their human & alien form, with both forms dressed in their performance gear. Both forms show their nose & lip piercings. Their human form has tan skin, sharp pointed nails, purple/pink/gold ombre hair, pointed ears, pink irises with a heart pattern in the center, pink glittery eyeshadow & lipstick, & black markings/tattoos along their chest, forehead, & sides of their thighs are visible. They also have star like freckles along their cheeks, collar, & shoulders. Their alien form has pink skin with a purple/pink/gold gradient along their limbs, with space patterns along them, in addition to a purple/pink/gold tail with three tendrils & extended fins. Additionally, their markings/tattoos are a pink glowing hue, & while their lips & eyes remain the same color, their sclera is a faint tint of purple & the hearts in their eyes also have star rings around them. They also have fin-like ears accompanied with axolotl like fins, & horns--both features being glowy in hue. They also retain their star-like freckles. Their performance gear consists of a black catsuit with pink/gold gradient accents, crescent moon accessories along the hips along with solar ray like accessories, connected to the outfit with a star of ishtar pendant. They also wear thigh high black platforms heels with shooting stars for the heels, a black witch hat with zodiac signs on the brim & galaxy patterns on the inside, & rings/star charms on the end of the hat. Their fingerless gloves & neckpiece are also black with gold/pink accents, with zodiac symbols on each glove. The neckpiece has a stylized venus-mars symbol.

An illustration featuring two NSR OCs, KK & Ishtar, celebrating the New Year on a balcony at night. KK is on the left, smiling at Ishtar with two sparklers in one hand, & a hand behind Ishtar's near the star between them. He is wearing the two bracelets Ishtar gave him, glowstick bracelets on another arm, a black jacket with neon green star accents, pink shades, a blue star themed shirt, & jeans with stars on one of the legs. There is also a party hat on his head, one on each ear, & one on his nose. On the right is Ishtar smiling back at him, holding two sparklers in one hand, & using their magic with another to form a star between them. They are wearing their glasses, one bracelet on each wrist from KK, & a low cut sequin red dress with a rose & chain accessory at the center, cut outs on the sides of the hips, mars symbol hip accessories attached to the dress, & thin gold chains across their chest & hips. They also have a glowy 2025 themed headband on their head.

An illustration of Ishtar sitting on a flat surface, holding out a mistletoe (with a star ribbon) before what is implied to be someone (or the viewer), gazing towards them as if inviting them for a mistletoe kiss, reinforced by the speech bubble next to them which features a heart & a question mark next to it. They are seen wearing a short, form fitting red dress with off the shoulder bell sleeves, star-like patterns along the chest, sleeves, & hem of the dress, & star hip accessories on the sides of the dress where there's a slit with ribbon across it. They also sport matching thigh highs & a star-themed earring. There are string lights in the background of an alternating red & gold hue, the gold lights being stars.

Trying to lighten the mood so
Thought I would post this here

(Have yet to post the first image... but it is their updated ref stuff)

#OC:IshtarCelis #OC #OCart

A sketch of the NSR OC, Ishtar, as masc presenting. They are looking towards the viewer & there is a glowing heart emote next to their face. They appear to be topless, & their star freckles along their cheeks/collar/shoulders are visible & glowing, just as their eyes appear to be glowing as well with the heart patterns in their eyes visible. Their chest marking is visible as well. Their hairstyle remains the same (all swept to one side with bangs covering their forehead & forehead marking), & they still have their star nose piercing & snake bites.

[ #OC / #OCart / #OCsky ]

Leaves masc Ishtar here to make up for hardly posting on this account (Yes it is a sketch only but alas)

#OC:IshtarCelis #nsroc #nostraightroadsoc #nsr #nostraightroads #art

🌌 QRP to reintroduce yourself! 🌌

Ishtar here! 2-D digital artist who is very fond of space/neon/occult/futuristic aesthetics ✨

My #art 's more #OC / #fancharacter focused (w rare fanart), so expect to see lots of that here (esp my oc Ishtar)
Esp as I begin sharing more in depth about em all 💖

A glowy red shoulder-up sketch done on a black background of the character, Kaletu, who appears to be looking down towards someone off screen, with a mocking / amused expression. There is dialogue from him that reads “Tch—Backing down so soon? Things were just getting interesting… Where’s your bite gone, dear? The victim act won’t save you, and… It’s more fun when you put up a fight~.” The sketch of kaletu shows him with part of his hair in a ponytail, & the rest down, with a solar halo around where the ponytail base is. He has solar arcs around where his arms/shoulders are, & his solar markings on his face, neck, & ears, along with his nostril & solar ear piercings, are visible.

A glowy red shoulder-up sketch done on a black background of the character, Kaletu, who appears to be looking down towards someone off screen, with a more predatory glance, licking his lips. There is dialogue from him that reads “Now now, dearest, don’t let me down—I was just starting to enjoy this! C’mon—Why don’t you give me more of a thrill right before I go in for the kill?~” The sketch of kaletu shows him with part of his hair in a ponytail, & the rest down, with a solar halo around where the ponytail base is. He has solar arcs around where his arms/shoulders are, & his solar markings on his face, neck, ears, & chest, along with his nostril & solar ear piercings, are visible.

☢️ [ 2025 #art / #digitalart / #ocart ]

⚠️ Abuse implications

The shadow side of the false sun

(Stress doodle. I… Hesitated on posting this, but, fuck it.
This is… sort of a glimpse to my OC ishtar’s past with him. How he was with them.)

#☢️OC:KaletuAdhikari

Today is Sex Worker's Rights Day. Sex worker rights are human rights not just because we're humans just like you, but also any rights taken from us will be taken from you too.

Surveillance, police violence, debanking, censorship, we faced all of those for years before it turned on everyone else.

US people, make sure to fucking explode your's representative phones, protest loudly whenever the comittee for these censorship measures is being held, make damn sure to be as loud and disruptive against these fascists as possible.

tried to do comms it's never gotten anywhere
but I don't know if I'll find one to get out of a place that has really messed me up in the aforementioned ways.

& It hurts.

Bc this has just taken all the life out of me, & I don't even know how much more I can keep up atp
I'm still trying to hold on.