Don't misinterpret my posts- I may be upset right now but the truth is is that I am liberated and I am free!
13.03.2026 18:38
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Don't misinterpret my posts- I may be upset right now but the truth is is that I am liberated and I am free!
Also I am stuck with a passport photo that I rushed because I wanted to see this person despite my eyes being swollen from the night before crying over them.
I'll have this photo for the next 10 years and it will serve as a reminder that real love wouldn't do this to me.
I love some of my surface level friends online but also since certain ones didn't check on me or left me while I was drowning I have clocked you. Bet.
Even if they still want the friendship a solid "i'm sorry I'm busy do you have time around Tuesday?" Like even that would be so nice.
That's the real kicker is when people aren't honest. The non-disclosure of "hey I don't have time for you anymore" and you're just expected to get a clue and just stop. It's not fair- I def want people to more brave about vocalizing their boundaries.
I am so lucky that I actually know what love is and what it's not. That clarity has saved me multiple times and it keeps being the foundation that supports me when I break apart.
I am not trying for anyone online anymore.
But I won't shut up either.
I bent over backwards for someone who has ultimately betrayed me. I have silenced and edited myself and have been softer and punished for it. I've had to delete posts and put up with silent treatments. I've been gaslit and torn down and made to feel like I was the problem. I was told to shut up.
Some of them forget there's a real person on the other side of the screen.
Some of you are still children who run away from accountability and have no sense of what's outside apart from your own vanity in this game and online.
I will say that the ffxiv fandom has been the worst social experience I've had bc I made the mistake of opening up and sharing my feelings w an unsafe person. There are those who pretend they're not fair weather friends but run away when things get hard.
I hope certain people find more peace and feel better that they've gotten rid of me.
I got over my ex besties and my dad. (My mom left too but that wasn't her choice) I can get over a couple more online friends who felt it was okay to treat me the way they did.
I am stuck with the same thoughts. It honestly makes me feel like I'm an alien out here. It's not crazy to want consistency and to be chosen back and be considered.
I've found that online friendships are not worth it and irl ones only fill partial of my heart. :(
3 sketches of Krile and Y'shtola. - Y'shtola naked on her knees save for a leash held by Krile, who wears lingerie and stockings. - Y'shtola's hands bound behind her back as she lays before Krile and gives her oral, Krile resting back with one hand in Y'shtola's hair. - Y'shtola on her back with her legs spread as Krile lays perpendicular to her, one arm laid over her thigh as she fingers her, the other hand tugging on a nipple chain Y'shtola is wearing, making her gasp. I hate that I always have to say this but Krile is an adult. Just because she's of a diminutive race, she's an adult. She's just short and thick.
Y'shtola and Krile 💗
of all my niche Y'shtola ships this one might be my favorite...
A reminder that someone's experience matters more than your intentions.
Socially I just get eaten up and spit out.
Im going to try and take this season and savor being alone with my own ideas and thoughts.
Am I blessed to be able to do this? Yes.
Will it take forever on the financial hamster wheel? Also yes.
My golden retriever costs 3k.
Also my cats potential radiation treatment costs 3k.
Hmmm...... is 3 my lucky number this year??
So now its a decision between trans dermal medicine twice a day or radiation therapy ONCE.
I literally came from the vet and they were like just give him the medicine in the food he likes! :)
Me thinking: But he doesn't even like food.... . . .
literally any other cat: YUMMY!! TREAT!!!
my cat: I cannot be bribed
thank goodness
please stay safe
this mfer still gives me butterflies...
You know... sometimes when I'm under my heated blankie, eating cookies and yummy drink, and even tho my body wants to lie down, I know... I KNOW! That drawing is my one true love. I will do it until I am incapable of it.
*biggie voice* auh-
I had a dream that Paradise and Pan were mermaids awhile back.... just in time for May.... . .. . .
hee heeehee tyyyyy 💕 As long as her needs get met theres no need to leave ;3
Them......
Its my season for shopping rn. Spring is my favorite bc I love bunnies and florals!
