🌱 slug

I'm trying my best, but that doesn't mean anything. No one cares if you still fail. It just makes it even more pathetic that you still couldn't do something right, even when you put in all the effort you're capable of.

I should kill myself.

I woke up and I really had to pee, but someone had just walked into the bathroom, so rather than wait some indeterminate amount of time while holding in an uncomfortably full bladder, I just got a goodnite out of my closet and put it on before letting loose.

You think they're ugly? :(

Peeing yourself kind of stops being hot and just turns mundane and unnoteworthy after you do it enough.

I don't know why I thought I'd use this account much.

7/10 experience I'd say. Would be more fun if I didn't have to think about cleanup so much.

I'd like to think it's pathetic in a cute way.

It's so hard to masturbate in pull-ups without putting your hand down them, but I don't want to have to go wash my hands after, so I'm just stuck here trying to find ways to hump stuff so I can cum.

I get that being ostracized or sidelined or just a little unfulfilled sucks—I'd know—but to just wish you could stop enjoying something because the rest of the world can be cruel and judgmental about it? I want to demand better of the world, for the sake of all the other people hurt by it.

A few times in my life I've met other people who are incredibly ashamed of having a scat fetish, to the point where they'll say things like "it's a curse" or wish they could "get better" (read: conversion therapy themselves out of it). I could never imagine wanting to stop being myself like that.

Getting bullied as a kid for the very short list of things that you'd later find out bring you sexual pleasure is a really great way to end up fucked up for life.

Is it so much to ask to be an 8 year old again except I get to have fetishes and not be punished for exploring them?

Being a kid sucks, too, but that's mostly society's fault.

Being an adult sucks.

There are no good artists on bluesky for porn, it sucks so bad. Like sure all the western ones get to stay for whatever reason but they keep banning all the cool JP illustrators and I hate it.

I wish I felt cuter. I wish I were smaller.

@paizuri.moe If someone ends up thinking I'm one of your alts, it would be super funny, and embarrassing for at least one person involved.

Freud would feel so vindicated by me.

If the XXL goodnites don't fit me I'm going to be sad. Make no mistake, I'll make them work—they are getting pissed in, I just don't know how much of a hassle it'll be.

I still don't know who the fuck to follow tbh.

Being into "gross" fetishes but not liking disgust or social attitudes around it is tough. A lot of people I've met will say "I like it /because/ it's gross", but I don't want it to be gross in the first place. I want positive reception, not a sexualized negative one.

Everyone is so mean to me. God forbid women have fetishes.

Anime girls.

I'm going to shit myself this upcoming week and I'm going to enjoy it. Hopefully.

Looking in the mirror and seeing an adult body and an adult face is honestly a little traumatic.

Drugplay/intox is so hot but the problem is every time I look for it, it's all just drunk sex. Alcohol is gross! It sucks! Sedatives aren't fun either, like at that point just fuck a corpse or something. Put girls on psychedelics and frazzle their brains.

Touch your little sister (me) in sexually inappropriate ways.

Rabbits being the furry incest animal is so cheap. Like sure they have more tolerance for inbreeding but they're not actively fans of it. Wolves, on the other hand…

Am I like the one girl on the internet who uses punctuation these days or something? Everyone keeps telling me I'm super easy to clock.