flowsune 🦊

miku my beloved

good fucking luck to the person that replaced me

just wondering if you wanted me to pay for your dinner that day and I completely missed the social cue

watching gay anime cured me I think

love it when anime that focuses on music ends up releasing like just as many songs when it's not airing

nevermind I can't do shit lmao

i'm such a fat fucking chud

okay but like how the fuck did i became important to you

someone should kill me at this point what the fuck am i doing why the fuck is school even a thing why do i have to get good grades to get my life together if i can't have good grades if my life is in shambles i was supposed to have someone i could look up to but instead i got fucked over emotionally

and i fucking wish i could just travel back in time to not let it happen cuz if i could i would just stay as besties or some shit or at least friends like before and the feeling is even worse when i remember i was so hesitant to let it happen fuck my stupid baka chud life man

i'm so fucking mad at myself that i can't make/sustain new friendships and i have noone to flirt to and the last time someone i knew for a long time tried to flirt with me left me in a hoooooriibleeeee heartbreak

watching some good old yuri harem anime for the first time since i got burned out by love and the emotional effect it has on me is crazy

oh im so fuckeddddd

okay im fucked

my last vrchat screenshot is from 3 months ago that's so fucked

maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan I wish I could send this to you and tell you how cool you are :(((

I think the no-contact was longer than we were initially talking as of right now, kinda scary to think about tbh

i should kill myself

okaaaaaaaaay once again my actions have more weight than I thought and I feel like shit cuz idk if I hurt anyone :(

you never really think about the huge motivation boost to care about yourself being loved gives you

tiktok of all places made me realise I wanted to give what I'm missing the most because I didn't have any other point of reference and now I'm starting to think it wasn't a good idea

idk why but the thought of having the rope near my neck getting ready to hang myself feels oddly comforting

I unfortunately have winter break and the ability to do a very funny thing

still have to learn how to do makeup :v

just spent like 65 EUR for my first ever cosplay I hope it arrives in time and doesn't look like absolute shit

okay now am i being subtweeted rn i guess i will never know lmaoOOOOOOOOOO

digital footprint is a wild thing

life is fucking crazy