Blonde ⭐ Mrs. Self Destruct | Resurrection Arc

Context: - lawyers for Trump’s Justice Dept lie. They have lied to judges. They have lied to juries. They lie to the press. They lie to us.

RIP Catherine O'Hara 😢

I've audibly gasped at too many headlines today and it's barely 1pm

..and yes, I absolutely saw @nin.com back in August in Chicago. Next month I'll be in St Louis for more - right beside the B-Stage and I cannot fkn wait!

Current world events make me want to completely shut down and hide, but concerts are my salvation and I have to make good memories while I can 🥹

so still samesies then, got it! XD

thank you so much X2! ☺️☺️☺️
So glad to see you're still on here!

Selfie of a smiling couple indoors. A woman with long wavy blonde-and-dark hair wears a sparkly deep red V-neck top, hoop earrings, layered necklaces, and red lipstick; a man with glasses, dark hair, and a full beard leans in beside her wearing a plaid shirt. Textured glass and wood paneling are behind them.

Apparently getting COVID and embarking on a soul pilgrimage makes the internet disappear for a while ;) so uh, hi! 👋🏼 it's been a minute.
I turned 40 last Friday 😬 so here's a 🖼️ from my quiet celebration. I've lots to report back on about the last year (in due course) 🤘🏼
What's new bsky?

I do remember doing this once or twice.. but I just took a Valium chaser when that happened... I'm also not a doctor and probably wouldn't recommend anything beyond keeping an eye on your heart rate and nausea :/ slow deep breaths, hopefully you'll be okay 💜

I saw an article a week or so ago saying the pay is like $150k a year so why wouldn't someone do it as a career. I just inferred as being propaganda since that income amount just seems so low for *that* stressful of a job and responsibility 😬

thank you so much for your kindness 💜

okay I don't feel so weird about it now. it's now Day 16 since exposure, and the sweetness is now day 3. I gotta take this one day at a time I think. Pedialyte gets salty then it doesn't, which is also bizarre. Thank you for sharing your experience with me! Always helps to know I'm not alone 💜

oh and playing music.

One of my acoustic guitars is going into the living room. No more of this shyness shit. No more excuses. It's in my genes to play and sing, and not doing it is a waste. That's the only regret I'll allow myself to wear.

the sweetness happened to you too?! I thought it was probably due to my my vape, even though that's a strange thing to suddenly happen but lungs were built for air so anything's possible? 🤷🏼‍♀️😂 but that's probably the standout, hacking up strawberries wtfffff XD

That being said, once covid is done wrecking my energy, I'll be back to doing more writing, more streaming, more art, more reading, learning to garden, more exercise, etc. I'm done with surviving, it's time to enjoy things again and start living my goddamn life🤘🏼

I did everything I could to not be like my mother, but it still happened anyway.. now that's someone's head I never want to get back into again - that much I do know. Could kiss the ground it was just nurture and not nature, and I was able to get out of those thought loops while I could 💜

I'll take all the strength I can get 💜 this is where some painful things may happen and might become final, but I'd rather do it while my parents are still walking the earth, and love them all more than I hate the situation... I don't excuse the bad behavior, but my dad and brothers are victims too

you poor thing :/ I'm hoping the Sudafed and Flonase will keep any possible sinus infections away from me, but that's where all fingers and toes are crossed. I'm glad my cats haven't been sick most of all tbh

Yesterday I just stayed in bed all day, today I'm a bit more energetic but I don't want to overdo it. At least I can taste things! Even if hacking up phlegm has a sweetness to it? wtf? it's even grosser like that IMHO 😂 my immune system is already pretty bad, so I'm being pretty ginger with things

I needed that off my chest. I think that when it comes to forgiveness, it's not about others; I think it's about forgiving yourself - anything someone else has done doesn't feel as heavy anymore. I can't get that time back, but I can use what time I have left to love a bit harder & break this curse

I'll be 40 next birthday, so I just want to have this divide and deception put to bed, some truth on the table, and be able to share my story. My narrative has been told by others since I was 5, and that's a horrific reality to realize and face. It's cost my home, my identity, my name, and my life

My entire existence has been an illusion - it wasn't my violent marriage, it wasn't my brother's temper, it wasn't my dad leaving... it was a mentally unwell mother who had my blind spots well and truly covered. I think today or tomorrow will be when I find out how a discussion with my Dad goes 💜😬

once impossible are reaching a healing point. I never thought I'd be able to speak with BOTH brothers again, and currently waiting on possibly speaking with my dad again - another situation I never thought would be possible. I'm possibly opening up a new can of hurt with this, but I have to try

Most ppl who know me are familiar with the lore of my family (or lack of) and my rocky upbringing, normalized family violence, being raised by my oldest brother as a teen etc. The past few months especially has seen a massive 180⁰ and a lot of old trauma has been worked through and things that were

Ah thank you 😩 yes the sinus pressure and headaches have been next level. I'm so glad my throat isn't feeling like Caesar's back anymore more than anything. It seems if I light a match I can smell the sulfur, not sure if that's a safe measure 😂 but it tells me I've got some nose fight left lol

oh god, that's alarming 😱 my taste/smell skyrocketed to superhuman strength after my weightloss surgery, so I'm hoping it balances out to what it used to be :/ maybe? idk, this is just a disgustingly insidious illness 😩

So I've been battling COVID for almost 2 weeks now 😭 finally took 5 years to hit us, now I just patiently wait for my sense of smell to return and the screens to not burn my retinas

Selfie of me, blonde haired female laying in bed with a black Siamese cat on my pink pillow

I got COVID for Valentine's Day - well, we both did. Our boardgames group got wiped out. I'm still feeling like death warmed up, hoping my brain stops frying soon. Moira is a good nurse, even if she prescribes cuddles and irrationality 😍 hopefully will resume less mind-melted posts soon 🤘🏼

For reference:
Procedural generation is shuffling a deck and dealing from it.

genAI is feeding every card deck you can find, including ones not for the game, into a wood chipper, slapping a handful of the bits on some glue, and pretending its a playable hand.

It helps to believe that there is something else ABOVE all of this.

Ex.: Love, Music, Creativity

An unelected South African billionaire - who has probably never read our Constitution or grasped the values America - at its best, represents, now has the unfettered power to demolish our country - piece by piece.