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새벽의 무수한 잡생각과 엄청난 심심함과 잠이 오지 않음과

A horse-like creature with a wolfish smile riding over a wave while trailing seaweed in its mane and tail with a moon and night sky background

It won't stop raining here in Wales so I'm left with no choice but to blame the Welsh water horse tricksters for it

Fictional only obviously, irl you lock me in the room i go insane. Your xylia need enrichment.

Sometimes, i think it would be nice if im treat like some kind of specimen/scp-ish

Lock me in room, feed me and do whatever the hell that i need so i can keep being contain. I get to be nice when im well. Or i get to lash out when im agitated.

Involved some kind of lewd kink that would be great.

Image reads “be kinder to yourself”

A tumblr post from orteil42 (cookie clicker dev) that says: am i losing the drive to create things for an increasingly alien and hostile world whose mounting taste for fascism feels like a cold metal vise around my skull or am i just lazy and unmedicated and looking for excuses

Sorry for the lack of activity it’s literally just this

An illustration of several sea and river otters against a blue, wavey background. The image features different species of otters, including but not limited to a sea otter, a spotted neck otter and an Eurasian otter. They are drawn swimming and swirling in the water, enjoying a fun time with rainbow trouts, and hunting for salmon. They are having an otterly wonderful time! At least the otters are, not so much the salmonids...

Otterly adorable 🦦 #art

Me and my goobered @hannehogster.bsky.social

#oc #ocsky #art

But that for tomorrow i guess. I need to sleep. Tomorrow i have work to catch up. I have enough rest today. I have a break down but... it's not too bad. Being with my friends help me out, i love them so much.

On this note, I see so mamy people having like yume template, and the more I see people do yumeship and comms art of their ship. It make me want to try too but no idea who to do yumeship with xD

I ended up comm writer to write me romance smut of when silja having a break down and nerida smooch her.

Yes i crave it and i want my sona to have it. Make me happy U//////U

#cpk

I found writer who is willingly to write nsfw WLW cannibalism kink and I'm debating if I want to go for it or not since I don't found writer who will write that often.... 😩

13日の金曜日

Gara Prime

Reposting some old Oc art I still like!!!

#nsfwart #ocart

I mean when im angry i just use that excessive energy to work. Because finishing work is very rewarding... but i want to be able to use that for something else. So i don't depend on my work for everything. Else if one day i cant work then it double down on misery.

My goal should be find a way to find a way to balance and deal with it in a way that not shut it down or cage it. Probably would be better if I make use of that.

At least i'm glad that my entire live living with mood disorder made me oddly resilient. 2 hrs ago I was crying like crazy then i'm here.

Alright. Break down did make me realized something.

I see now how useless that idea was to get rid of my duality. There is no way to accept one and get rid the rest nor is it possible to be 'fix' it.

Idk if I should blame my pd or a literal constellation. But that is not useful nor do I want to.

Sorry, I don't think I can do anything much today if at all. Completely fucking mentally breakdown. Everything is too fucking loud. I don't know what to behave anymore.

I fucking hate the phase "accept yourself" , How can I when my vice is constantly put me and other around me at risk.

Admittedly i'm not so sure how to translate my own envy into a traits. Lust? Easy cuz that show most in myself. The desire to be one, to be as close as i can. To love, to consume etc etc.

I like the one with visor on, It make eyes pop out but both look great!

Should tweak some design and add envy to it.

Lust + envy feel kind of a complimentary combo xD

It's therapy time for me again, As in drawing my sona selfcest.
I need myself to fuck aggression out of my brain or fuel it further idk.

Django from Ehrgeiz showing off his cock saying 'I...need to take care of something before our match...you don't mind right?"

Verti the undead Nickit saying 'it ain't gonna suck itself darlin'

A drawing of Daddy Red a fan version of Red XIII's adult self.

A drawing of Krait leaning over showing off his dripping cock.

So many horribly problematic knees y'all.

#oc #ocart #art #quadruped #quadnsfw #feralnsfw #nsfw #monsterfucker #terato #teratophilia

I don't draw as many stupid oc doodles as I used to...

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I see that my meds while help with making me feel stable in a lot of days but it doesn't seem to help me with... idk what to called it. But it doesn't help with my messy needed that make me need to isolate myself for 2 weeks each quarter.

Me when my personality disorder actually causing problem ig.