🏳️‍⚧️ Nexxus Drako 🐉

Being schizophrenic to a degree isn't helpful either because when I miss medication for a day or two the world begins to meld into this hyper reality that starts to make less and less sense, and the delusions of grandeur, reference, and godhood kick in, alongside the prophecies and hallucinations.

Yet, my extreme level of insight and self awareness is something the mental health professionals in my life always comment on but my pathological demand resistance and rejection sensitivity dysphoria mess me up so dang bad. Especially with the lingering paranoia and insane situational awareness.

Therapy has helped me cope, helped me learn about myself, my needs, my trauma, my wants, gaining insight. People ask me; if I could do this all over, would I fix my mistakes?

I had to make those mistakes to learn from them and learn about myself. Insight comes from understanding our imperfections.

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Listening to my body is one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I'm noticing that things are less hopeless than the past, and my symptoms are decreasing as my ability to cope and deal with these stressors increases, yet C-PTSD doesn't fuck around.

I made a purchasing error last fortnight and accidentally bought boxes of sugary creaming soda, so I do need to cut the sugar and drink more water this fortnight. I bought a neat runner's water bottle too, to use when I'm out and about and walking around. Gotta just cut the sugar cold turkey.

I need to go back to my RetroAchievement hunting streams again, but I've just got so many games and not enough ability to choose. I'd rather play 1 game for 2 hours than 3 games in 3 hours, if you get me? The AuDHD isn't helping with that, as that feeling that I need to make good content prevails.

It's disappointing that Myrient, a major game archivist, is shutting down their services on March 31st. My 30th birthday, even. Server costs just getting way too high for them, and also the fact that leeches are charging for "premium downloads" of a free service. I hate scum like that, honestly.

Genesys, by Itavrnai Protocol 7 track album

Wednesday mornings Brisbane time till April 1st, I'll unlock a track from Genesys on Bandcamp for folks to preview & download w/ preorder.
New Signal (Track 1) is now unlocked due to debuting #3 on the independent Atomic charts.
Preorder at itavrnaiprotocol.bandcamp.com/album/genesys
#MusicSky 🎧 🇦🇺 🎵

To those who found this and listened to it, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I'm bawling my eyes out. Still hits me like a truck every time something like this happens. Could not have asked for anything better tbqh. Number three indie song in the country with no ads, no marketing. The album isn't even out for another month. #MusicSky 🎧 🇦🇺🎵

I need to get a well-built office chair, because I'm using one of those cheap stackable plastic chairs for my house, and have been for a fair while, because money being so tight. I don't even have a couch, and that needs to be solved, but I don't have a way to transport a used one either...

I need to get back into anime at some point. I've had Death Note sitting on my "watching" list for some time, and I need to finish off MF Ghost Season 2 at some point too. And I really need to try watching Evangelion again. I just haven't had the comfort and ability to just veg out and watch anime.

Atomic Beta Discover, rate, and share new independent music.

And of course, if you want to make it chart higher, you can go to atomicmusic.web.app?... and use their streaming service with independent, regional-focused Australian music. They're genuinely good people to work with, they were pretty present in the regional VIC/NSW indie music scene.
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Atomic Music More Music, More Excitement

For those outside Australia or who don't have a local station playing the Atomic charts, at 10pm Sydney time they have a chart show on their online radio station. In 2019, I managed to sneak 2 songs in the Top 20 and 4 songs total into that year's Atomic 100. Was nice.
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If you're in Australia, have a look at all the stations the chart's on and listen until near the end for my own song, New Signal by Itavrnai Protocol. It's debuting pretty high, but the exact place is only for their Patreon supporters. (I subbed to it for my own sake.)
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Atomic Music CONGRATULATIONS! This week’s Atomic Top Twenty is locked in, and whether you’re one of the featured artists, or a radio station helping bring these sounds to air, thank you for being part of the movement. These songs will be heard nationwide via community FM stations that champion 100% original Australian music, with special love for regional voices and emerging talent.

The following song(s) will be played on this weeks Top Twenty: Anbu Mitchell - The Legend of Cowboy Billy Baulk at the Möön - Meditation of the Mantis Baulk at the Möön - Silver Whiskers Becky Harris - Lullaby CJ - Imperfect Remastered 2026 Dave Varacalli Music - Bitter Pills Dave Varacalli Music - See This One Through Greg McInnes - Let Love Be Love In3vitable l - A Paradox In3vitable l - Authoritarian Itavrnai Protocol - New Signal (Highlighted for Emphasis) J.PHAZE - BRAINS DISSOLVED J.PHAZE - NEED AN UPDATE Juniper Arré - Letter To Jennie Juniper Arré - These Lovers Are Howling At The Moon Kathleen Turner Overdrive - Parasites Lost In The Past - Seat by the Fire Reckless Velvet - I'll Be Ok - feat Tyler Brooks Scandal Tree - Skin in the Game Stuart Rennie Music - Must find my way

So I got an email last night notifying me I've made top 20 in the independent Atomic Music charts.
I haven't done that since 2019 when I was Extrasolar Detonation, so to do it with a song that had zero advertising or marketing, and was uploaded as a test, is incredible. 🎧 🇦🇺🎵 #MusicSky
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Waiting on the Lost Legacy 2 modlist for Skyrim to get out of beta before I put any significant time back into it, a major update killed my series early, and I'm just waiting for the dev to finish the modlist.

I've come down with some form of sickness the past few days, and I feel so god-damned under the weather. I haven't streamed for a while either because I've just had no energy, my sleep schedule is off kilter, so I'm just gonna guerilla stream this coming fortnight whenever I feel like it.

I noticed the FIFA Manager 2026 mod launched, and I'm still unsure if I'll stream it. Waiting on some parameter tweaks and gameplay patches to finalise for the new game. We'll see. It's a hell of a lot better than SEGA's FM26 though.

It's astoundingly scary that the USA has taken down two major world leaders in less than three months. The mask isn't just off, it's been disposed of.

America has entered a new era, it seems. An era of zero fucks given. And I for one, am scared, because they've been holding back this whole time...

thats why you lose to like the 7 egyptian wizards in finals at every fucking event. the first time you lose you're comatose for like 8 months while yugi beats marik in finals. every subsequent time youre paired against someone with a gold object sporting the eye of anubis you just sign the slip

if you got isekai'd into the yugioh duel monsters anime you'd probably be like top 8 in the world at yugioh right? nobody deckbuilds correctly in that world, but you'd never be above top 8 bc there's 7 assholes running around doing magic to win their duels

guys, i think I cooked with the new v3.0 #vtuber model. certainly fits the goddess aesthetic i was looking for. -Kalliope

GitHub - NexxusDrakoGaming/Conquest-Metagame: Conquer territories by winning randomly chosen board games. Conquer territories by winning randomly chosen board games. - NexxusDrakoGaming/Conquest-Metagame

I had a dream where I played a 3D video game in which you have to get achievements to take over land like in Risk... so I turned that idea into a meta board game.

github.com/NexxusDrakoG...

a race car is driving down a race track and the number 42 is on the screen Alt: Carlos Sainz's "Stop Inventing" team radio moment.

Me when Gen Alpha adds yet another word to an already difficult language (5th time this month);

i don't understand a single word you say! i don't understand what's bad about being washed! i don't understand! what's so bad about being cooked! i love cooking! cooking is delicious! "jestergooning" what's that? that just makes you a fool! don't say you're maxxing everything! i can't remember that!

VTuber model for Jarokn

VTuber model for Æsterath

VTuber model for Kazumi

VTuber model for Lilith

A while ago I made some Vtuber models for some of my OCs, and despite all being Vroid models, I feel like I was able to get a lot of the essence of the OCs out into the 3D models, and I'm hoping that I can make a model for a couple friends later on, and work out how to better edit my own in Unity.

God, these BBQ Beef Macaroni and Cheese meals from Aldi are so damn good, I'm hoping by Limited Time Only they mean another couple of months, because they're too good for me to lose out on. Seriously, they're good stuff.

I've gotta get my New 2DS XL in to be fixed soon, the Down D-pad button isn't working at all, and it's preventing me from opening Rosalina. Yes, my N2DS is homebrewed and hacked, I love having control over my hardware, it's why my Phat PS2 has a modchip, and both my Switch 1 and Wii are also hacked.

I've been playing Grand Prix Racing Online for the past couple of in-game seasons now, and on my 4th season, I'm on track to win promotion to Pro from Amateur, after getting out of Rookie in my first season. Honestly, I've been doing really well in the game and may be first of my team to go to Pro.