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MY SWEET BOY JUST PASSED HIS DRIVER’S TEST!!! 🥳🥳🥳 @wildtorterra.vtubers.social

Im so fucking proud of you, Tristan! 💚💚💚🥰🥰🥰

I need a human’s touch

But you don’t need me.

I need a human’s touch

And I’ll fight to get the help I need

Because I have to
Or else I’ll pay money for jack shit
Thanks America
Thanks Missouri
Thanks god in heaven almighty
That our country is free and my labor is underpaid
🦅🦅🦅🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

I am not obsolete. I am human. Stop taking one part of me and disregarding the rest of me. Stop it.

I have to fight to receive the healthcare I can’t even to afford only to realize they mistreated me after because of PERSONAL. BIAS. And charged me MONEY FOR IT!!!!

Doctors used to not bat an eye at the label, but now they have no issues making faces. Sometimes I put my deadname and don’t mention gender just to feel safer. I’m not there for gender affirming care. Help me with migraines. Help me with my early onset arthritis. Take me seriously.

A song I first found through some good ass TikTok edits of Tenna, but has a different meaning to me in this moment.

“I need a human’s touch
But you don’t need me.
I need a human’s touch
But I’m obsolete.”

This is how it feels to have marked my gender as enby with Missouri doctors right now.

Recently, when my mom was not pleased with me she wrote both my preferred and my dead name on the letter she sent in the mail.

I see through you 🔥🔥🔥

BANGER and I love the voice of in this cover RAAAAAH FLAVOR FOLEY

Ego Renegade Boy (FLAVOR FOLEY) / vally.exe【COVER】 YouTube video by vally.exe

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Should have known I would not make it through the work day when I posted this first thing in the morning 😭😭

Sometimes it is hard to stomach how little the world cares and how much other people judge.

It doesn’t matter, right? It’s just judgement.

But then laws pass and I feel weird and less protected day by day. More alone even when I make friends.

It’s hard to trust people, but I’m doin my best 🫶

But my disabilities aren’t my fault, nor are they bad, nor should I hate them.

Sometimes I just wish, despite all of logic and kindness in my soul, that I could will my body to no longer be disabled.

Or perhaps I yearn for when I was ignorant and just blamed myself. In ways, it was easier

I know I am loved despite my struggles. Lately, I hate my brain and my body, and the ways in which they struggle. But I don’t blame myself. I just hate struggling so much in a world that doesn’t care. Or perhaps, just a state that really doesn’t. Haha. Who wouldn’t hate that?

But I’m not alone anymore. I still reach out to people and do my best. Also, even when I’m alone, I’ve got my kitties with me. Even then, despite everything, I still like my own company. I know when I make mistakes, that I’m working on them, that I will get better.

And that’s not the westerns intention, but that’s how the lyrics hit me today when I play it on a loop. Perhaps I cannot trust myself to be in a room with someone without lashing out. Perhaps I know if I talk about my day, I just get so upset I lose control of it and say shitty stuff I don’t mean.

Especially my rage, which escapes me like a steaming kettle whether I want it to or not. Scalding those around me until I’m left in a room alone and sad, but happy that I’m no longer hurting anyone.

“When you go to hell, I’ll go there with you too.”

My brain replaces the lyrics “to” to “through”

I wish I didn’t. But I don’t blame myself, either.

Especially when the other person I care about is hurting in their own ways, I push them away from my suffering.

Not out of self isolation. But out of a desire to protect others from my strong emotions, which for now, truly aren’t in my control.

If Genius is to be believed, then yes, these lyrics are meant to depict a relationship where her partner is not committed to her via proposing despite how long they’ve been together

But for me, the lyrics mean something else. I push people away when I’m going through hell. Even good people.

I genuinely cannot tell if the relationship described in these lyrics is a good thing or not. Perhaps that is the intention, implying that the singer doesn’t know either. But they know that they’ll be there for each other, and for now that’s more than enough 🫶

Laufey’s voice is Valentine’s core 💘

Silver Lining YouTube video by Laufey - Topic

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My mood this morning

Should have eaten before therapy.

I wanted fish nibblers. Didn’t get any.

Pov: you ate some funny looking eggs

I love Doechii’s real ass lyrics, and this song is no exception. Hits extra hard while I’m on my period today

Pms YouTube video by Doechii - Topic

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When a Spiny Shell is about to hit a racer in Mario Kart World, it aims for the center of their model before exploding. For small racers, e.g. Goomba, this results in a single frame where it fully envelops them, giving off the appearance of the shell itself driving the vehicle.

Circles YouTube video by Betu - Topic

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Good tune 😌🎶

So fun to sing along with, fits perfectly in my vocal range 🥰

BLACKBIIRD YouTube video by Beyoncé - Topic

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I know that even on days when I don’t want to talk to a single person, that I am not hopeless.

I get a bit antisocial sometimes.

I also have days where I talk so much I forget to drink water and my mouth dries out.

Both are true. Both are me. Both make me happy on different days :)