Ryan/Tev

:big big wolfish hugs:

HAH. HAH, sir. HAH, I say.

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:big big big hugs: it's so much fun... </sarcasm>

2 threads pulled at during therapy today:
I have been told to my face that I am very different IRL (for the better) than online. No understanding of how to reconcile that.

It feels like the majority of people think I exist at arm's length, when I have a deep (unmet) need to belong.

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😏 heheheh good to know. Just need to get you all the way then.

Is that something you’re “open” to? 😅

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:big hugs:

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Oh? Go on...

Yes please! As for W Seattle: I don't live there myself, but my understanding from friends is, in summary, "transit in/out is awful; driving is manageable if you can avoid rush hours".

Any particular context?

🥺👉🏼👈🏼 yes, please.

🤣 oh no!!!

Dear Wolfsong, thank you for completely wrecking me and revealing the emotion I thought I'd come to terms with is instead a deep need I'd suppressed.

The culmination of all that is I'm lost trying to affect a different outcome. It feels like my options are "wallow in self pity" or "massively overextend myself to compensate", and flipping between the two is what I've been doing, but it doesn't feel healthy.

I've been really resistant to naming this, because I REALLY don't want to give off "nice guys finish last" incel vibes, but I really do feel like an NPC. "I'll go do a side quest with him and then go back to my party."

I don't begrudge anyone finding their people, whatsoever.

It's the meta: I have exactly 0 sense of belonging anywhere. I've got individual friendships/relationships, and I treasure those on their own merits. But why am I always on the outside of a group?

I've been having All The Feels™️ about some things, but one specific thread in that:

It is a disorienting sensation, attempting to befriend people and be told for months on end that we'll make plans, they're just busy, and all of a sudden, I find they're friends with each other.

Happy birthday! :scritches:

Morning, cutie!

Time & place, pig 😈

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can someone bring me a coffee bagel and a butt

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Be right there!

I am about to do that, and all I'm doing "out" is going to a friend's to watch a movie I've already seen. 🫣