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if rain on a metal roof is also your favorite flavor of rain asmr i have a treat for you

anyway it's really nice that me and shae can like, always be kind to each other even when we're both at our fucking limit

and picked up that the best way to be accepted is to not need anything and etc and like, my mom had major me/cfs going on most of my childhood so some of it i can forgive but tbh most of it is just her garbage belief system

but then i remembered my mom and how i certainly always felt like my hard time was dismissed in favor of her hard time, and how good little godly girls don't complain and get upset and etc and how if mom was having a hard time i subconsciously knew to lay low and

been pondering why it feels like, unsafe? and dismissive? when shae expresses feeling bad when i also feel bad or like, i can't express having a hard time when shae is, and to be very clear!! they are not at all being dismissive or unsafe at all!! but like the gut reaction feeling is there u know,

i am ready to blink out of existence

as if they wouldn't all just sell for $200k more than they're worth but still 🙄

overheard my ~everything is something to bitch about~ type coworker saying "i don't even bother going to the beach anymore. it's just the same old shit, not gonna waste my time" and i'm gonna need ALL of his type to FUCKING MOVE so those of us that actually wANT TO BE HERE CAN BUY A GOD DAMN HOUSE

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oh my god lmao cats are really amazing creatures

omg we alllmost bought one of those instead and went the lazy route bc we were already at the pet store the day before we had to move the cats lol we still might do it if he doesn't gain some butt proprioception

like this is why we used a kiddie pool for a litter box at our old apt like he genuinely thinks he's too big for the jumbo size litter box

last night i watched julian get in the litter box and poop right over the side onto the mat?? and tonight managed to keep his ass in the box but stepped in it and flung it on the wall????? he was so flummoxed both times to see his poop in an unexpected place omfg his brain is a smooth hollow blob

aaa i tried that! and i tried keeping onions in the fridge and, there was something else 🤔 so far nothing has worked besides swim goggles and this lmao

lmao because my eyes burn and cry sooooo bad with onions!! 😭😭 like i become unable to function, only wailing and clawing at my face

it does!! honestly it worked better than my onion cutting glasses but not quite as good as swimming goggles, but like, goggles are a pain in the ass to put on, so

me with a plastic wrap shield on my face holding a little yelllow green parakeet trying to figure out what the hell was on my face

lmao also found this really silly pic of me and piman, i used to clip plastic wrap to my face when i cut onions and piman was really concerned every time

i know right 🥹🥹 i think we'd appreciate seeing the same stuff and also eating a lot of ice cream apparently

a blue and white cafe balcony by the sea

a house on the sea cliff

red poppies in front of the ocean

a view of the docks and trees in enoshima

yunho is making me miss enoshima so bad 🥺

isn't it!! they're so pretty and fearless i love them 🥹🥹

house finches feasting as usual

AND a chestnut backed chickadee!

tiny brave little chickadee :')

and walking around my absolute favorite area of tokyo 🥺🥺🥺🥺

watching yunho go up the exact same escalator in tokyo that i've been on many times is slightly surreal

hyunjin selfie with an apple i mean a ball gag i mean an apple in his mouth

hyunjin mirror selfies he is a beautiful vampire

sure that's fine i'm normal

me too :')))

sometimes you gotta sit in the car listening to enya and stare at the water sparkle after a hard work day

every shaboom performance is so deadly it's really the perfect choreo for yunho to flick perfectly between silly and hot every .4 seconds, his signature k.o move

exciting news the birds in our new neighborhood have found our feeder!!