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I think creating primarily commissions for years and hardly any personal art kinda screwed my mental. It still feels difficult to want to create anything if its not a task from someone.

Part of trying to slowly heal my relationship with art is realizing
“wait…. I can make whatever I want?“

Still hard to internalize after years of trying to maintain a “brand” and only really making what i think other people want to see.

Perhaps the sudden stress and trauma response from recent events has put me deep into a flare. Not sure though.

For the last week or so my back pain has come back with a vengeance after not dealing with it to this intensity for almost a year.
Tiger balm ibuprofen combo didnt touch it, heat and massage isnt helping either. I feel freezing despite my skin being really warm and ive been nauseated for hours :(

Thank you all so much, I got enough to get back out of the negative AND to cover next weeks therapy session. 😭💕

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Hi sorry to ask again but im $96 in the negative after therapy and my patreon acc doesnt have enough funds to withdraw and cover it so if anyone could throw some funds my way so I dont keep getting hit with late fees id greatly appreciate it ;;

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Im tired of this grandpa

That shit always pisses me off. Like “ youre not supposed to talk to anyone close to you about the unsavory parts of your life or feelings unless you pay them for it!” Dude like wtf 💀

“Hey!” “Hi! hru” “im having a bad day i lost my job and my car broke down” “omg stop trauma dumping!”

So many folks, neurodivergent or not, teaching themselves how to hide their true selves. Thinking that being “normal” is going to make them happy

Honestly do they even care about being happier? Or not feeling like a burden? or is it fear of judgement? Maybe all of the above. We live in a sad world

just saw a video saying “autistics, stop oversharing to keep your friends, talk to chatgpt instead, it will save your social life”

How fucking sad is it that many are resorting to talking to ai bc they think they arent safe to be vulnerable and genuine with others anymore.

It doesnt magically go the fuck away. I DEVELOPED ORTHOREXIA FROM IT FOR GODS SAKE BUT HUH IT SEEMS IM STILL CHRONICALLY ILL AND CANT LEAVE BED! CRAZY!!!! HOW AM I NOT CURED???

Meanwhile ive tried every diet under the sun, tried forcing myself to work out every day even when i was sick, was so thin it was making me sicker, ive been at many different weights and tried to force myself into many different variations of “healthy” lifestyles because i didnt want to be sick.

“Oh, youre suffering from -insert list of symptoms caused by chronic illness-? Have you tried eating whole foods and fixing your gut? It will cure you! dont be lazy”

Holy fucking shit holy tone deaf

My grandfather just passed away. He was battling stage 4 cancer so we knew it was coming but it still hits like a truck. I wish I could have seen him one more time before he passed.

Idk if its one of the things or all of the things. The trauma from being used by people, the depression, being an introvert, but also being severely chronically ill and barely having the energy to feed myself let alone socialize.
The autism? the adhd? the me/cfs?All of the above?

Okay I have to ask, does anyone else struggle to reply or hang out with friends because its too exhausting or you never have the social bandwith?
Then you just stare at their sent messages with guilt and then cant get yourself to reply?
I hate that I cant seem to fix this with any amount of therapy

And those people who burned you often never reflect on their own actions and just think that you distancing yourself was a personal attack

Like oh shit I've had to distance myself from people who ended up exploiting me and now Im alone

Then when I find a new connection it happens again, so I stay lonely to keep from getting burned because Im too tired for this

”if you say everyone leaves you or youre lonely it must be for a reason” (implying youre always the problem

I think thats cruel to say and assume about someone. Ive had so many people walk out of my life the second I stopped being a pushover and now im lonely

Truth is a lot of people are just mean

When youre disabled, unemployed and unable to drive etc, people tend to forget you exist and its extremely isolating

Anyone want some art to help a poss out? Eheh... 😅

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Why is that so rare tho

Im not jumping ship yet but I do want to gauge my options

What discord alternatives are yall using so far?

Why does discord insist on being fucking dumb

Like youre telling me i cant use my little possum emotes from my own server???? without giving you money???? Hello?????? So stupid.
Also no thanks I dont need my privacy violated.

Ik peeps want to have some superiority complex for having never bought nitro, I personally had it for larger file sizes, longer messages and server profiles which made managing multiple servers and work stuff easier

I did cancel btw
I also find it stupid that emojis are locked behind a paywall

Strangers on the internet support me more than 99% of the people in my personal life

Always talked over, my interests are never as important as everyone elses, ignored in groups.

Ive left almost every group chat and stopped talking. I would keep crawling back after feeling neglected. Im not doing it anymore

Healing makes me realize how much poor treatment I tolerated out of fear of being alone.