Adar's tiredness

No one is good at enduring sadness, Elrond🥺 I need to change the subject at times, too. Or to be alone when I feel unreasonable. Or to cry my eyes out…

*Certain words Elrond says make him stare at the half-elf for a while. “How to be a helpful support in your life”*

...😳

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Am I? Those comments always catch me off guard😳

I guess by "my elf" you are referring to Elrond. Or is that Maeglin? Both can react in a very cute way to compliments🥺

I take care of my wargs, my children…

Just before, I was with the ones staying here, practising archery. Not all of my children stay in just one place, many still rotate. It is up to them, they are free to choose. Some expertise in a task while some others prefer different ones…😌

...Which is funny, because probably I would have described it as “ridiculous” to anybody else. But it is the first time I hear some of my own thoughts out loud spoken by a different being🙃

*Chuckles silently* I am well, you see. My earlier wounds healed unexpectedly well.

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To mourn is to love so I accept it. Without that love I would not have survived Utumno. It is part of life, too… Uruk life, at least.

...Though Elves also found their way to mass graves, no need for Uruks to intervene; jewellery was enough😶

*Nods* Nothing of what you say feels ridiculous to me.

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Inside your curiosity, you still held a little hope. It still amazes me how after a whole life living without hope, we were still driven to find what we had been denied for ages...

Ereinion is right in that hope is never mere 😌After all, hope gave birth to Mordor...

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I am fine with that. You can never let me go 🖤*closes his eyes, savouring Elrond’s lips in every kiss* You are too good for me. Warm as sunlight but harmless to my children...🌤️

You know it's true

Why do Humans like to complicate things? Specially when they have to do things like pee and poo more often than others 🧍🏻

I merely describe the things you have done to this old tired Uruk🖤*his fingers entangle with Elrond's* ᴳᵒᵈˢ, ᴵ ʷᶦˡˡ ⁿᵒᵗ ᶠᵒʳᵍᵉᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ˢʷᵉᵉᵗ ˢᶜᵉⁿᵗ ᵒᶠ ʸᵒᵘ ʷʰᶦˡᵉ ᴵ ˡᶦᵛᵉ💕

Pencil sketch of Elrond kissing Adar's neck from behind while grabbing his neck (Adar is really enjoying it)

The choking thing ✨

One of the many things I drew over the weekend and gave me a stupid hand tendonitis 🖤

PS: Take breaks 🙃 Note for future self and anyone needing to hear It💐

It was unusually warm and pleasant. And it awoke things that had been put to sleep for long🖤🌱 *leans his forehead on his, smiling dreamily*

You are so sweet... No wonder my Spring Fever started in the middle of Yule🥰

But I think you could just… take these gifts and drink them all. Fill yourself with them without self-judgement or any wonder about the future.

It is what I do right now. I do not know whether they will last or how long. I just take what is given to me. I allow myself to enjoy it while I can.

Compared to you, I have been a fortunate one. I always had my children. Giving up intimacy to protect them was not hard for a very long time.

I certainly cannot tell how things will go for you. My own experience applies only to myself and it will always be uncertain.

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*His expression softens under the shadow of a sad smile*

Sorry about the misunderstanding. I see what you mean now. After so much unwanted loneliness, how not to feel… disarmed when you notice such a change? I can see why you can even find it difficult to accept it😔

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I see. Some couples enjoy the thrill of being caught in the middle of the-...🧍‍♂️Or is that because there are brooms more special than others?😗

💘💌💖💫🩷🌹💞✨💓

Nikai is using the extra hour of daylight for extra howls.🐺🎶

I do not speak leisurely. But you are allowed to distrust me, of course.

*A moment of silence, in which he diverts his gaze again, not wanting to build on to the other’s discomposure* ...You are also allowed to speak your mind plainly, Laithrûn. At least, you can do it with me.

*Now Adar cannot avoid looking at Laithrûn. They seem really disturbed and it puzzles him, because he is not sure what he has said to stir such feelings on them.

Is it because he said he cares for them? But what is the relief of knowing them alive and having them in Mordor, if not caring?*

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Oh, you are liking this, are you not?🥰 *keeps massaging him happily* You can stay, 𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘣 𝘻𝘪𝘳🖤 I am sure you can organise a bath much better than I. I can go get the water… just like that first day at home.

I still feel curious. But I do not feel the calling with the same intensity… I have to say I was very melancholic back then. I felt like I did not fit… anywhere. It was a not good feeling so sad surrounded by so much happiness🙃

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I see. So broom closets are a place for emergency intimacy. Do they have lockers and all?👀

*Noticing how their eyes evade him Adar stares very intently at the details of his gauntlet like if looking for a loose screw* I care for you. And I am sure I am not the only one...

Hm. But I guess you are referring to completely different ways of "caring".

*Talking about the past is not easy even for two Moriondor who shared the same horrors. That is something Adar is just learning, and it might seem Laithrûn does, too*

Nor merely survival *nods* Yes, that was my main goal coming here and claiming Sauron’s plans just for us.

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Broom closets! Elrond and I were wondering what are broom closet used for... in a Nâzgul context. I say "in a Nâzgul context" because, apparently, Elves do not have broom closet related traditions🤔

Now I really would like to see Sauron's reaction to the powers of Talion's moon😆

Hm *massages Elrond’s hair thoroughly and thoughtful for a moment. Cheeks a little darker by moments* Hmm…😶

You might be right. Bathtubs here are big. Perhaps… I can go bring some buckets of hot water while the coconut oil settles in your hair😳