I wanted to but the anxiety got me. Something to work on for next time.
It was my first CAP and first ABDL event. Going helped me get more comfortable and settled with this part of me.
I intend to go next year, and would love to chat with others in the community beforehand to make friends. 4/4
Proud of myself for getting enough out of my social anxiety to go to the event, and not hide in my room the whole time.
Disappointed in myself for not being able to initiate conversations. While I talked with a bunch of people, I didn't start a single conversation. Which is not surprising. 3/X
I got the chance to meet so many people. I only managed to really connect with a few but that's a few more friends than I had when I entered.
I learned a lot about various topics. And enjoy some wonderful events/activities.
That said I am both proud of myself and slight disappointed in myself. 2/X
Happy BDF! So I'm an ABDL, might be surprising since I don't talk about it. I bring this up because last week I was away at CAPCon, and wanted to share my thoughts and feelings.
To start I absolutely loved it! It was one of the most affirming and friendly environments I've ever been to. 1/X
This is one of my biggest fantasies. Tie me down and make me a good boy with no escape. 😵💫
Appreciate it. I may reach out. Currently talking with my family for support.
Gonna be gone for a bit again. Bad turns in life right now. Stressed and anxious out of my mind. Not sure of the immediate future and my mental health is declining. I'm trying to be strong but I am most certainly not ok.
Still being a good boy and on that gym grind. Shifted by a day this week cause I was lazy yesterday.
Still mostly on my gym path. Missed one day, just cause I needed to recharge more. Finally got around to applying to a few jobs. Nothing exciting but I need out of the current toxic work environment. Almost all my excess energy is going into job hunting. Which isn't much, but it's progress.
Been gone. Between it being the long dark, and burnout from my bs job I fell off the gym wagon. Told myself I'd get back to it this week. So first day back at the gym again. Helps my burnout is now joined by a building rage that I can use to fuel my workout. Not good for my mentality though.
Been gone for a bit mostly cause still super drained being the team at work. My review was today and grrrrr. After 5 years and being the team all upper management is approving is .74¢ increase. Like fuck you. Without me your OM department would've burned down in flames. I am going to quit obviously
Welp yep... They were termed this morning... In 2 weeks I'll be the whole team... This will be fun... And right before my birthday and the two days off I planned for it... They try and take that away though and they can see what it's like to have no team..
Still alive. Been very meh still. Think it's probably the long dark returning, and the SAD coming back. Works also getting interesting. Two people walked out and said they quit yesterday. There is a non zero chance they will come back though. And the last person is quitting in 2 weeks. I am the team
Uh oh, another file I'll have to pick up at some point.
Sorry for the lack of posts since Locktober ended. Been very meh with everything. Very annoyed with LA fitness not opening on time on Thursdays and Fridays lately. It's been a month of it now. How can I be a big muscle pup if I can't gym when I want 😤
*ears perk*
#Locktober day 31. Final day, final picture for @mrsleather.bsky.social and their #ShowYourLock contest. So here are all the necessary pictures. It was a fun month. Right now the honest answer for unlocking is maybe but I'll say YES since yes or no was requested.
#Locktober day 30. Almost the end. Debating just staying locked. Not really for NNN just cause I'm used to it now. Will decide later. Gym didn't open today, so grr. And almost forgot to post so lazy picture.
#Locktober day 29. Long day. I was the team today. Both of the other members called out. Just over it and ready for sleep.
#Locktober day 28. I still always love upper body day. Makes me feel like a good himbo jock pup.
#Locktober day 27. Woke up with a headache. Went to work anyway. It got worse. Left early. Got home, managed to get rid of it. Long slightly painful day. Bleh.
#Locktober day 26. It's going to be a lazy gaming kind of day. Maybe a nap later as I'm still very tired.
#Locktober day 25. Busy day. Errands in the morning and a scary movie marathon with friends all day. Was good day. Now off to bed.
#Locktober day 24. Long day at work. Is tired dog again.
#Locktober day 23. It was a day. Tired pup, so lazy post. At least tomorrow is Friday.
#Locktober day 22. Another Wednesday another @mrsleather.bsky.social contest picture day. So here is me, caged and a mix of gagged and hooded. Think that covers it nicely 😄. #ShowYourLock
Yes Sir. I'll find a way to make time.
#Locktober day 21. Another upper body day complete. Pushing myself harder everyday thanks to Sir @hyphyphurray.bsky.social locked muscle boy loop. I need to get back to listening to the locked jockboy/pup files in the evening though.
#Locktober day 20. Home from work. Normal day. 3 people called out. Now I can has cuddles?
