scalpelfrot 🔪

Accidentally invented sIutbIoc tonight

kinda cooked photo of a closeup of a face

distorted white text on a black background

figure wearing blackbloc, but bra / cleavag is visible, so it’s slutbloc

a crutch hanging off a brick ledge, backed by a lightly cloudy blue sky

I think these 4 photos capture my essence fairly well

fun train fact! Train tickets are only insurance against a fine!

fun insurance fact! Insurance is a scam!

fun train fact! Old men will stare at you in fear and confusion if u wear a silly outfit on the train!

alt text cuz i forgor: 4 selfies, 3 indoors one outdoors. A person wearing blackbloc-adjacent cloths with assessories. However a button down shirt is open at the front revealing the person’s bra / a tiny bit of cleavage

Accidentally invented sIutbIoc tonight

could it be a getting gunk and grime in it over time issue?

got medicated for POTS, I can exist, i feel normal, it’s genuinely amazing

it’s still so over for u rn

deletin da apps for a while, i probs will be back

i used to see my friends creating amazing artworks and feel jealous, ‘i can’t do art’, it took me years of effort to unlearn that, it’s not easy to break away from the slop factory, it still has its claws in me

thinking about the world artistically itself is a skill too, I was dogshit at it, I still am a lot of the time, but, I have grown, slightly, and that is what matters to me

I have days where i have no artistic inspiration at all, i find it a sign i need to use my phone less and let my mind idle more

I have days where inspiration hits but i hit a skill wall, but I force myself to try, because each time I fail will be experience gained

My drawing sucks big time, but like any skill it starts off as total dogshit, my sewing took a while, my writing is still shit, i only draw super simple characters, but each time I try, I can learn from my mistakes, & with time your skill explorations then begins to channel artistic intention

being normal becomes harder every day

A NEW HAND TOUCHES THE BEACON

MERRY CHRISTMAS, YA FILTHY ANIMALS

draw a little guy, seriously, it will fix you, once u realise you can make a little guy, you realise can make anything you want, my little guy was a crab, he can be found around the place

A person in cool black pants (homemade)

A person in a black jacket (which is homemade)

A hat that has scalpelfrot embroided on it

A colourful pair of pants

The best things iv done this year were a mix of the audacity of “i can do this” and removing myself from the jaws of the algorithm by sitting under a pedestrian bridge and just thinking until I have ideas again. Be it the pants, jacket, hat, writing, deciding to learn yoyo, and a bunch of other shit

good video, watch, put ur phone down, make something, go paint words on your hat, practice a skill, if you can’t think of something to make without ur computer, then lay on the floor and look at the underside of your desk until you come up with an idea, or 4 hours elapses (it won’t, trust me)

go learn australian sign language so this video can inflict 1 hp of psychic damage on you

huh i didn’t know it was an adhd clown-posting day today

it’s still so over for u rn

it’s soooo over for u rn

i do enjoy that i can have more conscious control over how my voice sounds when i am actively trying, but, with that greater control iv also gained a more chaotic uncontrolled state

i actively chose to not do american voice training, i had some success, but now my voice is a bit all over the place as ill unconsciously slide around the weight and pitch and stuff a lot more than i used to, but a lot of that is just a product of not paying attention to my voice.

tried to make a hat, it didnt turn out well, unforch a bit of a waste of materials, but there is things i learnt that i can probably improve next time i guess

selfie in a train window, Subject wears full black outfit with mask and is wearing a cap, one hand holds a phone while the other holds onto the overhead hand rail

i can’t describe how much i fucking love my jacket it like,,,, completes me look idk how else to describe it

next i wanna make a new hat, or maybe i’ll do a commission for someone again idk

bathroom mirror selfie someone wearing full black wearing a mask

mirror selfie dusty blurry full black outfit

finished my jacket

crashing out in a friends server over useless cargo pockets placed inconveniently because they don't expect you to actually use them and its cheaper that way

well shit now idk what to make next

so happy i made myself find time to work on this (i was feeling sick and didn’t want to do my job)