lillian

gooodngiht

every day i become a little more comfortable in my identity and that makes me happy to know. i feel *so* much better after actually confronting the things i thought were so terrifying. i've also been getting a bunch of did related content thrown my way coincidentally which has helped tbh

some days it feels like im a dog and a girl in a trenchcoat stuck together and i think thats okay

my head hurtss... need waterr

glldognith gamersl;;;;;; have a friend watching ovr puppy:D

okgay maybe i am a little more than juwst tipsy after two drirnks

Signed - girl with a color deficiency

according to the bottle my E is light purple and thats gotta be the biggest lie ever. them shits be blue

doggirl pirate who goes "ARRRRRRRRFffff..."

*locked and happy for an extreme length of time, talking 8+ hours

i am making sure to keep hydrated the whole time as well which is a huge upgrade to what i used to do when i was a teen

cyberpunk is one of the few games in recent memory that has the ability to just keep me sat there locked and happy, working my way through 100%ing it on playstation currently, fifth play-through total (played ~100hrs on pc)

sleepcalling with the friend who moo's back at minecraft cows

i've graduated to dog woman also cyberpunk is so fucking good. goodnight 💜

if anybody (i follow) wants too, feel free to add me on any of the various thingies i use. i like talking to new people :D.

bai bai for nows

discord -> lillianro.se, fluxer -> Lillian#0001, matrix -> lillianrubyrose:mozilla.org

this was less complex than expected.. sorta. i feel better and i'll be less volatile as a result which is good! the therapy session helped a lot.

using bsky less isn't a bad call thou, i find myself looking too often for something that i wont find here.

i think lily is due another social media break. really struggling with some stuff and i just sorta feel alone. i have friends and stuff so i'm not alone, just, gotta figure out some stuff internally. removing the possibility for looking at doom posts is a good idea for me right now. ill be okay.

awawbawbawbaaaaa goornight

who is em and why does everyone want to bed her?

for reference it's 22:45 currently

goodmorning. puppy has a normal sleep schedule

first few rocksky scrobbles from citrine~!

doggy needs ahug,,,

i've been using zed for 3 years at this point and it's the only editor besides the Jetbrains IDEA platform that actually has good UX (imo), and honestly this might be the thing that makes me renew my Jetbrains subscription

what the fuck is zed doing

I think I'll start pushing code up to the repo again when I have remote streaming (+local cached downloads), scrobbling (I'll finally be able to use rocksky :D), and the current TUI more polished. The TUI polishing will take a while. Good!

I had plenty of brainworms for a while around software, LLMs, and such. Following the right group of people here has definitely helped, and I guess the conclusion for me personally is checking myself to make sure I'm not putting myself down below a text generator

internally deciding that my music player will be done whenever it is vs thinking I have to release it Fast and Soon has been nice because I actually care about the code I'm writing now

feeling,,blblblblb;;; miss wife

all I'm saying is that I haven't slept this nicely in a long time and I don't think it's a coincidence