The Roo After Dark

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Productive stream tonight. Thanks for stopping by.
Here's some big mouse boobs, for the road. 🧡

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Because of Telegram purging NSFW channels/groups lately, I went and made my lewd art channel private, in case it helps, which generated a new link. So if you are interested, here is the new one:

t.me/+Xq0x3PNh_rJ...

You know what would be a fun activity, friends masturbating next to each other with toys. First one to orgasm then has to help the other orgasm by only using toys and no other contact.

Banana Jello Pudding flavor from coldstones. Was too entrenched from the idea of it to properly communicate it.

I was hoping to have a few more pieces finished and posted here before I opened up again, but things are gettin tight and I don't really have much of an option atm.
So, for the foreseeable future, comms are open again. If you have any inquiries, please send me them via DM here.

I just want to be able to talk freely about things and interests like so many others have the confidence to do so. Maybe share the art/animation/stories/toys with others that are intimate in nature. Show me your kinks, and I'll show you mine.

I want to be able to both separate emotions as friends while doing things partners do and have all the lines blurred but understood and trusted. But have everything just be able to come together.

Also I want to just be more connected with friends and talk about sexual stuff, explore topics, share tips and hints, build trust with those I care about so we can relax together and do literally anything in ways. But also able to sit in someone's company and not really interact when low energy.

Not normal, not safe, just feel ok. I can improve things once I'm ok. Hell, if I find a way, I want to travel and visit friends. To return to a position of enjoyment in a field I have been educated on. I want to remain child free till I know the world is a safe place. I want to have enjoyment again.

I know that sounds bad, but I need an outlet for my sexual energy else it keeps just frustrating me and making me anti social. That and I need a shower installed in this house so I can sit in it, scream, and cry all at the same time for 40 minutes. I just want things to feel ok.

But I have to move on, no matter what. I have to make sure I make lists of things that need to be checked or kept up on in the house. And I need to make my own private space now. I want to be able to relax. Enjoy life, and fuck a sex toy silly so I don't have to be around others.

The nightmares and daytime flashbacks of finding my father after a heart attack took his life continue to haunt me on a daily basis even with meds turned up to 11. I still fear that I can't be the real me at home yet because it just feels like he will pop back home and yell at me for everything.

Is it strange if I can't recall making the last few posts to this account?

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All I want is to feel comfortable even if it's just myself by myself. What places make good safe torso toys? Or strokers? Or sleeves? Because I'll take anything right now just to distract myself by any means.

It would be foolish of me, a dumb idea... The wrong reasons... But I nearly don't care any more. I'll just get a fuck toy, anything and fuck myself happy, even if I know that won't help anything. I just... I don't know how to deal with these emotions. Sex is not a solution, but is still something.

Yet I'm just... still here... even when every inch of me wants otherwise. saying I'm tired is just old news now. But I don't know how much longer that will keep myself from erasing myself.

Honestly since my dad past, I've felt very angry and frustrated. I've been slapped onto 2 new anti depression meds. and the side effects are really pushing on me. I should be allowed to enjoy things, or even find happiness in sharing things and events with others. Helping Others.

I'm just tired now, of seeing friends getting hurt and there is nothing I can do about it. Or I'm ghosted or I'm treated like I'm always "Too innocent" I'm tired and I can't even keep up my many layers of masks. Even if it means scarring everyone away, at least I will know why.

And honestly I'm tired of the fact I can't step up or when I do others just wave it off. The rule of boundaries, I am breaking a boundary being depressed and talking about anything even slightly sexual. But it's not a boundary break when others drop their emotional and sexual interests to me.

It might not be in my cards but honestly... I might just end up getting either a new toy for myself or like a half torso toy just to have something I can hug at night. I know this might seem weird but over the last few months I've just felt worse and worse in my social circles.

The worst feeling is waking up and feeling so pent up and sensitive, but you have no urge to deal with it so it's like sitting with an itch I refuse to scratch.

Hell... I may even get a second toy that's something that can let me experiment a bit.

I was already thinking I need to get a new toy for myself... didn't realize it will need to combat whatever side effect this is. Let alone the cost now a days and safety points to keep in mind. At least with only my mom and nephew in the house, I feel safer keeping something like that now.

It's not from piss... Why is it that things like antibiotic and now mental health drugs keep spiking my sexual things... What's worse is I'm not feeling horny, it's just... body is like "cum now" me feeling confused and pressure building up like when I have an orgasm... ugh...

To expand on this from my more NSFW space: The few side effects seem to be increased sweating/abnormal increase in body heat feelings, Increased hyper like activates beyond my norm. And the urge just to have orgasms. Like not actually masturbation, just suddenly I fee pressure down there and...

woo, my at home Vasectomy-Fertility kit was done and it's negative. I'm still snipped!