Manders is venting

Managing everyone elses emotions on top of my own with this much stress going on is going to break me.

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Y'all, this is my brother in law - he's doing better! He's at home! But there is so so much healing left to do because brains are delicate things that don't take well to being scrambled. If you can spare anything to help, I'd be so grateful. <3 I know shit is rough for everyone.

My body is fighting so hard to not let this cold advance into anything but man do I feel rough.

I am sooooo exhausted after last night, but it was so worth it. In the past 2 years I have done exactly 4 things (other than my wedding) that were for fun outside the house and not medical.

I am so hyperfocused on neopets rn, lmk if you need anything. Not a brag but I'm wealthy and would love to help you <3

I posted my card on my main!

Added!

Idk the last time I was this stressed out. Everything is awful.

Fingers crossed for both of us :)

I used to have beautiful long curly hair :( Then my immunosuppressants decided that era is over.

POTS can kiss my ass

But for real I think its about 50/65 atm. I'm dizzy even sitting up. Time to down a bunch of gatorades and salty snacks that I just happened to buy today. It's like I knew.

My blood pressure feels like it's in the negatives

Their rate is reasonable, hopefully the quote (tonight or tomorrow) isn't too bad. I'm so anxious that I feel sick.

Our heat and hot water are both out. We need to call in HVAC people, but our landlord will want to do an inspection first. Our place is so messy that she will freak out for sure. So we are having to speed clean, and I'm getting a quote for someone to come in and help us. This is awful. I'm so upset.

There has been a lot of animal (not mine) death in my life recently, and it's really wearing my emotions out. So much grief.

My tummy hurts a lot :(

Reminding myself daily that it is a privilege to grow old. These white hairs and soft wrinkles are reminders that I've survived everything I've ever endured. Wear them like badges of honour as we carry the weight of those who never got the chance to wear their own.

People are exhausting today.

Tummy ache :(

Youre a wonderful human that deserves a brain that is nicer to you!

I'm so sorry friend :(

Wholesale Club!

Someone expressing an unmet need is not a personal critique towards your character.

And even worse, it's of blood cancer.

I keep getting ads about cancer and cancer treatments and it's freaking me out. This happened before with rheumatoid arthritis just weeks before I started showing symptoms of it. I know it's probably a coincidence but it's genuinely scaring me.

People who claim to hate drama sure are posting a lot about drama.

I love that no matter where I go, I make friends with chronically ill people. We always find each other and that is a certainty in my life.

Thank you 💕 I appreciate you. I'm just really frustrated with life right now. When I think I'm drowning, life shows me another depth to sink to over and over. Taking it moment by moment but everything is so difficult.

I appreciate the few that care enough.