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Cinco: Ancestry Feats Feats are a big hit, turns out! I’m bringing back level 0 ancestry feats because I can tell my friends just wanted _more_ to play with. “I don’t like complexity” mfs when they get to build their little guy. Some of these I had basically written years ago! 1. **Changling:** Once per day, change the appearance of your face. 2. **Dwarf:** You are immune to alcohol and poison, and can detect both. 3. **Elf:** You are fully aware while you sleep; nothing surprises you. 4. **Hellchild:** You have advantage at intimidating and seducing others. 5. **Hoblin:** You can hide in bush or shadow, and behind bigger folk. 6. **Orc:** Once daily at 0 hearts, restore 1 and attack with advantage. 7. **Nymph:**  Spend 1 inspiration to call forth local nymphs of your type. 8. **Scalespawn:** Spend 1 action to breathe fire for 1 dmg. Treat as arcana. 9. **Terran:** Never suffer disadvantage from linguistic differences. 10. **Watcher:** When you rest and heal, you also see visions of elsewhere. I’m also reworking “experience feats” (the ones you get at levels 1, 3, 6, and 10) because I realized my previous approach of feats compartmentalizing complex rules feels both unfair and uninteresting. Even as much as I started moving away from that approach, now I think I need to fully switch gears. People want to do fun, new things when they level up. Will share an update about it when I fully figure it out!
10.03.2026 02:35 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Social Bodies (Chapter I) My name is Anh. I’m a state-employed service worker. The conversation usually stops there. It’s not that I’m embarrassed of my line of work, but most don’t assume I’m anything other than a low-level bureaucrat: the kind of job that exists so people feel like they’ve earned their keep. Who likes a freeloader? But I know I earn my keep, and my clients tend to agree. One was inside me right then. He knew me as Hannah. I knew him as John. His hands gripped my waist, and his hips slammed rhythmically against my behind. His dick slid in and out, in and out, in and out of me. I moaned and arched my back for him. You like that, baby? Fuck, yeah. Give it to me. He pulled me by my hair and held me up with one hand on my breast and the other between my legs, his fingers circling my clit. He kissed me from my neck to my ear and then pushed me back down onto the bed. Grunting. You might be wondering: why is the state playing pimp? Spread open your history textbook. Prostitution is the world’s oldest profession, having had the most ink spilled moralizing, legislating, and prosecuting it. A woman way back then would be considered damaged goods if she had sex before getting married, but she wouldn’t be totally fucked. Damaged goods on the marriage market are also prime real estate underground. Not even the Bible prohibits the sale of sex-time per se. It just says you shouldn’t trust a ho. _Touché!_ John pulled out of me and flipped me on my back, my legs over his shoulders. Then he kept fucking me. He wanted to see my pretty eyes, so I shot him a look from inside my mask. Sex is complicated, especially when it’s transactional. You have to make the man feel both like you want it—in fact, you need it—and like he is taking you all for himself. Selfless and selfish. Anyway, the two great historical enemies of sex work: sexually transmitted diseases and Christian feminist temperance organizations. No faithful housewife wants her husband to come home late one night with an itchy penis. Besides, who did that whore think she was to fuck another woman’s man when he could fuck his wife for free? Make it her problem and throw her in jail. Or criminalize demand like the Nords did, so the man will make it everyone else’s problem instead. Socialism on paper is a transitional state between capitalism and communism. Commodity production and wage labor goes down, while production for use and consumption for need goes up, under new public management via elected representatives. However, socialism in practice is full of surprises. Three problems. The first is that the smoothest way to socialize production is to centralize it via the state, rather than there being a bunch of competing firms doing the same thing. Capitalism did the hard work in most industries by way of big firms eating each other to become monopolies, or by different firms being tentacles of the same investment banks. The Party just needs to push the red socialism button and reconfigure society’s priorities. But it’s harder when it comes to, let’s say, local small businesses. John laid my legs over his and sat me up. We kissed while I bounced up and down on his dick, and after some gymnastics he could lie down flat so I could ride on him. His hands alternated between caressing my breasts and squeezing my ass. When he thrusted, I rolled my hips forward. Thump, thump, thump. His dick wasn’t anything to write home about (they usually aren’t), but I was impressed with how long we were at it. Most clients pay for an hour or an evening, the dine-and-wine sort. Yet, either way, most men don’t last for more than 15 minutes. Once post-coital clarity hits, they’re typically too embarrassed to go for round two. It’s a bit of honest time theft on the part of our institution, whether he chooses to leave or just cuddle in bed for the remainder of the session. But this fucker wanted his tokens’ worth. Thump, thump, thump. Not like I was complaining. Every thump reverberated from one spot to the other. I angled myself down so I could grind on him. His body was firm, sweaty, and warm beneath mine. He held me by my waist and head, and sucked on my neck. Hair, lips, tongue, teeth. He wanted to pretend to leave a mark and pretend I was his. That was fine. Part of the show. Feels okay. The second problem is that ‘commodity’ is a misnomer if you think of the word as referring to a physical item rather than as anything considered by society to be valuable, that is, desired for mass consumption and exchangeable for money. It’s also a misnomer that, as an escort, I sell my body. No. Like in any other job, I’m selling time spent with my body. That’s the most fundamental commodity: time spent doing something desired by a clientele, especially society at large. Fruit-pickers pick fruit. Baristas brew coffee. I take dick. The values of those activities’ products—fruit, coffee, orgasms—hinged on how much the invisible hand of capital valued the time that would be spent performing them. Though, of course, the capitalist would pocket what difference they could between the product’s final value and how much it cost for the worker to sustain their productivity. Yadda yadda yadda. Doesn’t matter now. John’s breath quickened, and I could tell he was trying not to stop. I had him. Harder. Harder. Harder. His hips had exhausted themselves, so it was up to my own to finish the job. Back and forth. Squeeze on it. Watch his eyes fade in and out. In and out. His hands clasped me again for a moment, but then he moaned and his body was temporarily relieved of its spirit. Good girl. He sighed and slid his hands down my thighs. I extracted his member from my inside, and asked how he wanted to spend the rest of his night. He wanted red wine. I wanted a cigarette. He held me in bed. We exchanged niceties. He told me he had known a girl like me when he was younger and then I zoned him out. I didn’t need to know that. Kept smoking. Let’s put one and two together. The People’s Republic didn’t want to touch sex work with a six-inch pole because it had been an illicit black market. But then it found itself at an impasse. Men weren’t going to stop buying sex (or time spent having sex, et cetera, et cetera). If they couldn’t pay for sex, they were just going to take it—you know what I mean—for themselves. But sex work meant black markets, human trafficking, and violence, both sexual and mortal. Unless, of course, the ‘People’ took matters into their own hands, and by ‘People’ I mean the state apparatus. Sex work was decriminalized on both sides of the equation. Brothels were established to be managed primarily on the ground. Prices for clients and wages for workers were set competitively with the black market: street pimps took upwards of 50%, but Big Brother only wants 10%. That’s the power of scale. Not to mention legal protection, background checks, and laboratory test results, all handled and integrated under one system. It’s safe, it’s secure. Why didn’t Uncle Sam think of this first? My impression is liberal capitalism struggled intrinsically with sexism, racism, et cetera, since capital relied on those -isms to rationalize and regulate its own exploitation. Divide-and-conquer type shit. So, ironically, only socialism can fully realize capitalism’s potential—but don’t quote me on that. “But how will you get out?” “Huh?” “Are you going to be doing this forever?” “Till the day I drop.” I took a drag. “Not actually. I’ll retire one day.” “But why do it at all?” “I rode your dick, man.” “Sorry for being curious.” “I don’t know. I’m good at it. Shouldn’t I take some pride in my work?” “You sure should, comrade.” John lifted his glass to me. “I’ll see you again soon.” “Don’t tell your wife and kids.” “Sure won’t. Just between me, you, and Big Brother.” Before you get the wrong idea: yes, like Orwell; no, not actually. What began as a reactionary shibboleth soon became an ironic term of endearment for our society’s cybernetic infrastructure. During the economic chapter of the revolution, when the Central Committee liquidated the late great American communications technology firms, politicians in exilio fearmongered about the consolidation of online data to surveil the general population. It was just like how, when Uncle Sam was still around, they fearmongered about China accessing such-and-such data through such-and-such social platform. But the People wisened up by then, seeing as how the technology cartels of the early twenty-first century were already in cahoots with the feds to do exactly the same thing. One of the revolutionary axes, in fact, was the “Unplugged” movement whose members successfully advocated for the dismantling of datacenters and cellular networks. I was too young to remember, but my parents have a relic of their neighborhood’s old transceiver. So, what is Big Brother? It’s how you identify your person. It’s how you schedule work shifts. It’s how you order takeout. It’s how you refill prescriptions. It’s how you participate in quorums. These are all technically different app services, but they interface with each other through common means of identification and “accounting” (we don’t pay for goods and services under socialism, of course). It’s all pretty secure and, at high levels of management, abstracted from any individual. But it’s still somewhat intimidating. It’s almost like we call it Big Brother to reassure ourselves that it’s not really that scary. You can go up to the local infoteque and see for yourselves how much they personally care about you. Big Brother is estranged. My mother was an infotechnician. I was going to be like her one day. But John didn’t need to know that. Southeast Asian; 24; passive bisexual cis-female; 162 by 84–61–87 centimeters; vagina; natural B cups. That’s what John rented for the evening. That’s Hannah. I opened the door to give Wardell the clear. Nod up and down, not side to side. John went from my suite, into the hall, and out onto the street. Cleanup, cleanup. Our workrooms were laid out between parallel halls: one which stretched from the entrance, through which clients filtered into their appointments, and another which connected our rooms to the showers, to the lounge, and to each other. The idea is that a client enters a room and then we pop out from the aether. Peek-a-boo! Fuck me. I peeled off my mask and tossed it into the hamper. It’s a little sexy security theater, to cover the top half of my face, with a little shadow around the eyes. Or a lot. Wiped it off. Then the rest of my work uniform. You’ll just have to imagine it. “Hey, Anh!” “Hey, Julie.” “Long night?” “He just kept fucking me.” “God. Did he finish?” “Eventually. How was yours?” “Some kid’s first time. Showed him the ropes. He showed me his.” “Nasty. Shampoo?” “Thank you, ma’am.” Julie’s work-name was Jesse: white; 31; passive heterosexual cis-female; 174 by 98–66–99 centimeters; vagina; natural E cups. Jesse was an archetypal (forgive me) MAGA mommy of honest Anglo-Saxon stock with big breasts and child-rearing hips, the sort for whom the fascists (purportedly) fought tooth and nail to protect from rapacious barbarians. She had the displeasure of reenacting that myth with Kenny for a client who liked nothing more than to watch. Otherwise and generally her clientele leaned young and bright-eyed, whereas mine leaned old and a little racist. Diversity programs can only go so far to unfuck centuries of sexual pathology, and Big Brother doesn’t pay us to reeducate. Oh well. She and I dried off and got into our street clothes, then we slipped into the lounge for a nightcap before heading our separate ways. “Hey, girls.” “Hey, Madi, where’ve you been?” She was still in her robe. “I’ve just been chilling.” Madison, known here as Melody: Latin; 22; versatile bisexual trans-female; 181 by 91–74–92 centimeters; penis; natural C cups. No, I’m not jealous. “You don’t need to wait for us to get out of the showers. We’re not shy.” “I’m off the clock. Made us some tea, though.” “You’re the sweetest thing.” “Second sweetest. Y’all going to Riley’s popup tomorrow?” “I didn’t know she was doing a popup.” “It’s her club, but she’s running it this time: her menu, her scones. I’ve tried them. She’s good.” “That is sweet.” “She thought it’d be fun for us to get together outside of work. Her treat.” “Not us. We’d probably melt if we stepped into the sunlight.” “I’m sexy vampire and I vant to suck dick.” “Ain’t you have enough dick-sucking tonight?” “Too much, yeah.” “Well I won’t give you lockjaw.” “Vhat a lady.” “How was your night, Madi?” “Fucking faggots.” “Ah,” Julie play-gasped. “We don’t use that word here.” “I can! They are. I’m the latest vegan-friendly pseudo-meat.” “You’re not fake meat. You’re fish.” “So you can eat me during Lent?” “Year-round. My mother country good neighbor of Thailand.” “Fuck you.” Madi laughed. “See y’all around. Going to clean up.” “Queen of showering.” We each went our way. 3 AM, Thursday. Streets are dead. Popups are shuttered. Terminals are deserted. Stopped at my local twenty-four-seven. Teenage stoners outside. Hot dogs. Taquitos. No. Fruit sandwich and a bag of chips. Made it home. Tapped my passkey against my door then plugged it into my television. Sitcom re-runs. Liberal yuppies in New York with lifestyles too expensive for whatever jobs they were supposed to have. Spacious apartments, haute couture, foreign cars. Or maybe that was just what New York used to be like. A bit of both? Canned laughter. Some people watch sitcom re-runs to yearn for the past. This is what they took from you, they always say. But I don’t envy them. Everyone else is asleep, but they’ll wake up in a few hours and live a socialist dream that they make come true every day. By then I’ll be asleep. “How will you get out?” I don’t know. “Are you going to be doing this forever?” I don’t know. “Why do it at all?” I don’t know. There’s nothing wrong with waking up in the afternoon. Our days are front-loaded with time to ourselves from 12 to 9. Riley bakes treats. Madi makes ceramics. Julie volunteers at libraries. We all have nights off, too, for drinking and dancing and whatever else we can’t do when we’re too busy entertaining our clients. But what do I do? I don’t know. Fuck it. I’ll go to the popup tomorrow.
06.03.2026 01:13 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Meeting Claude Okay. They slapped me on the wrist at work for saying in an email thread which CC’d my boss’ boss’ boss that I hadn’t (past tense!) used AI on a project. They apparently spent all of $10 for me to have a license. I was told I came across as “political”, which I couldn’t tell if they meant in the sense of me commenting on the political dimension of AI (I wasn’t; I can be much worse) or just that I seemed insubordinate in not using it (though, again, past tense). Anyway, aren’t I supposed to be flexible and open to new approaches or whatever? Fuck it. I had my $10. Why not see how well it could perform? I installed Claude and started it off with a dumbass math problem. It got it. I figured I was being a little harsh so, after safely committing my repository so it wouldn’t totally wreck my shit, I started asking it honest questions about implementation that I would’ve otherwise researched on Google and Stack Overflow. Very computationally expensive, I know—with the single benefit that it had the ability to contextualize my questions with the code I had written and, by further contextualizing with its own memory bank of Stack Overflow shit, could reimplement what it remembered in a way specific to my asks. Problems arose with it offering incomplete or outdated solutions which, when pressed, it was quick to correct like “Oh, there’s a more modern library for this” or “Oh, I forgot to include this snippet” or “Oh, I fucked the timing on this async function.” I don’t think this saved me much time in hindsight except that I could “code” from my “search engine”, _except_ I knew in the back of my head how expensive it was. I tried giving it very specific tasks the next day. I knew what I wanted to accomplish, like adding material react components to my webpage, but wanted to see if Claude could do it for me any quicker. Since it was basically just reimplementing standard boilerplate code originating from somewhere in its memory, this at least saved me from wasting time and copying/renaming/recontexualizing shit myself—albeit, again, I don’t know if it was worth the cost of computation. After it would write some kinda dogshit _ad hoc_ solutions which I had instructed it to implement once and then copy elsewhere, I thought it would be nice if I didn’t have to refactor it. So I gave it specific instructions for how to do so: restructure objects to invert how the code refers to properties (instead of a.x and b.x, do x.a and x.b); and generalize the component code into something that can be parameterized and called in multiple places. It glazed me for coming up with that and I was like yeah, that’s right AI, I’m your smart mommy. Was weird. That was probably the most useful case: as a souped-up search/replace function with the ability to perceive and manipulate code structures rather than just literal strings or regular expressions. That’s probably why software development is the only place where generative LLM use makes sense (besides fields which to general audiences may be surprisingly similar, like biochem): it’s a bunch of formal structures with commonly understood applications and best practices. The biggest problem I saw, though, besides the ever-obscure actual cost of computation, is how confident Claude is in doing random guesswork bullshit. It’s terrible at CSS, maybe because it can’t fucking see shit, and especially so when the changes in question involve layers of material react fuckery (it’s nice-looking, but terrible to customize and make into your own, which no one seems to be interested in doing, hence being a blind spot for Claude). It’s fine for it not to know, but I wasted time prompting it over and over again to understand my ask and try more and more different approaches. (Admittedly, I didn't waste that time by mistake, although I was also curious to see how much of a pain it would be for “the user”, that is, myself.) Again. It’s very “useful” as a fancy refactoring engine if you tell it exactly what you want, or in general as a search/replace or mass copy-paste tool, but what time it saves doesn’t feel like it’s worth the cost (especially not once the AI firms stop eating it on our behalf). It’d be neat if that tool existed without being hooked up into such terrible infrastructure, and I suspect it might be possible if an application understood the language and libraries it was working with, but LLMs as they are feel like a simultaneously cheapass and overkill approach to having such a thing. Too bad.
04.03.2026 13:47 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Farewell, Beautiful (I capitolo) “What distinguishes man from beast?” “I know this one.” Matteu gestured towards the bird, plucked clean of its bones, on the table. “Behold!” he glanced at me, and smiled at himself. “A man!” I smiled at him. “Of course.” Francu humored him. “But I mean, we are not communists. Yes? We are not naïve animals driven by material need or carnal pleasure. We live not to suckle on the bolshevik nanny state. We are men. We strive for existence beyond our bodies, for significance beyond eating, sleeping, fucking. What good is a life that exists solely to reproduce itself? What good is survival if not to live for something greater?” “And, I suppose, a life cut short in pursuit of the Good is better spent than one fully lived in the shallow, material prison of our bodies.” “Precisely, Matteu. Carmelo bequeathed unto you this this fertile land, on which he entrusted you to feed the army of Rumë, to start a family with his lovely granddaughter”—he tipped his wine my way—“and to ponder thus what sort of life is worthy of a man who is, in turn, worthy of being called as such.” “Thank you, Siñore. I will ponder that.” “Thank you, Matteu. And I would of course be remiss not to thank your wife for dinner. Siñore Carmelo would be proud to see his granddaughter having grown into such a fine woman. Very proud.” “It was nothing, Siñore. Our pleasure.” I smiled. Matteu fucked me later that night, and after we lay in bed under the covers. “What do you make of Siñore Francu?” “He’s an old man. I don’t remember him much, and what I remember of him is fine.” “You don’t remember your grandfather’s best friend? His confidante?” “He didn’t care much for kids. Didn’t have any of his own. I spent most of my time playing in the fields, running around the village. I don’t know what happened to the others.” “I’m sure the farm was beautiful back then.” “No.” I laughed. “The Duge gave Nonnu this tabula rasa of a property, on which he grew only weeds. Didn’t even hire the original owners to work it for him.” “Maybe it was more of a burden than a gift. The gods are prone to such generosity.” “And who is the Duge but a god amongst men?” “Precisely.” He pressed his hand on my waist and drew my forehead to his lips. “But you’re not asking about Francu.” “No. Or rather, not about him in particular.” “This place. You expected something more idyllic. You wanted to play Wergil.” “I’m less disappointed than stupified.” His fingers ran through my hair. “I thought it would be a respite from the hustle and bustle to live somewhere simpler, familiar.” “You read too much poetry.” “We didn’t have to move here.” “Did I have a say?” “We could’ve sold the land.” “You didn’t ask. You didn’t think. You wanted to move here.” “Don’t be cruel, Sandra.” “Fate is cruel. You’ve made your bed.” I turned to face away from him. “Please, Sandra. Look.” “No.” “Then don’t look.” His arm pulled me closer. “We didn’t lose anything to move here. If you don’t like it, I’m sure my mother would be very happy to host us until we find a home more to your taste.” “I do get along quite well with her.” “But consider this in the meantime a wartime honeymoon, compliments of your dearest Nonnu looking down on us from Heaven, interceding on our behalf that we should deserve our own roof.” “How generous of the gods to hear his plea.” “How generous of you to humor me.” “You are humorous after all.” I bumped my ass against him. Matteu possessed a certain pathos about him which helplessly evaporated frustration. For better or worse, it behooved me not to resent him for his lapses in consideration. I could have married worse, and he had not fallen to the cult of virility; or at least not yet, I often told myself. I imagined him fancying himself a model fascist, admiring his jaw jutted in the mirror, making a housewife and heifer out of me. Maybe we would have a dog if it pleased him. No. That didn’t concern me. If Matteu was a fascist, he was an intellectual one: a romantic searching for solid ground in our modern, bourgeois world. Maybe socialism would have been equally amenable to him if it could have fallen as softly into his lap. Matteu was always mild-mannered, never demanding except in his helplessness. And here I was, his homegrown wife returned to soil. The train to San Marto was as late as always, that much hadn’t changed. Only now my husband held my hand, his long fingers entangling mine, at the station where as a little girl I had stood alone; and only now my grandfather wasn’t there to greet me at my arrival, grunting as he picked me up and twirled me around and told me how big I had gotten. He was a good man, and the State seemed to have agreed, having given him his land and his medals and his titles. I never knew my grandmother, his wife. I did not realize until much later that I had never so much as seen a photo of her. The women in this village kept to themselves, within the casa’s confines, but she was neither here nor there. Since she had passed giving birth to my mother, her memory must have passed with Nonnu. Maybe I would find her tombstone here. I fell asleep as my mind’s eye retraced the steps from our farmhouse to the church, and took one wrong step into darkness. I woke up and found the bed all to myself. Matteu must have decided to let me sleep in. I made coffee, or whatever you call it. The fatherland demands sacrifice in every aspect of life, and austerity rewards the soul (or so I am told). I meditated while sipping on my little cup with cream, until I was disturbed by a knock on the door. It was one of Adrianna’s little girls. How mad could I be? “Siñora!” The child thinly veiled her anxiety. “Good morning, Elena! Are you okay?” “Siñora,” she collected herself, “have you seen Bella?” “I’m sorry, bambina, but I don’t know Bella.” “Bella is my kitten.” For a moment, excitement overcame her worry. “Bella is black with a white tummy, and she wears a cross around her neck, and she’s a girl. Have you seen her?” “She sounds very pretty but, no, I’ve not seen her.” “That’s okay. Thank you, Siñora.” “Would you like some juice? You’re exhausted.” I felt sorry that the poor girl’s breath was heaving. “No, thank you, Siñora. I want to find her.” “Does your mother know that you’re looking for her?” “Mama wouldn’t let me keep her. Please don’t tell her.” “Okay, but please be safe. It’s hot outside.” “Thank you, Siñora. Bye-bye.” With that, Elena hurried off. I figured I had an idea of what happened. Children underestimate the omniscience of their mothers. Adriana probably found out that Elena kept and hid the cat; so, not wanting to keep house for a hairy thing, she freed it from her daughter’s clutches. I’m sure Bella even thanked her for it. Elena is sweet, of course, but she would not have made a pleasant jailer for as independent a creature as a feline: barely domesticated, always resentful. With what piety was left in my heart, I prayed that the cat was doing alright and started on cleaning yesterday’s dinnerware. Modernity had not yet hit the _rus_ , so I had to start by heating well water (thank you, my ever-reliable Matteu) on the stovetop before pouring it into the sink basin. Maybe the Duge, as the gods had once blessed us with fire, will one day also bless us with electricity and plumbing. Oh well. Until then, I refused to live with dirty dishes. Matteu and I had come to an arrangement as to our day-to-day lives. The ancient patriarchal model of the working man and his domestic wife (or, perhaps, of the domestic woman and her working husband—but I won’t delude myself) sufficed well enough to organize our affairs. We had a lot of work to get done, and the allotment of our labors at least made our days rhythmically consistent. Besides, I told myself, my infertility rendered our situation a parody of marriage. Matteu told me I was perfect for him because he always knew he would prefer to become an uncle than a father. Thank the gods, then. Here he was now. “My donna fascista, the envy of the Duge.” “My indomitable husband, the spitting image of Jeus.” “Let’s not get carried away now.” “You look good. Suits you.” My eyes traced his glistening body, somewhat exaggeratedly. “Well. Thank you.” His eyes curtsied. “How’s your manly man work?” “It’s good. Difficult. One realizes why man has always tried to escape it.” “Didn’t he do that to himself?” “So the story goes.” He sighed and, with his unbuttoned shirt in hand, wiped sweat off his face and body. “I’m thinking about hiring some help. Do you think the original owners are still around? I mean, of course, not your late beloved Nonnu.” “You’re kidding. Right?” “I just thought it’d be fair.” “I wouldn’t know where they are or where they went. They already haven’t had it for over a decade now. You can’t just rent them to work their own land.” “I’m not stingy.” “We’re not wealthy. And what can you offer them?” “I own the land.” “How quickly you’ve become a pig.” “Oink.” He snorted and kissed me. “Well, if I can’t find them, I can’t offer them anything.” “I just wouldn’t hold your breath either way.” “I’m damn near out of breath to hold.” He passed me the local newspaper. “You seen this?” “The women’s league.” “They’re meeting tonight at the church.” “A lovely bunch, I’m sure.” “It’ll do you good to make friends.” “I actually saw Adrianna’s daughter today. She stopped by. Lost her cat.” “Poor thing.” “But Adrianna didn’t want to have an animal in the house. I’m sure she released it back into the wild.” “Well. Poor thing.” “I’m sure the cat’s happier now.” “Maybe. I know they like the attention.” “Anyway, I ought to check base with her. Her child shouldn’t be out on a wild puss hunt.” “What do you expect children to do?” “I expect children to worry their mothers, and mothers to worry for their children.” Matteu looked like he was about to say something, but chose not to. We ate lunch in silence before returning to our respective duties: he to the fields, and myself to the sink. Would I like to be a mother? I had long ago mourned the children I realized I would never have. Perhaps on one hand I am fortunate not to have spent any time coiled up, bleeding, and aching; but to what end is a girl born and raised if not to see herself one day married and pregnant? I am a half-measure and, inasmuch as Matteu sees the glass half-full, he deludes himself of its emptiness. I drained the sink and took the slop bucket out from under to the field. Sul’s racing chariot had nearly run its course. The land was unkempt, slowly through Matteu’s efforts being nursed back to health, but my Nonnu kept well one tree a stone’s toss from the house. There we had picnics, and on evenings like this we watched the sunset: him with wine, I with a pear plucked from its branches. There the shadow of something dangled in the breeze. I called out to my husband. He could hear me not. I approached the old pear tree. The shape of the thing materialized. A pit opened in my stomach; I nearly vomited. A white-tummied black cat twirled by a rope, strangled by the crucifix round its neck. There hung Bella. I ran back home for a knife or sheers—anything—and cradled Bella in my arms as I cut her down from the tree. I carried her in the folds of my dress back inside. The pace of my feet and of my heart had slowed. Warm though she still was, her breath no longer took residence in her little body. I held her for a long while, waiting for my husband to come home. I hoped Elena had not seen it. I hoped her mother had no hand in it. Bella seemed at least peaceful. I rubbed her whiskers along her cheeks and massaged her forehead. Matteu returned and was initially excited that I had finally made a friend. My half-empty eyes spoke on my behalf. Carefully he swaddled the creature in spare cloth, and brought it out to the field. He gave me as a token of her memory her rosary, quite a fine one for a poor cat. I had half a thought to pass it along to Elena, though I couldn’t justify having had it on my person. What would I tell her? Maybe Bella had a crisis of faith. I missed the women’s league meeting that night. Instead, Matteu held me in bed. I wept on his chest. Then morning came.
03.03.2026 01:35 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
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FAQ U: What Is Phallic Desire? Dear Reddit: am I the asshole? I jumped into a conversation on the OSR discord about how people often write TTRPG adventures (or texts more broadly, I think) with such a utilitarian mindset geared towards play that they often neglect to write anything actually interesting or pleasurable to read—you know how often the pendulum swings one way or the other. This inspired something in me, so I was like “Yeah!!! And isn’t that the fun part anyway?” Some people agreed, but for the most part it was like that reaction picture of girls staring at you because you said something weird at a party, but instead of girls it’s a bunch of sweaty guys because I forgor what server I was in (no offense—the OSR will be the OSR). I thought it was a bit and then I kept posting Lacan’s sexuation table as if to point fingers and be like “MALE!” (boom) “PHALLIC!” (boom) “CASTRATED!” (boom) Oh God. I am the asshole. Shit. Fuck. Damnit. But I thought it was interesting when I DM’d someone about it and was like, oh shit, they were for real but I totally didn’t peg them as a “writing sucks and is a pain” guy. My friend tried to clarify the person’s perspective as like, “he’s monklike about it! writing sucks and is a pain but is a worthy pursuit / enjoyed best when the labor is done”—but I was like, no, that’s what I mean. The OSR is full of monks, not nuns, because it’s a predominantly male (etc.) space. Then I realized that the monk/nun comparison is actually very apt and useful to understand the structural difference between typically masculine/feminine pathways of enjoyment: the monk toils all day and night doing his studies and depriving himself of those good good material pleasures, in hopes that through deep focus and meditation he can arrive at a glimpse of the divine; the nun on the other hand is just having visions and ecstasies and shit because she loves Jesus that much, and her prayers and meditations do not feel like work at all because she finds them pleasurable in themselves (even if others may find the work tedious and toilsome). It’s stereotypical, but, hey. I didn’t say it. Some more examples. I remember some guy on a TTRPG discord server, maybe the same, who tried to explain his relationship to being a game master (or something like that?) as weight-training at the gym. It’s terrible, and feels terrible, but we all do it so we become stronger at the end of the day. Right? Except I also popped in then because I was like, sir, why are you weight-training if you don’t enjoy it? I used to love going to the gym because it was very therapeutic for me: listening to my music, sweat rolling off my body, muscles pleasantly sore from being squeezed and stretched. It didn’t occur to me that someone else not only wouldn’t find it pleasurable, but would nevertheless suffer through it just to get some fucking gains or whatever. You may also remember that this is a lens through which I analyzed _D &D_ a couple times, or at least nasty grimy old-school _D &D_, making it unsurprising that Gygax himself understood this (although only trapped in the thought-cave of biological essentialism). It’s also how old patriarchal religions often conceptualize the situation of men: on one hand being forced to till the earth and marry women in order to merely survive, but on the other hand attaining glory for themselves before the gods and other men in fulfilling that duty. “Woe is me!” type shit. Very sad. The long and short of it is that the typical male subject (and he is typical) attains pleasure through formalized pathways full of bullshit obstacles which seem to stand in his way, but the typical female subject (and she is typical) also attains pleasure just by doing the thing. There’s a phrase, “for the love of the game”, which characterizes the latter case very well, but it’s almost never applied to typical women because it’s mostly applied to men who are atypical with respect to their pleasure of the “game” (literally or broadly). The question is: are you motivated by attaining mastery or recognition or perfection, or are you motivated by simply “love for the game”? Most people know where they fall (though if you don’t, try asking a friend! they know you and they’ll tell you). Though, of course, not all women and not all men are typical, and people often have different orientations in different contexts: we are each, after all, composites of many pathways (which Žižek characterizes, by way of inverting Deleuze and Guattari’s formula, as “organs without bodies”). Now that’s where the everyday part of psychoanalysis ends, kinda the same as how most people don’t need to read Marx to understand what it means to be exploited at work, and now we get into the freak shit which helps us understand why the normal shit is how it is. Lacan seems hoity-toity but even he is an orthodox Freudian. Do forgive my abridgement: Baby loves Mommy, but Baby is kind of stupid. Baby doesn’t even realize it’s a living thing, much less one distinct from Mommy or vice versa. Baby becomes less stupid eventually, but when it realizes that it and Mommy are distinct, it also realizes that it competes with other things for Mommy’s attention. Baby tries to become what it thinks Mommy wants, but realizes it can’t be what really fulfills Mommy. That’s Daddy’s job, and he’s great at it. Baby has two options: become a daddy-substitute so he can attain a mommy-substitute, or become a mommy-substitute so she can be attained by a daddy-substitute. The Boy in the first case sees his life revolve around trying to fulfill Daddy’s role, though as much as he tries he can’t recreate his original attachment to Mommy: the Girl in the second case, though, tries to become like Mommy not only for the Boy (and this is a house of mirrors) but also for herself. Those are very “normal” cases, of course, and Lacan was actually into cases where the subject doesn’t turn out either of those normal ways: perhaps not even realizing that they’re separate from Mommy (the psychotic), or perhaps pretending that they can indeed continue to fulfill what Mommy and others want by basically “speaking” on their behalf (the pervert). But we’re all normal here, aren’t we? Now we arrive at this really cool graph. Let’s look at the bottom half first. The left side is the male, and the right side is the female. The male subject (represented by _$_ with a slash, like a dollar sign; this stands for “the subject” in Lacanese) has one relation and it is w.r.t. the object _a_ which is only possessed by the female side (the _a_ stands for _autre_ or “other”, essentially what the male wants in his mommy-substitute; not to be confused with big _A_); only by contending with the female side can the male side fulfill himself with that object. The female side however is complicated: on one hand, she (represented by uh… _Woman_) wants what Mommy wants which is supposed to be on the male side (represented by Φ, or the “imaginary phallus”; not to be confused with φ, the “symbolic phallus” or daddy-substitute) but she also finds pleasure on her own side in her striving to be like Mommy (signified here not as _a_ which is what the male wants to attain, but as _S(~~A~~_) which is what she herself wants to be). The top half is more obscure. I’d refer to Larval Subjects’ article except I don’t like how the author integrates the topic with object-oriented ontology bullshit, so I’m just going to speak off the cuff. Each side gets two equations, but the male side treats _x_ as a member of the set of all males whereas the female side treats _x_ as a “piece” of the female subject (which perhaps is very fitting). The Φ here refers to the phallic or castrating function, which refers to the realization that the subject cannot totally fulfill Mommy’s lack. Okay, here goes. The left/male side reads: “One man is not castrated; (but) all men are castrated”; the former is Daddy, who’s the archetypal man but only exists in the imagination of others. The right/female side reads: “Not one woman isn’t castrated, but not all of woman is castrated.” If this sounds like our favorite French charlatan doing bullshit he shouldn’t be doing with discrete mathematics, you’d be right. But as bullshit as the presentation is, we should at least consider his point: that masculine desire toils because it holds itself to an unreal standard of mastery and recognition, whereas feminine desire tends to be pretty chill (except when it doesn’t know what it’s supposed to be doing). Yadda yadda yadda, boilerplate about how the masculine/feminine positions are socially normative at best and not definitive of biological or social being, yadda yadda yadda. I also would like to shoutout obsessive versus hysterical structures of neurotic fantasy because it's related and a nice shorthand for the above conversation (masculine being _$_  <> _a_ , and feminine being _a_  <> _A_ : essentially the masculine subject _$_  strives against the excluded term _A_ for the object _a_ , whereas the feminine subject _$_ wants to be _a_  for the Other _A_  and in doing so erases herself). More here; blah blah blah. I also want to indicate I’ve anonymized references to people because I don’t want to give the impression of calling them out. There’s nothing immoral about phallic enjoyment: it’s just about how one relates to their pathways of enjoyment. Let’s be considerate of different orientations, and not prescribe “proper” relationships to pathways based on what works for your half of the population. I’ll do my part if others do theirs! Though I’ll still make fun of them for it.
25.02.2026 03:53 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Turtle Island: The Living Loa, Part II The story continues—sort of! More-or-less new characters across the board, but we’re moving on with the thing because I had already prepped this shit and didn’t want to do another fucking thing. Unfortunate as it was to recount events up until then to provide some semblance of context, it also felt like a good exercise that solidified my approach to this campaign: fuck time records. Redo sessions. Retcon whoever was there up until the one about to start. Individual characters may follow their own arcs, but the basic unit of the campaign is the crew and whoever’s in the crew can change as needed. I think that’ll keep me from going insane more than imposing bullshit like “You have to go home at the end of an adventure” or “You need to schedule for everyone last time to come back” or “Someone needs to substitue for so-and-so to play their character.” Anyway. Characters! My stuff is put away so I don’t have their names on me, but a rose smells sweet even if you don’t know what it’s called. * A dwarf designed to be maximally attractive to all classes: two pairs of ears, one elf and one human; and two halves of their body and face, one seme and one uke. This is actually the same dwarf as before but, the way my friend put it, evolved. * A watcher who came down from heaven and took the form of a chunky kitty cat for the sole reason of bothering people. His drawing has a Chad face but I don’t know if that’s artistic license or a real representation. Love it either way! * An amnesiac hoblin who lost or perhaps was even abandoned by his family. All he has left is a muscle memory of cooking and a cosmopolitan love for other cultures’ culinary traditions. I had prepared an adaptation of the Red Queen’s Catacombs from _Fantastic Medieval Campaigns_ , but we didn’t get that far because we spend a couple hours drawing new characters with their items, drinking cocktails and lattes, and watching the cat who had suddenly decided to be sociable after a couple years of being super skittish. When we finally picked up from where we had left off, I decided to play out the evening after the crew had proved themselves to the maroon village by surviving a sublime encounter with the loa. There were three key figures in the village: Yemaya, the world-weary matriarch who sleeps with a rifle; Nijah, a young apothecary-in-training who hungers for a world beyond the walls of her village; and Amadi, the teenage (19!) guardian of the loa’s temple who didn’t expect to have a real job all of a sudden. The watcher-kitty (most kitties are watchers, aren’t they? they love to watch) spent the night trying to get in Yemaya’s good graces. She wouldn’t let anyone other than a sweet baby kitty into her quarters; once she fell asleep, the kitty sifted through her drawers and found a fragment of what seemed like an artifact out of this world. The hoblin spent the night with Nijah, both equally excited to learn about the other’s life (although the hoblin, being amnesiac, had nothing to share but tortillas—which Nijah was still head over heels to have tried for the first time). The dwarf tried to have a yaoi moment with Amadi to go past him and into the loa’s temple, but the further they progressed the more he realized there was more to Amadi than had he seemed: he began to grow scales and wiry hairs all over his body, which itself began to contort and hunch over. The dwarf screamed and ran back towards the village. The watcher-kitty, sneaking out of Yenaya’s hut and seeing the situation, realized the temple was unguarded and slipped into the entrance (kitties can see in the dark, obviously, so no worries!). The hoblin also heard the commotion and excused himself from Nijah to help out the dwarf, almost immediately casting a spell to cause Amadi the chupacabra to shit his pants—making him drag his ass across the ground and eventually tear his pants off. The dwarf for a couple turns was able to soothe Amadi by putting his magical magician gloves around his head and making him think calm thoughts about his mother, though the effect wasn’t strong enough to totally un-chupacabra him. The kitty-watcher meanwhile managed to open the sleeping pod of what seemed like a loa, and had to do cute kitty things like rolling around and showing his tummy to convince the loa not to do anything harsh. The hoblin was eventually able to call over Nijah who apparently was prepared for this sort of situation, and had prepared a very rudimentary syringe to un-chupacabra Amadi. Everything was well, until the other villagers happened upon the unfortunate scene. “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING, YOU MOTHERFUCKERS?!” It was… Yemaya! The hoblin and the watcher-kitty agreed to put the dwarf in the village idiot cage to attone for his behavior; they’ll all probably be forced to leave the next day, unless something terrible and unanticipated happens which calls for a bunch of lovely idiots to figure out.
24.02.2026 00:08 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
D20 Action Points There was a Reddit user named Kubular who happened upon a novel way to determine damage in _D &D_ combat when their friend had assumed that it was just the difference of their D20 roll minus the target’s armor class. Something similar happened to me a bit ago, before I switched to decision-based initiative from individual initiative (as Dwiz referred to them). My friends kept mixing up their initiative with their attack roll, not consciously, but just as an honest mistake when you have to keep doing shit with that D20. That was actually a partial motive for me in switching to my current approach because it felt more intuitive and maybe even ‘fairer’—but the misconception stuck with me. There are many ways to combine all those pesky combat rolls, and one of my favorites I had tried before was Nova’s approach of using damage dice, but isn’t it funny to stumble upon something new by accident? Like chocolate chip cookies (which I know weren’t really accidental but you get the point, it’s cute). So, maybe once per turn, everyone rolls D20. If anyone rolled high enough to do something, they can do something. Modifiers lower the barrier of whatever you want to do. But that feels kinda shitty in its own way. It has the same effect as per usual of losing your turn to act, without the moment of realization at least being delayed. So, maybe instead of taking each round on its own, the D20 adds to a stamina pool (etc.) which accumulates each turn (probably up to 20). On your turn, you can spend as much stamina as you want. Modifiers act as discounts on action costs. Below I tried to convert my current decision-based action menu into a cost-based one: * Move: 5 points * Use item: 10 points * Use large item: +5 points * Trigger critical move: +10 points * Vulnerable target: –5 points * Resistant target: +5 points * Assist: Give ally points * Contest: Subtract points from enemy’s own I think this is too finicky for me personally, and this blog post is again me exorcising an idea to convince myself that it’s probably a bad one, but again I think it’s interesting to criticize a rule according to how someone who hasn’t internalized the ruleset intuitively interprets the outcome and its implications. Edit: Leo Hunt mentioned this and I felt stupid for not mentioning it because I just don’t use AC in my game: if you do use AC, that is probably going to be the base cost of an attack!
21.02.2026 04:09 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Stationery & Maps Basically: I was inspired by Dwiz’s post about how ‘the maze game’ of charting sites was central to early _D &D_ in contrast to later approaches which abstract or give knowledge of the map for players and their characters (contrast with Josh McCroo’s approach which has the party receive a blank map—itself a fun method!), as well as an entry in Gumbo’s _AD &D_ series about how maps in that game specifically facilitate fast travel while escaping a site or returning to deeper levels (i.e., it’s not just for the sake of note-taking). I doodled some rules I wanted to play with in my homebrew pirate game this weekend (AHEM _Cinco!_) and Elmcat was very encouraging about what I had come up with. So here we are! Maybe Wuffus will consider this a late entry in the blogwagon. There are two resource items in my game which players can freely stock at havens before or during their adventure: rations (for recovering on the road) and ammo. Now I’m introducing a third called **stationery**. Imagine paper and ink but cutesy bootsy or maybe just plain boring, whatever most suits your character. You can spend stationery to draw maps of expanses while traveling or sites while exploring. This produces one of two types of maps. **Travel maps** are very straightforward: whoever’s navigating just gets advantage on their check; also, someone who navigates an uncharted expanse can draw a map if they spend stationery on a successful check. **Site maps** let you move quickly through a site (I wrote five times as quickly, but I’d probably treat it more as taking a turn to pass through the equivalent of an entire dungeon level); someone has to spend stationery for the crew to be able to physically draw a map, or else they can neither back-track very easily nor fast-track at all. An interesting, unwritten consequence is that (useful) maps technically count as treasure! So the crew can decide to sell a map for an easy freebie treasure after they decide they’re done with wherever they just went. Maybe that should be written down. Whatever. Something else I thought was very interesting was Elmcat making an analogy of site maps to torches in typical _D &D_, with an added effect that they have direct implications for how you as a player can interface with the game. When a torch is extinguished, your character can’t see; but when you run out of stationery, you as a player can’t draw maps. This finally satisfies my old side quest for meaningful and non-arbitrary resource management during exploration, whereas for a little bit I had just been like, I guess eventually you get beat up and have to go home. Finally, there might be other uses for stationery besides mapping. I just think the idea of having paper and ink and deciding what to use it on is really cutesy bootsy. I don't know what other uses might be, but I'm excited for it to be another toy in the box.
19.02.2026 23:46 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Blue Moon Fragments I had started writing the below with high hopes, before I got kind of stuck thinking how awkward it would be for everyone to be a farmer and how difficult it would be to find a fun role for everyone. I’d still like to play with this sometime, and I do play solo a little bit, but for now I’m just putting this out there since others were curious and I don’t know if I have it in me right now to figure out where it’s going. ## The ‘Draft’ This is an outline of how I think my epistolary experiment inspired by the likes of _Harvest Moon_ / _Stardew Valley_ / _Animal Crossing_ , which I’ll tentatively call _**Blue Moon**_ , will play out. I think the frequency of play would be monthly, since if you played this with physical mail you’d want enough time for the letters to arrive from the mayor and back from each other participant. Seasons shift every three months. Characters will interface with the game through bonuses which sum up to +6 points total, and up to an individual maximum of +4 to start with. This is both because I think I’d like my home game _Cinco_ ’s characters to be able to play, and because I think +6 is an intuitive maximum which splits nicely: * +4/+2 * +3/+3 * +3/+2/+1 * +2/+2/+2 The mayor will provide lucky numbers to each participant each month. I think these will be rolled as 6D6, since that feels right. Maybe it represents weather, but I don’t think that would be intuitive since lucky numbers vary between players. Anyway, let’s assume I get a very even distribution: > 6 / 5 / 4 / 3 / 2 / 1 Each player will sum their lucky numbers to score up to six activities for the month plus a bonus if one is relevant to the task (each can be used once, or it can be divided between multiple activities, in the same month). I’d probably use the bog standard _PbtA_ convention where 7 to 9 is mid, less than 6 is bad, and 10 or more is excellent. If my character has +4 at farming and +2 at mining, and if she received the above lucky numbers this month, her activities might look like: Activity | Luckies | Bonus | Score ---|---|---|--- Farming Potatoes | 6 + 2 | +2/4 | 10 Farming Wheat | 5 + 3 | +2/4 | 10 Mining | 4 + 2 | +2 | 8 That’s the basic order of operations, but an empty box has no toys. ### Farming Farming is the basic bitch cozy game activity _par excellance_. Don’t lie to me—or yourself! You love a little guilt-free, cottage-core lebensraum. This is the final evolution of a system with which I’ve been tinkering for a while. The great-grandma of this undertaking was the solo role-playing framework _Ironsworn_ which was based on a system of time-ticks, but we don’t need that anymore since lucky numbers regulate play-flow. Rather than time-ticks, the resource for farming and other activities will be tool durability. * **2–6:** Mark 1 progress and 1 hoe durability. * **7–9:** Mark 2 progress and 1 hoe durability, or 1 progress without losing durability. * **10+:** Mark 2 progress without losing hoe durability. Each crop can only be worked once per month, and it withers and dies at its season’s end. If you neglect a crop, it might not become fully mature before it withers. Stars | Cost | Progress | Price ---|---|---|--- ★ | 1 | 2 | 2 ★★ | 2 | 4 | 5 ★★★ | 4 | 6 | 10 Tools probably have 3 durability. ### Mining Mining refers to resource extraction in general, but you need an appropriate tool for what you intend to collect (a pickaxe for mining proper, an axe for wood). * **2–6:** Roll 1D6 on materials and mark 1 durability. * **7–9:** Roll 2D6 on materials and mark 1 durability, or 1D6 without losing durability. * **10+:** Roll 2D6 on materials without losing durability. When you roll dice, refer to the table below (at least for literal mining): if you roll two dice, you can decide whether to sum them up for one rarer material or treat the rolls separately for two units of materials. Roll | Material | Stars ---|---|--- 1–2 | Clay | ★ 3–5 | Stone | ★★ 6–8 | Iron | ★★★ 9–11 | Gold | ★★★★ 12 | Diamond | ★★★★★ For wood, I guess you just get 1 or 2 wood? Who knows. ### Crafting Crafting augments a raw material into a product with more value, and which can also be used as a tool in other activities (where durability = stars). * **2–6:** Augment +1 star and mark 1 durability. * **7–9:** Augment +2 stars and mark 1 durability, or +1 star without losing durability. * **10+:** Augment +2 stars without losing durability. Some products require multiple crafting phases: though tools and food need just 1 phase, workstations require 3 and buildings require 5. The product gains value at each stage. ### Exploration Exploring is a way to impose obstacles on other goals and tasks. But why make things harder for yourself? Why do anything? We do this—and other things—not because they are easy, but because they are hard. * **2–6:** Make 1 progress and roll 2 events. * **7–9:** Make 2 progress and roll 2 events, or make 1 progress and roll 1 event. * **10+:** Make 2 progress and roll 1 event. Events include: D6 | Event ---|--- 1 | Combat! Mark 1 weapon durability. 2 | Combat! Mark 2 weapon durability or 1 weapon + 1 armor durability. 3 | Hungry! Mark 1 food durability. 4 | Hungry! Mark 2 food durability. 5 | Forage! Find 1 item from the area. 6 | Forage! Find 2 items from the area. Whoever runs the game can decide whether you can explore and go back home, or if you need to explore it all in one go like one of those Viking drinking horns that you can’t put down once you pick it up. Probably depends.
10.02.2026 17:40 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Cinco: Group Spellcasting Sorry to keep _Cinco!_ -posting, but Alex from _To Distant Lands_ wrote a really fun addition to magic which I wanted to share and also slightly refactor: > **Metamagic** > > When you work with another mage(s) to combine your powers into a new spell using the same motif, each of you pay one inspiration. All additional inspiration spent afterward is multiplied by the number of casters for the purpose of defining the effects of the spell. This is really cool and, I can imagine, produces the cool sort of scene where you get a crowd of mages casting a spell together. My first thought reading it was, oh geez, one of us needs to come up with ways to spend more inspiration (or at least scale up the rules that currently exist)! But that made me think: oh, maybe the approach is backward, and rather than multiplying effects we can treat it as a discount on combined effects. This is my revision: > Multiple mages in one zone with complementary motifs may cast a spell cooperatively. Each ‘helper’ spends 1 inspiration, and the mega-spell’s base damage equals how many mages are cooperating. Further enhancements by spending extra inspiration or using a large arcana are applied to the resulting mega-spell. The mage with the lowest relevant ability attempts the D20 check. This costs 2 actions for everyone, but those with regular sized arcanas give the main caster an extra reroll. I also rewrote the damage enhancement to deal 2x damage on a hit and 1x on a miss, so it’s clear how mega-spells are impacted. Assuming that’s the enchantment selected, two mages can deal 4 damage on a hit or 2 damage on a miss; three mages can deal 6 damage on a hit or 3 damage on a miss; and so on. The math also comes out kinda the same as in Alex’s original rendition: rather than the effects of spending 1 inspiration being multiplied, though, it’s more like mages casting spells at a discount. On the below table, _e_ equals the number of enchantments, and the right two columns indicate the amount of inspiration that would be spent for the equivalent effect. Mages | Separate | Cooperative ---|---|--- 2 | 2 × _e_ | 1 + _e_ 3 | 3 × _e_ | 2 + _e_ 4 | 4 × _e_ | 3 + _e_ _n_ | _n_ × _e_ | _n_ + _e_ – 1 For example, three mages can spend a total of 6 inspiration amongst themselves to cast a twice-enhanced spell separately, or they can spend 4 inspiration amongst themselves to cast a spell with the same (or similar effect) cooperatively. Note that there's only ever a discount when a spell is enhanced more than once (meaning _e_  > 1); this means you want to use this to do really crazy shit or, I guess, fluff up minor spells in fiction. Also note that having no enhancements on an arcana is the same as using it as a regular weapon; think of it as a cantrip. I also thought it’d be fun to broaden applicable motifs from being necessarily the same to being complementary. Like, you probably can’t combine fire and water, unless you’re okay with the result being like steam or something, but you can be creative in how mages work together. Finally, although this is specifically for my home rules, I think the structural nature of it lends it to being applicable in other non-level-based magic systems; e.g., in the GLOG (just replace references to spending inspiration with spending magic dice).
07.02.2026 16:24 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Cinco: Feat Experiment, Part III <p>Alex from <i><a href="https://todistantlands.github.io">To Distant Lands</a></i> had been considering <i><a href="https://traversefantasy.itch.io/cinco">Cinco!</a></i> to play his <i>Gran Carcosium</i> setting (which I had played in <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2023/11/gran-carcosium-session-1.html">a little bit ago</a>!), and he asked me where I was at with feats since he wanted to play with that sort of approach. He wrote a couple of his own, which made me realize why I had been struggling with it on my end. My <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/08/cinco-feat-experiment-part-ii.html">prior approach</a> was to use feats to gatekeep specialized rules for characters, which was a fine thought, but I was too granular in splitting up and encapsulating those rules in feats. They didn’t have the pizzazz of, how Alex had put it, being excited to do something new and unique. So I consolidated those—from seven granular feats to just one feat for arcana rules and another for weapon rules—and had fun with all the rest.</p> <p>I hope these are more fun! I still haven’t played with feats because when I asked some of my friends how they felt about them, they preferred having a minimal character sheet and letting me handle the rules stuff—which is real and why I’m hiding feats in the appendices (think of them as socks). But I might ask now having tried this new approach, since I think they add just the right amount of extra toys to play with. Also note as per some feedback from Alex and also my friends, I’ve renamed aspects to abilities. Yes, abilities. No, they still work the way they have and are custom to each character. I’ve also adjusted travel so the whole party participates every round by picking tasks rather than one rolling and deciding what goes wrong (too much spotlight). Thank you all for your interest in this! It means a lot :)</p> <h2 id="arcane-feats">Arcane Feats</h2> <ol> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to invoke a magic-related ability as if it were an arcana.</li> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to invoke or enhance an arcana without making it go dormant.</li> <li>When you roll [20+] to use an arcana, you gain a free enhancement.</li> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to illude one of the five senses for as long as you focus.</li> <li>Ignore elemental resistances when casting magic against a target.</li> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to act upon something within sight, without touching.</li> </ol> <h2 id="clerical-feats">Clerical Feats</h2> <ol> <li>If you fast in the wilderness, you can multiply one ration to feed your crewmates.</li> <li>Project your spirit outward. Shares stats. Can only harm or be harmed by spirits.</li> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to ask your patron a question. They offer a different question.</li> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to ritually clean something to make it safe for consumption.</li> <li>Spend 1 action and <i>x</i> inspiration to heal a creature you can touch for <i>x</i> hearts.</li> <li>Once daily, open a portal from your location to another from earlier that day.</li> </ol> <h2 id="exploratory-feats">Exploratory Feats</h2> <ol> <li>See in dim light as one does in the day, and in darkness as one does in dim light.</li> <li>Discern feelings of plants or animals. Spend 1 inspiration to communicate to them.</li> <li>You know if something is off about your surroundings, without foreknowledge.</li> <li>Spend 1 inspiration to ‘spot’ something valuable, whether treasure or information.</li> <li>Gain free advantage when sneaking, hiding, climbing—any effortful movement.</li> <li>Flawlessly recall details about what you’ve seen or heard over the past season.</li> </ol> <h2 id="exploratory-feats-1">Exploratory Feats</h2> <ol> <li>Unlock critical moves on weapons. Spend 1 inspiration to add 10 to an attack roll.</li> <li>When you attack with advantage, you may treat the D20 rolls as separate attacks.</li> <li>Give allies advantage on melee attacks against lesser opps in your zone.</li> <li>If an opp moves after you used your last action to attack them, attack them again.</li> <li>Make a free melee attack if you spend both actions on your turn moving.</li> <li>Gain advantage against a distracted opp with whom you are not already engaged.</li> </ol> <h2 id="social-feats">Social Feats</h2> <ol> <li>Discern intent of one whose emotion is legible, or otherwise discern emotion.</li> <li>Intuit someone’s insecurities or fears from speaking with them. Invoke wisely.</li> <li>Mimic another’s mannerisms, speech, or knowledge effortlessly.</li> <li>Garner and command a crowd’s attention. Negotiate as with an individual.</li> <li>Crew can rest at locked havens if you spend your night providing a service there.</li> <li>On a middling conversation result, you can make promises without proof.</li> </ol> <h2 id="traveling-feats">Traveling Feats</h2> <ol> <li>Collect a ration on any successful travel check; if you are foraging, collect two.</li> <li>During downtime, study a creature. Navigate with advantage while tracking them.</li> <li>Once per season, seek out local nature divinities. Roll D20 for their reaction!</li> <li>Gain advantage while navigating on the island at which you spent downtime.</li> <li>Never suffer disadvantage from traveling in unfamiliar areas.</li> <li>After you fail a navigation check, gain advantage on your next attempt.</li> </ol>
06.02.2026 20:05 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Encounter Activity Refactor <p>I really like <a href="https://eldritchfields.blogspot.com/2022/10/wilderness-encounter-detailsactivities.html"><i>Eldritch Fields</i>’ table for encounter activities</a>, but I wanted to simplify it so that I don’t need an entirely different set of indices for sentient vs non-sentient creatures.</p> <p>Instead, roll D20 below; for non-sentient creatures, subtract 10 if the roll exceeds 10.</p> <table> <thead> <tr> <th align="center">D20</th> <th align="center">What’s Up?</th> </tr> </thead> <tbody> <tr> <td align="center">1–2</td> <td align="center">Dead</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">3–4</td> <td align="center">Resting</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">5–6</td> <td align="center">Foraging</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">7–8</td> <td align="center">Examining</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">9–10</td> <td align="center">Sparring</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">11–12</td> <td align="center">Traveling</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">13–14</td> <td align="center">Camping</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">15–16</td> <td align="center">Working</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">17–18</td> <td align="center">Meeting</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center">19–20</td> <td align="center">Partying</td> </tr> </tbody> </table><p>I guess you could also divide by 2 but that’s kind of annoying to me, and I basically like to treat the D20 as a D10 by looking at the least significant digit.&nbsp;Or as Tamás from&nbsp;<i>Eldritch Fields</i>&nbsp;commented (hi!), use D10 instead! I just use nothing but D20 and D6 at my table :)</p>
04.02.2026 17:53 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
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Where I'm At <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://i.imgur.com/3ZIa2dx.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1738" height="200" src="https://i.imgur.com/3ZIa2dx.jpeg" width="170" /></a></div><p>Jesus Christ. Am I some sort of influencer or thought leader that others both really follow my words and hold me responsible to their idea of them? I got <a href="traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2026/01/knowing-good-evil.html">a comment a few days ago</a> while I was out:</p> <blockquote> <p>Why do you care so much about Paul? Religion is wrong and backwards. You are wasting your time.</p> <p>How is it possible to read Settlers and then come crawling back to fucking Christianity? Revolutionary communism is what’s true. Don’t you want to be part of the real movement to abolish the present state of things? Are you going to learn how to overthrow capitalism-imperialism from Paul?</p> <p>Please.</p> </blockquote> <p>First of all, this fucking rules and it genuinely made my day. I agree with <a href="https://archonsmarchon.blogspot.com/">Semiurge</a> on one hand that that’s some coelacanth type shit, but it’s so refreshing for someone to call me a proverbial opium addict. I’m grinning ear to ear. Love it! Anyway. I thought since I guess it fucking matters, I would give a general update on where I’m at with things.</p> <p>Didn’t delete the blog. Just had an emotional crashout and became depressed for most of 2025. One part to do with political circumstances, another part to do with friends moving or them getting boyfriends or me being unable to travel as much (not like tourist style but like driving back and forth between where I work versus where my partner is currently at). What I decided was that I still needed an outlet to vomit my thoughts, and I’m most likely already on some sort of list anyway. Why worry now? That being said, please refrain from saying suss shit in my comments. I may be on a list, but I try to keep things legal on here. No one doing shit is discussing it on an open social or blogging platform. For that matter, I’m not doing illegal shit.</p> <h2 id="damascusmoment">#DamascusMoment</h2> <p>As for the religion thing. I am an opium addict, I won’t deny it, but my investigations here aren’t motivated by trying to reflect my way into Heaven or something. I am a monotheist only in as much as I’m an atheist, and vice versa. Critique of religion as some naïve beliefs in unseen forces is equally naïve, because the basis of religion is not in belief but in praxis (i.e., social organization and ritual). When you talk like the tail wags the dog, you miss the point of analyzing the dog and why it wags its tail. Monotheism to me is an affirmation of there being no unseen forces: that when energy gave rise to physics, and from physics to chemistry, and from chemistry to life, and finally from life to conscience, that nothing has ever occurred out of step with the laws of nature undergirding Being itself.</p> <p>If that all sounds rather Epicurean, it’s probably because it is! Here is where I meet Paul. Epicureanism is a philosophy of physics and ethics, but (though Lucretius at least applies this particular materialist framework to past history) it doesn’t go as far as to identify the individual as an “ensemble of social relations”: rather, the individual is empowered with free will on an atomic level (“the swerve”), through which they can choose to act ethically. Paul however sees not individuals but powers, principalities, and <i>pneumas</i>: and although there may be (for Paul as well as the Epicureans) actual ephemeral beings floating around somewhere in the cosmos, that is less important than that we as social subjects attribute our behaviors and values to forces outside of ourselves, thus giving them <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/09/anti-gnosticism-two-creations.html">a virtual reality</a> which imposes itself on individuals through aggregate social behavior.</p> <p>What does Paul’s <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/11/anti-gnosticism-inside-outside.html">critical framework of idolatry</a> offer Marxist critique? Like, okay, maybe it’s two thousand years early to the game, but that doesn’t mean it offers anything useful to our contemporary situation. The first is a realization I had while reading different books arguing about the start date for capitalism. Obviously, we’re not object-oriented ontology idiots, so it’s not very helpful to designate capitalism as a particular object, but I just mean how, when, and why pre-capitalist societies (perhaps particularly in Europe) transitioned. What I realized was, sure, we could slap a start date on the Dutch East India Company or even early modern Venice—especially given the role of mercantile networks in financing the earliest industrial factories to optimize what cottage industries they controlled prior—but history rhymes and the dynamics which gave rise to modern capitalism (e.g.: wealth, bondage, exploitation, violence) were endemic to social organizations as early as when hunter-gatherer populations managed their food stores over long periods of time rather than day by day and began coordinating outside of kin groups (leading directly to women exchange, trafficking, slavery, etc.). Our enemy is the same except that we once attributed social phenomena to specific forms rather than to underlying forces. Therefore liberalism, rather than liberating us from government or religion, set free their fundamental forces to act upon us unconstrained, while making them seem natural as such. This offers us a new way to read Marx’s inversion of Hegel: the <i>Weltgeist</i> is not Gxd but what Paul refers to as “the god of this world/eon” (conveniently translated literally as the <i>Weltgeist</i> or <i>Zeitgeist</i>), the system of symbols and social relations which we have imposed onto the Real, which as a real abstraction seems alien and external of us.</p> <p>Also, fuck it, we need a better ethical framework than we have. For lack of bourgeois law, individual leftists seem to run with whatever seems right or pleasurable to them, resulting in all kinds of bullshit to which <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2026/01/political-transbianism.html">I’ve been witness</a>. The PSL in particular, I’ve heard, has an infamous stink of protecting sex pests by weaponizing democratic centralism to suppress complaints of impropriety against local leaders. That’s not to mention the history of feds infiltrating organizations and dismantling them by pitting members against each other in simultaneously petty and violent ways (I think of Alex Rackley, whose comrades had been convinced by a fed that Rackley was the actual fed, thus deciding to torture and kill him). I’d like to see ‘the Left’ reflect on pro-social ethics more deeply.</p> <h2 id="what-is-to-be-done">What Is To Be Done?</h2> <p>Hell if I know. My beliefs are about the same as when I wrote the following excerpt in a tract a few years ago (except that I now identify the World Spirit as Satan, and the “real movement” as something else; lol; lmao).</p> <blockquote> <p>We generally (and rightfully) regard First World Communist movements as pie-in-the-sky well-wishes ungrounded in reality. After all, the World Spirit is on the move in Palestine, India, and the Philippines where the temperature of destitution / destruction on the masses has boiled over into a real revolutionary scenario. We, however, live in Babylon. Although the USA is not without its social maladies—mass incarceration, police brutality, illegal abortion, forced deportation, violent transphobia / homophobia, hyperinflation, inaccessible healthcare, and epidemic poverty—the inhabitants of the First World are thoroughly alienated from each other through intense social atomization, and lack the same degree of apocalyptic urgency which spurred the truly wretched of the earth to action. Their movement is a matter of life or death. Our movement is a choice between relative comfort / stagnancy and self-inflicted difficulty to the point of death. Is our ‘suicide’, so to speak, revolutionary or reactionary?</p> </blockquote> <p>Things have gotten… worse since then. Daddy’s home! History’s back! But I don’t know what to do under these circumstances except help the food bank. I have thought about what I thought was lacking in all the <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2023/07/psls-socialist-reconstruction-informal.html">socialist</a> <a href="traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/05/mugs-fight-constitution-informal-review.html">political</a> <a href="traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/05/mugs-fight-constitution-informal-review.html">programs</a> I’ve read, and wrote down what specific things I would like to see in a program (real la la la moments):</p> <ol> <li> <p>Cease occupation of all foreign land; withhold funding from military industrialists; and withdraw material support from violent satellite states such as Israel.</p> </li> <li> <p>Disarm the police agencies that terrorize and enslave black people; abolish ICE, unmask its agents, and prosecute them for abducting and murdering innocents; and abolish incarceration for non-violent crime.</p> </li> <li> <p>Cease the vast persecution of <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/06/a-feminist-constellation.html">F-G-T individuals</a>; legalize abortion in all scenarios; reaffirm individuals’ right to medical autonomy and privacy; integrate higher levels of education with labor; and provide childcare and parental leave to all.</p> </li> <li> <p>Socialize healthcare, including hospitals and pharmaceutical manufacturers; disband all health insurance firms; dismantle the guild system behind medical education; and make medical treatments and procedures accessible to all.</p> </li> <li> <p>Socialize transport, communications, water, and electricity; build railways to bring people closer together; and develop green energy to combat climate change, which imminently threatens the survival of our species and others.</p> </li> <li> <p>Socialize industry and finance; expropriate property in land; develop self-sufficiency wherever possible on national, regional, or local levels; close gaps in accessing food, shelter, medicine, and education for disenfranchised populations; and redirect all of society’s efforts towards meeting these and other needs.</p> </li> <li> <p>Abolish representational bodies of government; mobilize all citizens directly in local, regional, and national decision-making via <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/05/mugs-fight-constitution-informal-review.html">open sortition</a>; idk this one I added to be a freak and advocate for really crazy shit.</p> </li> </ol> <p>But, you know. I’m not in a position to really advocate for these things. Just for fun. Anyway. Please don't regard me as a thought leader or any of that shit. I'm not an expert. I'm a court jester.</p>
03.02.2026 21:05 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
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FRSO's Program: An Informal Review <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://frso.org/wp-content/uploads/2022/10/program-promo-no-text.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="900" data-original-width="1200" height="240" src="https://frso.org/wp-content/uploads/2022/10/program-promo-no-text.png" width="320" /></a></div><p>Alright, my babies. We’ve heard from <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/05/mugs-fight-constitution-informal-review.html">the ‘orthodox’ Marxists from the DSA</a>. We’ve heard from <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2023/07/psls-socialist-reconstruction-informal.html">the crypto Marxist-Leninist party</a>. Now let’s hear from the Maoist-tendency Marxist-Leninist party, the Freedom Road Socialist Organization. I have a friend who had visited a meeting in his current city, and the main thing with which he walked out of there was that they on one hand are really into the Kingdom of Hawaii, and on the other hand think that American Indians (whether on a collective or tribal basis) haven’t yet developed a national consciousness with which they can act as a nation to bargain for self-determination. However, it was just my luck that he had told me about this after I had already bought their program—but having been spoiled, I was all the more excited to learn about how big of a deal this really was for the party and about what other weird hills they had to die on. How did the FRSO come about anyway?</p> <blockquote> <p>Freedom Road has a proud past. In the late 1960s and early 1970s, there was a tremendous upsurge in the struggles of African Americans, Chicanos, Asian Americans, and other oppressed nationalities. At the same time, a powerful student movement arose, which drew inspiration from the heroic struggle of the Vietnamese people, the resilience of socialism in China, and the revolutionary movements against colonialism and neocolonialism in Africa, Asia, and Latin America. The result was the creation of a powerful new communist movement. While this new movement of young communists had some real accomplishments, it lacked staying power. In 1985, some of the best elements of this great upsurge came together to create the Freedom Road Socialist Organization. Later we were joined by some members and leaders of the Communist Party USA [!], who shared out commitments to revolution and socialism [?].</p> <p>Over the years we have faced challenges, from within and without. In the late 1980s and 1990s, a section of our leadership decided that they did not want to be revolutionaries, so they abandoned Marxism-Leninism and split from our organization [!!]. Later, in 2010, the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) used the pretext of our anti-war and international solidarity work to launch a protracted campaign aimed at our destruction [!!!]. We met these challenges, overcame adversity, and have grown. We appreciate the veteran revolutionaries in our ranks and are glad that most of our members are young.</p> <p>Introduction, pp. 2–3</p> </blockquote> <p>Ah. Okay. One appreciates optimism at a time like this. Let’s see what they got!</p> <h2 id="the-big-questions">Theory</h2> <p>The FRSO preoccupies itself with two major struggles which—you know, I know, every single one of us knows—are intertwined: monopoly capitalism and national oppression. Monopoly capitalism, a.k.a. the imperialist stage of capitalism, is the point at which all a country’s capital becomes concentrated in an incestuous ratking of banks which in turn finance all or most industrial enterprises. This national capital has nowhere to expand but outward, by exporting finance to other countries’ industries, chaining their capitals to its own and imperializing the people of that country as a bloc (regardless of class, since even the national bourgeoisie of the developing nation are indebted to foreign finance capital). Resulting from this, the few imperialist nations divide the world between themselves and compete for control over the developing nations to extract resources (incl. labor), expand market share, and thus valorize their respective national capitals.</p> <p>There’s some weirdness I noticed in the FRSO’s recounting of this history. The first is they seem to subscribe, if not theoretically then at least rhetorically, to the notion of uneven development: that the economic disenfranchisement of what we call developing nations originates first of all from uneven social and technological development across the world, as if each country on its own would’ve eventually reached the same state of affairs if they had only developed at the same rate. I understand the truth-basis of that view, but I think it’s very outdated and limited in analytical scope. Hasn’t the consensus been (for a while!) that imperialist capitalism emerged on the back of old-fashioned colonial imperialism, and that ‘developing’ countries weren’t historically lagging behind but were in fact ‘developed’ to become cheap repositories of resources and labor for burgeoning imperialist countries? I don’t just mean Wallerstein’s world systems theory, but also like Walter Rodney or Rosa Luxemborg or even late Marx. Maybe I’m being pedantic, but it feels like an oversight and a sign that the FRSO is tilting at windmills.</p> <p>The second is that the FRSO identifies specifically monopoly capitalism as the great satan of our global situation, even paraphrasing Lenin in referring to imperialism as “the highest and final stage of capitalist development” (p. 13). I don’t want to be the sort of idiot that’s like “Your analysis is old!” and leave it at that but, come on, that was over a hundred years ago and we are well past the situation Lenin analyzed in his own time. There’s no longer a bunch of imperialist countries competing or colluding to divide the rest of the world. That isn’t been the case since before WWII, after which all the ‘developed countries’ with their powers combined ushered in a grand new liberal world order headed by the United States as guarantor and protector (especially <i>contra</i> the alternate socialist world order headed by the Soviet Union). That situation has since broken down since daddy came home in 2024, but it was true as of the program’s publication in 2022. That’s not to mention that even if monopoly capitalism were the big bad of our time, it’s not its own root cause. Whenever I hear someone blame monopolies for capitalism’s worst excesses, it always gives “support small businesses!” and seems lacking in critical scope.</p> <p>Finally, the FRSO’s favorite selection of oppressed nations (within as well as without the geographical bounds of the United States) is a little strange. Surely enough, they pick the Black Belt, the Chicano Aztlán, and the nation of Hawaii as the primary nations oppressed by the United States—fair since these certainly “are deprived of their basic democratic rights, including the right to exercise political power within their national territories and the right to self-determination—up to and including separation” (p. 14). They talk about these nations in terms of geographical area, in which case Hawaii makes the most sense to be included and discussed, but it seems besides the point for black people (who were imported <i>en masse</i> as slaves and live throughout the United States, even if the Black Belt as a region is specific predominantly black) and for Chicanos (whose defining trait is being descended from Mexicans who lived in Southwest America before it was conquered; and the Aztlán thing seems like some <i>post hoc</i>, “this land was promised to us 3,000 years ago” nationalist myth type shit that is besides the point of them being Mexican). Shouldn’t we conceptualize nations relationally rather than geographically, especially when we invoke notions of internal and imported colonies? Outside the territory of the United States, the text also specifically lists Puerto Rico, the Philippines, and Palestine as sites of revolution against American imperialism. Look, I love my people, and they need liberation, but one of those things is not like the others. Just deeply unserious.</p> <p>And the next paragraph on the same page talks about the history of “genocide and stolen land” against the indigenous peoples of America—conspicuously not considered as one or even multiple nations! I couldn’t believe this early into the text they were staking the very same strange position that they told my friend about. It’s not as woke a position anymore, but American Indians did for a time coalesce around a shared identity as various peoples made indigenous (remember: indigeneity is a relation!) by American colonization, up until it became <i>en vogue</i> to balkanize indigenous identities as particular cultures tied by blood to one’s own ancestral land. My partner and I talked about how fucking conspicuous it is that this new understanding only emerged after the American Indian Movement had been systematically fucked by the federal government, and this suspicion was confirmed for us by a veteran comrade who witnessed it all go down. I don’t know. Blackness in America is also a category established relationally, inclusive not only of various West African cultures whose people were trafficked and enslaved, but of all dark-skinned people who migrated here after slavery’s abolition, all with various relations to their respective original culture. Blackness is still a real identity imposed upon and/or embraced by its members, as well as a useful and highly legible category of analysis. Why are we acting like American Indians cannot (and have not) constitute a nation in that sense, when it has similarly been imposed upon them through colonialism and embraced by them as a historical and material identity for collective organization?</p> <h2 id="the-actual-platform">Practice</h2> <p>Their platform is fine. Not super specific except as pertains to national oppression, which as we’ve seen is both their whole deal and something they’re not especially insightful about. They want to make discrimination illegal (so brave) and enforce multilingual standards in government (actually cool, okay!). That’s it. Well, there is one more thing… their ideas of socializing the economy are straight out of the nineteenth century.</p> <blockquote> <p>The working class will occupy the commanding heights of the economy, taking control of the factories, utilities, transportation networks, big technology monopolies, big retail stores, banks, and other major financial institutions. In short, wealth means to produce [?] and distribute the things we need and want—will be placed at the service of the working people. Human needs—such as food, healthcare, housing, and education—will be produced and provided for the people, not for profit.</p> </blockquote> <p>It struck me while reading this that the United States does not command a particularly productive economy. Just 8% of the workforce is employed in manufacture, and though we produce 16% of manufactured goods worldwide, our trade balance in 2022 was at a deficit of over $1 trillion dollars (alternatively: we import 150% as much commodity value as we export). Both liberals and conservatives understand this, though the latter seem to not understand that this ‘deal’ benefits us since it means (first) we’re exporting our capital all over the world and (second) the population can live relatively cushier lives employed in positions of service rather than in production—great for a consumer base to purchase the imported goods and keep capital circulating. You might find the below data useful, which I had sourced from the <a href="https://www.bls.gov/emp/tables/employment-by-major-industry-sector.htm">US Bureau of Labor Statistics</a>, plus some refactoring since some of their categories are either nonsense or misleading.<sup class="footnote-ref"><a href="#fn1" id="fnref1">1</a></sup></p> <ul> <li><b>Unskilled Work 49%</b> <ul> <li>Agriculture 0.9%</li> <li>Mining 0.3%</li> <li>Utilities 1.2%</li> <li>Construction 4.8%</li> <li>Manufacture 7.5%</li> <li>Retail 8.8%</li> <li>Logistics 6.9%</li> <li>Support Services 6.3%</li> <li>Food &amp; Lodging 8.4%</li> <li>Other Services 3.9%</li> </ul> </li> <li><b>Skilled Work 34%</b> <ul> <li>Professional Services 6.4%</li> <li>Education 8.3%</li> <li>Healthcare 13.6%</li> <li>Government 6%</li> </ul> </li> <li><b>Random Bullshit 16%</b> <ul> <li>Military &amp; Police 1.5%</li> <li>Self-Employed 5.8%</li> <li>Management 3%</li> <li>Finance &amp; Sales 4.4%</li> <li>Arts &amp; Entertainment 1.5%</li> </ul> </li> </ul> <p>By my count, less than 20% of workers are directly employed in production (slightly over 20% if we count logistics, i.e., transport and storage). If you want to socialize the economy and presumably stop depending on imports, you need to lop off ~10% from other sectors (though if you employ the 4% of the unemployed working population, of course, less of a problem) and that’s not even to speak of capital goods and raw materials. The FRSO is not specifically guilty of oversight in this regard—most parties are—but any socialist program for the United States must account for how the country is (materially speaking) a parasite on the rest of the globe. I doubt as a result that it’s even possible to reduce the workweek except for service positions which we might be better off just making redundant. But who wants to work on a field or in a factory? Imperialism isn’t just about a country throwing its weight around, and labor aristocracy isn’t just about workers accepting the state of things for how it passively benefits them. Never mind whether an agrarian or industrial country can have socialism within itself. Can a first-world country ween off of what resources and labor it extracts by force from the third world? First-world socialism needs to reckon with what they are really asking of first-world populations.</p> <p>It’s more likely in any case, though, that they won’t have the choice to ween and will need to decide whether to violently crash out (which we seem to be doing right now) or become self-sufficient. This is the most honest and realistic angle for first-world socialism. It’s not to say working conditions can’t or shouldn’t be improved—they can and should—but it’s not going to be luxury space communism.</p> <h2 id="conclusion">Conclusion</h2> <p>No socialist (etc.) party in the United States matters on the national scale. You are better off organizing locally, and you might end up working with people from various parties on that level of things. Regardless and unfortunately, I don’t think I’ve found a single political program from any party which isn’t debilitatingly stupid or useless, so I don’t feel inspired to join any of them even if I know and trust local members.</p> <hr class="footnotes-sep" /> <section class="footnotes"> <ol class="footnotes-list"> <li class="footnote-item" id="fn1"><p>Examples of bullshit: “Information” includes both customer services representatives and telecommunications utility workers; and “Wholesale Trade” includes both sales representatives and actual freight workers. <a class="footnote-backref" href="#fnref1">↩︎</a></p> </li> </ol> </section>
02.02.2026 16:12 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Knowing Good & Evil <p>A lot of people who are culturally Christian are often surprised, I’ve noticed, to learn that the so-called “seven deadly sins” do not originate from the Bible. Certain Catholic monks from late antiquity—or the early Medieval era, take your pick—took it upon themselves to enumerate fundamental evil thoughts or wrong-doings. I know some of y’all love that shit. Can’t stand it. Enumeration. Love to put things in your little boxes. Well, here’s <a href="https://thesciencesurvey.com/spotlight/2023/06/06/sinful-history-the-strange-and-unknown-origins-of-the-seven-deadly-sins/">the history of the pursuit</a>. I’m not going to recount it. Go be a monk if you want to!</p> <p>I think the idea that there could be any fundamental set of sins, some eigenspace of evil, is deeply misguided if not entirely missing the point. Chairman Paul loved to list the many ways in which people tend to be harmful or stupid, but he never did he suppose there to be any base “sin” except perhaps for idolatry (which contains more nuance than being the literal worship of idols, being more about how humans <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/09/anti-gnosticism-two-creations.html">project artificial laws onto Nature</a>, becoming blind to their own self-destruction at Nature’s hands—and of course by Nature I mean the <i>Cosmos</i> or the <i>Logos</i> or some union of the two, maybe ontological, maybe relational, la la la I'm using words).</p> <p>Here’s my point. I was talking with someone dear to me in real life about anger. Doesn’t it feel good to be angry, especially when one is righteously so? I know I suffer from it, though I have a much easier time overcoming it face-to-face than over text, to the extent that my friends seem surprised how many negative feelings I repress until I post them into the void on my private Instagram story (or perhaps on my blog, itself also a sort of void for me). This dear person asked me how to know when anger is good, or at least justified. Where’s the line between righteous indignation and pointless rage? Is there even a difference? Would that even matter if so?</p> <p>There’s no hard answer. Paul for his part doesn’t often provide hard answers (that’s basically what we call a “law”), and I think he would agree if I said he’s at his worst when he does so (since usually it’s when he invokes contemporary Hellenistic ‘science’ to make a point and is like, well, obviously). Remember the bit about women’s long hair draining their sperm from their gonads? What he provides most often, and where he is at his best, are heuristics. How can we tell when we are really doing good or when we are hurting others? Jesus according to Mark (7:15) says nothing that goes into you makes you impure, but only things <a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/2025/11/anti-gnosticism-inside-outside.html">which go out of you and impact others</a>. The deadly sins are an attempt to taxonomize wrong-think. Let’s instead brainstorm about ways in which we act harmfully towards others, a constellation of idolatry.</p> <blockquote> <p>For you were called to freedom, brothers and sisters, only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for self-indulgence, but through love become enslaved to one another. For the whole law is summed up in a single commandment, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” If, however, you bite and devour one another, take care that you are not consumed by one another.</p> <p>Live by the Spirit, I say, and do not gratify the desires of the flesh. For what the flesh desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to prevent you from doing what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not subject to the law. Now the works of the flesh are obvious: [infidelity]<sup class="footnote-ref"><a href="#fn1" id="fnref1">1</a></sup>, impurity, debauchery, idolatry, [potion-making], enmities, strife, jealousy, anger, quarrels, dissensions, factions, envy, [drunk riots], [orgies], and things like these. I am warning you, as I warned you before: those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of Gxd.<sup class="footnote-ref"><a href="#fn2" id="fnref2">2</a></sup></p> <p>By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, [loyalty], gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things. And those who belong to Christ have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, competing against one another, envying one another.</p> <span>Galatians 5:13–26 (NRSVue + Sarah Ruden)</span> </blockquote> <p>Do you strive towards love, joy, and peace? Are you patient, kind, and generous? Do you practice loyalty, gentleness, and moderation? You’re probably doing alright. Do you break others’ trust? Do you confuse pleasure for goodness? Do you find yourself constantly picking fights, turning arguments into team sports, spiraling helplessly into hatred or envy? Then you have reason to worry! But we all do, especially because it is so easy to convince ourselves we are doing good by doing those things. It’s only upon reflection that one realizes they haven’t done any good at all. It just leads to drama, hostility, and dread, if not actual material harm. Don’t let those things rule your life. You can be good and give goodness to others.</p> <hr class="footnotes-sep" /> <section class="footnotes"> <ol class="footnotes-list"> <li class="footnote-item" id="fn1"><p>I am taking πορνεία as “infidelity” or “adultery”, or more specifically to have sex with someone other than your spouse while being married, following Sarah Ruden. “Sexual immorality” is too general, and the rationale for “prostitution” is in Genesis 38 where Tamar in the LXX is said to have committed πορνεία. Although both πορνεία and the corresponding word in Hebrew can be translated in some cases as prostitution, the Hebrew Bible doesn’t seem to take as much issue with prostitution <i>per se</i> than with adultery as the breaking of a covenant (which also applies in Gen. 38:24 when Judah sleeps with his daughter-in-law thinking she’s a prostitute). I think this reading for Paul here makes the most sense—especially when he’s talking about how people wrong each other, rather than things being inherently taboo or wrong. Other translations in brackets are also informed by Ruden’s translation. <a class="footnote-backref" href="#fnref1">↩︎</a></p> </li> <li class="footnote-item" id="fn2"><p>Pobody’s nerfect! Compare with the end of Romans 1 and start of Romans 2; Paul’s sentiment is less threatening the reader with hell—since none of us are free of shit— than reminding them how easy it is to slip from goodness except that Gxd or Nature or Jesus or the <i>Logos</i> (pick your favorite emphasis) models for us a way out. <a class="footnote-backref" href="#fnref2">↩︎</a></p> </li> </ol> </section>
30.01.2026 01:22 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Cinco: Concept Lab <p>I wanted to have a pseudo-lifepath thing in the appendices for <a href="https://traversefantasy.itch.io/cinco"><i>Cinco!</i></a> to help players conceptualize characters if they’re at a loss with where to get started. Below is what came of that! You’ll recognize a lot of material from my original draft, <i><a href="https://traversefantasy.blogspot.com/p/fivey.html">FIVEY</a></i>, but I tried to condense everything into providing just enough information to contextualize a character origin without pigeon-holing individual characters. Thanks to Alex from <i>To Distant Lands</i> for providing really helpful feedback on that front! Without further ado…</p> <p>If you’re playing a character, pick or roll on the table below for your character’s origin; keep in mind, though, that the Game Mother might disallow certain origins just to make the setting more cohesive. If you’re the Game Mother, considering building your setting around the characters your players create; otherwise be upfront with expectations and don’t surprise your players with them! A setting handout helps everyone.</p> <ul> <li><b>Changeling (1–2):</b> A fairy snatched a baby to pay a debt, leaving you. You look like your parents, but you are not theirs.</li> <li><b>Dwarf (3–4):</b> Not born, but sculpted by your maker with purpose. Will you fulfill their wish, or break the line of tradition?</li> <li><b>Elf (5–6):</b> You teeter carelessly between dreams and waking life, seeking meaning beyond things which rot and rust.</li> <li><b>Hellchild (7–8):</b> Your birth was a travesty through no fault of your own. Some tuck their tails and shave their horns. Do you?</li> <li><b>Hoblin (9–10):</b> Itinerant little people hiding under big folk’s noses. Known to wander in pursuit of a hot meal and a tall tale.</li> <li><b>Orc (11–12):</b> Descended from warriors made slaves. You may be free, but the world won’t have you. You have nothing to lose.</li> <li><b>Nymph (13–14):</b> A divinity born out of others’ relationships to nature. What happened with your sisters that you aren’t with them?</li> <li><b>Scalespawn (15–16):</b> From a dragon’s scale sown in soil, you were grown. You have never met your siblings; you probably ate them.</li> <li><b>Terran (17–18):</b> Your ancestors sailed across stars to capture a new home. They were conquerors, but here you are outmatched.</li> <li><b>Watcher (19–20):</b> Deserters of the heavenly hosts, taking on mortal flesh to live knowing they will die and love knowing it won’t last.</li> </ul> <p>You could make your character a woman if you rolled even, or a man if you rolled odd. The tables below are to flesh out your origin and brainstorm what catalyst had pushed your character from stability to precarity—thus calling them to adventure. Upbringings may not be a useful category if your character’s origin is sufficiently strange.</p> <table> <thead> <tr> <th align="right">D6</th> <th align="center">Upbringing</th> <th align="center">Trauma</th> <th align="center">Force</th> </tr> </thead> <tbody> <tr> <td align="right">1</td> <td align="center">Artisans</td> <td align="center">Abandoned</td> <td align="center">Business</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right">2</td> <td align="center">Farmers</td> <td align="center">Displaced</td> <td align="center">Family</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right">3</td> <td align="center">Merchants</td> <td align="center">Forsaken</td> <td align="center">Military</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right">4</td> <td align="center">Nobles</td> <td align="center">Immiserated</td> <td align="center">Nature</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right">5</td> <td align="center">Scholars</td> <td align="center">Orphaned</td> <td align="center">Religion</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right">6</td> <td align="center">Thieves</td> <td align="center">Trafficked</td> <td align="center">Society</td> </tr> </tbody> </table><p>Your quest should follow from your origin and catalyst. What does your character want and how can they accomplish that? The interest and motive tables for NPCs (p. 16) may help if you’re totally at a loss, but I don’t know. Give it some thought!</p>
28.01.2026 19:52 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
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New Cookie Recipe <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_fullsize/plain/did:plc:degzgkbpiitz45k3dbcrw66l/bafkreiefkvnjq36czmkss6dgnjfua2soedbkxg6hdvy5543js5osdpbvmi@jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2000" data-original-width="1500" height="400" src="https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_fullsize/plain/did:plc:degzgkbpiitz45k3dbcrw66l/bafkreiefkvnjq36czmkss6dgnjfua2soedbkxg6hdvy5543js5osdpbvmi@jpeg" width="300" /></a></div><p>New cookie recipe! Wanted to simplify things and use more unit measurements.</p> <h2 id="ingredients">Ingredients</h2> <ul> <li>1 cup flour</li> <li>1 tsp baking powder</li> <li>½ tsp salt</li> <li>½ cup butter (whole stick)</li> <li>1 cup sugar (½ white, ½ brown)</li> <li>1 tsp vanilla</li> <li>1 egg</li> <li>(Optional) ⅓ cup semisweet chocolate chips</li> </ul> <h2 id="directions">Directions</h2> <ol><li>Mix dry ingredients: flour, baking soda, salt. Put aside.</li> <li>In separate bowl, mix room temperature butter, sugar, vanilla, and egg.</li> <li>Incorporate dry ingredient mixture, mix until well combined.</li> <li>(Optional) Mix in chocolate chips.</li> <li>Chill in refrigerator overnight.</li> <li>Preheat oven to 350° F.</li> <li>Bake cookies for 10–11 minutes.</li><li>Let them cool. Be patient!&nbsp;</li> </ol> <p>This makes 24 small cookies! Or 12 bigger ones. You do the math. Going to experiment with this recipe as a base to make my favorite cinnamon cocoa cookies.</p>
26.01.2026 04:20 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
LOTR is Strange _The Lord of the Rings_ is strange. This is not going to be particularly insightful or thoughtful. I hadn’t seen the movies since over a decade ago, and I think my mom was telling me that the anniversary of their release was coming up, so I had the brainworm that—you know—they feel like winter movies. I just ran out of _Sex and the City_. While I’m frozen inside, why not put on nine hours of fantasy epic turned hack-and-slash blockbuster? Not my cuppa, as they say over there, but it’d probably still be fun. Tolkien liked his pizza with extra sausage, and his books too. _The Hobbit_ has basically no named female characters except for Bilbo’s mother who’s just mentioned at the beginning and not really a full-fledged character. If _The Lord of the Rings_ is a threefold improvement over _The Hobbit_ , some quantifiable evidence might be that it has three female characters: Arwen, my stunning half-elf queen and DL girlfriend of exiled human heir Aragorn whom she loves to the point of forsaking her own immortality; Galadriel, the literal Queen of the Elves whose big moment is being tempted by the power of the Ring but refusing it; and Eowyn, a sort of Anglo-Saxon woman who rises above her lowly station to fight in battle, where she herself defeats the Witch-King (“No living man am I!”). If _The Lord of the Rings_ , to no one’s shock, expresses a twentieth-century Catholic Englishman’s attitude towards what the virtuous woman should be or do, should we blame it for that? One part of men reads this and are like, fuck yeah, these are good virtuous women. Another part of men is like, aww come on, this is such a tired discourse. Let me enjoy it! But that’s not the strange part of _The Lord of the Rings_ for me. It’s not the lack of women, but how conspicuous that lack is. The same actor playing two characters ends up having two monologues in the same film about where all the women are: as the dwarf Gimli, he says everyone thinks they haven’t seen a female dwarf because they all look more-or-less the same as the male dwarves (of which, in any case, there’s Gimli plus some background dwarves in the first film); as the ent Treebeard, he explains that the ents all used to have ent-wives before they left and went missing. I think the linguistic relationship between “ent” and “ent-wife” clues us into how Tolkien conceptualizes the relationship between “man” and “wo-man” (which means, as he would have known, “wife-man”). Although “ent” and “man” are theoretically abstract identifiers for any member of the sets of “ents” and “men”, the default member of one of those groups is presumed male, whereas the subset of members who are or would be wives are set apart from the core members of the set. This is why the three female characters are sometimes praised (I’ve noticed) not just or necessarily for embodying virtues deemed aspirational for women, but for being specifically female and distinct from one another in a world otherwise centered on men (whereas some female characters in literature have no choice but to always be Eowyn in order to be considered significant by the author or by readers). No! Get back on track! _The Lord of the Rings_ isn’t about women, and frankly neither is this. Schrodinger’s wif-dwarves. Divorced trees. What I’m interested in, and what struck me on this viewing after years and years, is why all the men are conspicuously single. Literally for the first fifteen minutes of the first film, I was looking at Gandalf and Bilbo and Frodo and was like, wait, aren’t all these guys like super fucking gay? Theatrical elder gay, quirky gay uncle, beautiful gay boy-man. Their homosexual vibe seems related to their propensity for adventure compared to everyone else in Hobbitland: they are not concerned with worldly desires like indulging in food, marrying women, having children; they strive for more than what the simple domestic life offers, and women are creatures of the simple domestic life. Samwise Gamgee for his part is bisexual: he both wants a simple life with his crush Rosie, and wants to go on an adventure as the faithful companion of Frodo. When Frodo leaves for Elf-heaven, his last words to Sam are narrated over a scene of the latter returning to his new family after seeing Frodo off: “My dear Sam, you cannot always be torn in two. You will have to be one and whole for many years. You have so much to enjoy and to be and to do. Your part in the story will go on.” None of the other companions seem to have heterosexual pairings at all, except for Aragorn who (mind you!) for the greater part of the story has to be with his beautiful half-elf girlfriend in secret. I’m both being silly and trying not to understate how strange this is. Here’s my reading: J.R.R. Tolkien, the Catholic Englishman and World War veteran, struggles with how men are asked to find meaning in manly virtue (through war and kingship, et cetera) while also fulfilling their duty as husbands and fathers. The domestic life is boring and perhaps even feminizing, and the only place for a man to realize himself as such and relate to other men is on a grand quest such as war. One wonders if Tolkien, like poor Sam Gamgee, had come back from the Great War only to realize how disappointed he was to finally return to the woman he had always wanted to marry. Is men’s self-realization fundamentally tied up in relationship with and recognition by other men? Is heterosexual marriage just a dull duty compared to the heightened moral and mortal stakes of going on a homosocial quest with the bros? Did Tolkien miss exploring his compatriots' bodies in the trenches? I’m not a guy, but this seems to clarify a lot of guy behavior. Huh.
25.01.2026 15:46 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
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Political Transbianism I’d like to be so bold as to suggest that we have a problem. Trans-females are obviously having a moment in political discourse, and their characterization has shifted in emphasis over the years: from stealthy homosexuals trying to deceive heterosexual men, to perverse straight men masquerading as lesbians to infiltrate women's private spaces. Both of these notions have existed for a while. As Julia Serano notes in her seminal manifesto _Whipping Girl_ , these stereotypes in fact mutually construct each other, and were also reified in Blanchard’s transsexualism typography as the heterosexual transsexual versus the autogynephile. However, the latter has become a convenient angle for fascists, whose self-avowed motive is often to protect women from various masses of predators in the forms of black men, Muslims, and (in this case) trans women.1 Each case yields baseless accusations and demands proactive retribution. But what happens when the benefit of the doubt serves as a cover for actual impropriety? Online trans-female networks—especially and in particular of those attracted to women—have a cultural awareness of society’s predisposition to view trans lesbians as predators, and so caution for caution when a trans woman is accused of grooming or sexual assault, especially from an individual said to be exempt from transmisogyny,2 and doubly so if the one accused is said to be affected by transmisogynoir.3 It is notable that those terms originate from feminist theory to explain the precarious position of trans and/or black women as victims of disenfranchisement and social violence (i.e.: deaths treated as collateral from the structural dynamics of patriarchy, racism, and capitalism), but they are deployed here to rationalize an apparent predisposition of trans lesbians to be accused of impropriety. What the fuck is up with that? ## The Coconut Tree There was a scandal inside a scandal the other day, when one group of online white trans women published an exposé against an online brown trans woman. Self-avowed theorist of transfeminism Tara Knight claimed to have received a cease-and-desist letter from the FBI telling her to stop posting radical gender theory, following statements from the Trump regime that they would investigate trans people as potential “nihilistic violent extremists”. “Officially confirmed by the federal government being a bad bih is revolutionary asf”, she posted on Instagram to lampoon her alleged encounter. Then the self-avowed journalists at _The Needle_, investigating her claim that she and others had received letters, asked her to provide evidence to verify that what she said happened happened. Knight provided the following image as evidence: That looks less like a real photo of a fake document than an AI-generated photo of a fake document. It looks about as real as those AI-generated peepee monsters I made before AI became a 'thing'. Knight seemingly saw the writing on the wall and tried to get ahead of the upcoming exposé by writing a reflection on journalism as the pursuit of stories over truth (she seems to like getting ahead of things by decrying whatever the thing is): > Journalism does not run on truth. It runs on stories. Stories need tension, protagonists, antagonists, arcs, and payoff. Stories need something to sell. Once you understand that, the rest of the behavior stops looking confusing and starts looking inevitable. A journalist from The Needle implying I fabricated an FBI document (federal crime btw) is not an anomaly [!]. It is a reflex. It is what happens when reality refuses to arrange itself into a neat narrative and the writer still needs a hook. > > Tara Knight, “Journalists Aren’t Your Friends” And in the comments: > The accusation was I “ai generated” the letter. (Blurred it using image editing software) Why would I commit a felony in the stupidest way possible. Girl, it’s not blurred. It’s straight-up hallucinated! So is this Andrea Dworkin quote which links to ChatGPT. Anyway, _The Needle_ published an exposé explaining from toe to tip why it’s full of shit, and after 1–2 days of discourse, Tara Knight posted on her Instagram story (and later on her main feed) that there was no letter from the FBI, asking her followers to stop defending her on that count. The real issue in her view was Jane Migliara Brigham, self-avowed “transsexual nationalist” and co-author of the exposé, accusing Knight of being high on an interview with a certain Sophie From Mars (put a pin in it)—and more generally in accusing a trans woman of color not only of grifting her audience but of committing a felony by falsifying a federal letter. Knight was careful not to elaborate too much about the nature of what exactly she did in her later statement: “there was no letter from the fbi […] I’ll do better in the future and be more careful with how or what I put out there I apologize!” Clown show’s over. ## Falling Out But that's not all. Sophie From Mars, the BreadTuber? The article from _The Needle_ explained in passing how she “was credibly accused of rape by five people who knew her” (these being, in fact, other trans women), for which she had confessed and apologized on Twitter/X before eventually deleting her post. Knight’s interview with Sophie was about how trans women are excluded from queer spaces, and Knight considered Sophie a key case in the unfair ostracization of trans women. Don’t confuse Sophie with Sophia, with whom Knight and Talia Bhatt and others orchestrated a campaign against a trans-masculine person for referring to their own sexual assault as having “experienced sexually objectified womanhood”,4 nicknaming them as “the Rapetical”. Chloe Corrupt, a trans ex-performer of CNC pornography who was accused by other performers of sexual assault (and referred to her lawyers as having "gangbanged" her accusers' wallets), also came out of the woodworks in support of Knight. Tara Knight, for her part, has written (perhaps generated) at length about the danger of whisper networks as a favorite strategy of the FBI to wreck organizations, and as a social pattern to which trans women are (apparently) especially vulnerable. Isn’t this a little weird? Why is there so much litigation about sexual assault accusations against trans women being driven by trans women credibly accused of sexual assault? I feel like a bit of an outsider to this circus. I might be a trans woman with a female partner, but growing up I found community and friendship with other women (all cis-sex). Only during the COVID-19 pandemic did I make an effort to find what trans women were doing in online spaces, specifically trans lesbians because I had cis lesbian friends and a cis lesbian partner so I figured “Gay is great!” without thinking about it. Trans lesbians congregate in two kinds of online networks. The first are predominantly male spaces which (nevertheless) do not ask members to perform masculinity, and thus have a safe vibe for trans women who grew up with guy friends and find comfort in what they consider culturally familiar: this isn’t about “sex assigned at birth” or sexual orientation _per se_ (as Blanchard would have it), but rather about whom one considers their social milieu. The second are what I would call “intimate networks” where trans lesbians excluded from typical dating pools (whether actually or in their minds) can get their freak on; I sometimes joke that mass-scale polyamory actuates some Nash equilibrium type shit by maximizing the amount of sex that otherwise sexless people can’t secure for themselves, but I’m been assured they are (in fact!) very desirable, which is why they have so much sex. Let’s take their word for it. I had inadvertently entered that first network in pursuit of sorority, and what you might find is that the two often overlap. Someone who had invited me to some Discord server to further inundate myself in the hobby initiated “girl talk” in direct messages which soon progressed into hitting on me, sharing sexual fantasies (including a sex dream about me and my partner whom she identified with a random trans woman on the server, despite my partner being a cis woman), asking to start a joint GoFundMe, and also suggesting that I move from to Canada with her. I had not, and probably never will, publicly accuse this person of doing those things because being in that community made me all too aware of the apparent preponderance of trans women being accused of impropriety, and I didn’t want to contribute to a hostile culture which I was assured had it out for me too. Besides, I told myself, it’s just a bit of culture shock, right? Tara Knight describes how sex functions as a social currency for trans women, especially in T4T spaces (the virtue of which the person often extolled to me, even after she eventually remembered my partner was cis-female): > The girls who want to fuck her are warm. Responsive. Curious. Patient. They listen. They reassure her. They make her feel wanted in a way she hasn’t before. > > Sex becomes the fastest way to feel included. > > No one tells Emme she has to fuck to belong. That’s not how this works. What she notices instead is that sex smooths everything out. Conversations flow easier. Awkwardness disappears. Tension dissolves. She’s invited back. She’s checked on. > > When she’s sexually available, things feel calm. Knight describes how this mode of sex functions as insurance within a T4T community to prevent conflict and promote togetherness (albeit in a toxic, if unintended, way). "This is not manipulation, Knight says. “This is structure.” She avoids moralizing the dynamic on those grounds which on one hand I can’t fault her for because it’s not the fault of individuals or of sex itself, and she does describe the negative effects of that dynamic when the relationship falls apart outside of sex, but she emphasizes the dynamic as being “between trans women who care about each other” as if, even if it were not good, it cannot be helped. She concludes that one does not have to give up sex, including seemingly sex of this nature, but merely that one should see it as it is and not “let [their] body bankroll belonging without your awareness.” It’s nuanced, but the nuance is predicated on the participants being equal victims of the dynamic, in which blame on either individual seems like an unfair transgression of the social contract. This is how Chloe Corrupt seems to frame her own allegations. I think there’s something wrong in the water. I’m trying not to be like, “Y’all bitches need Pauline sexual ethics,” but the dynamic Knight describes is not neutral or natural. Though she frames the relationship as being between two trans women, presumably equal, what she leaves unstated is that one person in the relationship is sexually abusing the other by invoking unfair socio-cultural expectations around sex. If the one who feels mistreated leaves the relationship, they also forfeit what security (material, emotional, etc.) they had by it; if they tell others about the mistreatment, they are breaking the social contract as well as exposing a personal conflict ripe for weaponization by hostile outsiders. The only way to win as an individual is to play the game and win some social currency for yourself—or at least, that’s the perspective of the one who chooses to play. ## Conclusion I am bitter and resentful: that I was treated a certain way, that I was exposed to bullshit pseudo-feminist rationalizations, that I was told (and am constantly told) that speaking on these issues plays into unfair stereotypes. There is a culture of sexual impropriety among trans lesbians in their networks, and the best faith view I have is that every person who perpetuates it is just playing a game at which they once found themselves losing, rather than there being a truly concerted effort to indulge in selfishness and silence its victims. The solution then isn’t to hunker down on the culture, but refuse to play the game and let those who found themselves in it speak honestly about it. I don’t have to worry myself anymore, being happily mono-amorous and now knowledgeable about this bullshit, but it frustrates me seeing feminist language being deployed to redeem rape culture as woke. **Edit:** Knight a few hours ago on Instagram just addressed the allegations which she was seemingly trying to get ahead of, including referring to one accuser as being a “toxic bottom who can’t communicate her own boundaries,” which prompts more questions than it gives answers (what exactly was done without establishing whether or not it crossed a boundary?). Whether or not the accusations are true, the culture needs to die. * * * 1. If fascism can be defined as the aestheticization of politics, as per Walter Benjamin, one might characterize fascist sexual paranoia as cuckold pornification. ↩︎ 2. A term coined by Serano in her aforementioned book, referring to the particular position of trans-females at the social intersection of transphobia and misogyny, though Serano (as far as I remember) is not particularly concerned with accusations of sexual impropriety. ↩︎ 3. Misogynoir is a term coined by Moya Bailey referring to the particular position of black women between anti-black racism and misogyny. Transmisogynoir, in turn, is a portmanteau of Serano and Bailey’s portmanteaus to refer to the ever more specific position of black trans women (especially in being triply predisposed to poverty, and thus sex work, and thus violence resulting from those conditions). ↩︎ 4. I felt like a certain consensus had been reached that even though passing trans men may benefit from patriarchy (etc.), society’s orientation towards trans men as such is to (rhetorically and/or materially) castrate and thus refeminize them. Isn’t it a little inconsistent to target someone on the basis of stating that? It's not "smol bean" rhetoric. It's the same big tent (albeit woman-centered) feminism for which Talia Bhatt has advocated in other contexts. Or we are selectively feminizing or masculinizing trans men (as which the individual in question does not even self-identify!) based on whichever is more rhetorically convenient? ↩︎
20.01.2026 18:52 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Cinco: Item Quality Sorry, I just need to exorcise a thought real quick to convince myself why it’s a bad idea. The impulse is I realized that _Cinco!_ doesn’t have swords +1 and I was like, oh, how sad—even though by all means it’s a good thing that it’s not a fucking number-go-up game. It’s intentionally all very discrete and non-granular, reducing as much as I possibly can to pure structure (not necessarily in terms of procedure but, in general, of dynamics). But let me just give this a try. Come onnnn. It's like my 2023 post but easier. ## Split Bonuses Your aspect bonuses can only go up to +4 now (start by allocating 2 points), but now you can add a bonus from an item you use, also from +1 to +4. Bonus | Item Quality | Rarity (D20) ---|---|--- — | — | 1–10 +1 | Junk | 11–4 +2 | Common | 15–17 +3 | Rare | 18–19 +4 | Legendary | 20 Your starting items are common (+2). You can get rare and legendary items on adventures. The above rarity roll might come in handy (results 1 to 10 are nothing). ## Durability An item’s quality also serves as its durability. You can spend 1 durability to reroll your D20 check (or that of an opponent!) with that item, but its quality will also decrease. At 0 durability, an item breaks. ## Closing It’s a bad idea, right? I think so. I don’t think I’d want to deal with the extra granularity or having to track durability of items (not to mention differentiating between values of different item qualities). But you see the temptation, right? This just isn’t Diablo so I can’t justify the extra complexity. Maybe I’ll give it a try one day and if it’s not terrible, I’ll throw it in the appendices. I think what I really want are juicier tables and tools for play in general, and this is a substitute for that harder work. Self-crit!
16.01.2026 22:43 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Cinco: Bibliography Swear to Gxd I was working on this before the previous post. I just waited to post until it seemed less topically timely because it was a genuine effort and something I had wanted to write as a reflection on where I’ve been and gone over the years. Happy New Year and, if you celebrate, Happy Logos Incarnation Anniversary! Or solstice or whatever. Fuck. This is also nice to post on the blog because I can actually include links to things here. **Cinco!** is mostly inspired not necessarily by _Dungeons& Dragons, Fifth Edition_ (2014) as much as by the McElroy Brothers’ podcast _The Adventure Zone_ and my experience playing _D &D_ as modeled on that media. This book is a tribute to that subculture which despite being centered on _D &D_ also elevated it through play to something more than a tactical skirmish game. It’s inspired by tumblrinas, gamer girls, and theater kids who strove to redeem creative sparks from boring prisons. Ben Milton’s _Knave_ (2018) inspired me to seek simpler role-playing game experiences than name-brand _D &D_ could offer. I had played with the “Fancypants” edition (2018) by Joel Priddy on his blog _An Abominable Fancy_. The house rules “Knacks for Knaves” (2019) by _The Man With A Hammer_ directly—and vastly—influenced my preference for feat-based over class-based character design. Jesse Ross’s _Trophy Gold_ (2022) made me realize that characters didn’t need standard attributes. Inspiration for minor items is an adaptation of gear bubbles from Jared Sinclair’s _6E_ (2020). _Wanderhome_ (2021) by Jay Dragon inspired character concepts and my discrete approach to rules. Warren F. Smith’s post “Worldbuilding as a Team Sport” (2022) from his blog _Prismatic Wasteland_ became my favorite worldbuilding method ever since I experienced it as a player and since I have gone on to use it in my own campaigns. My campaign setting is largely derived from my interests in early modern history of colonization and religion, but also takes cues from my favorite fairy-tale adventure films like _The Mummy_ (1999), _Pirates of the Caribbean_ (2003), and _The Princess Bride_ (1987). Playing Idle Cartulary’s adventure module _Bridewell_ (TBA) was very inspiring for its emotional core. Nick LS Whelan’s post “Flux Space in Dungeons” (2017) from his blog _Papers & Pencils_ influenced how I design and run adventure sites as node-based graphs rather than as architectural blueprints. Ty Pitre’s “Pocket-Sized Powder Kegs” (2025) from _Mindstorm_ clarified in retrospect my preference for conflict-based adventure design and gave me a point of reference when writing my own guide. My six-room site scheme is taken from my simplification of the dungeon design guidelines from the original _D &D_ (1974), which was published as “Bite-Sized Dungeons” (2022) on my blog _Traverse Fantasy_. Combat initiative takes after Robert J. Schwalb’s _Shadow of the Weird Wizard_ (2025). The ammunition rules likewise take after _D&D Gamma World_ (2010). Isaac Williams’s _Mausritter_ (2019) influenced my inventory rules. “Zelda-Style NPC Personalities” (2023) from _To Distant Lands_ influenced my NPC trait tables. The conversation procedure is lifted almost directly from _D&D Fifth Edition_ (2014). Believe it or not! I won’t lie to you. I came up with my downtime system using treasure-as-tokens from playing _Fall Guys_ (2020) one night with my partner and our friends. There’s also a bit of _Fire Emblem: Three Houses_ (2019) in there with the monthly calendar. The haven system with lackeys is inspired by _Animal Crossing: New Leaf_ (2020) and _Fantasy Life i_ (2025). The travel rules are inspired by _West of Loathing_ (2017) and _Ryuutama_ (2007). Unrelatedly, I tried making a hex map for my little printout for FMC. It’s ugly. I don’t like it. I might just have to go with it anyway. Sorry, Hodag, for your art having to sit next to it. What else... Oh! I had a lovely Christmas season with my partner and both of our families :) hope y'all did too! It's been a very slow time for me creatively speaking—except that S got me an espresso machine so I've been inviting my friends over to pretend to be a barista for them, so much fun—but I'm hoping to get my head straight on writing _Brimstone_  and developing _Resourciv_  this year. The category last year was becoming more annoying, and that was a mission success, so this year it's to become crazier!
04.01.2026 22:15 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
FAQ U: Plagiarism, Part II There’s a professor at my partner’s graduate school who’s very eager to catch students in the act of academic dishonesty. The class is split up into small groups to write and present a review article of publications in the field. Like clockwork, every year, the students who write the actual data summary for their respective groups’ projects get called to his office to beg for academic probation (as opposed to expulsion). Why? Because their portions of the project have undeniable similarities to published works as detected by the professor’s anti-plagiarism software. You might notice the problem here. Those students wrote the data summary section of their review articles—the section where you cite, quote, and summarize existing literature to contextualize the more analytical sections of the review. Every year, a handful of poor students get slapped on the wrist by the professor but then are quietly freed by the dean who has seen this happen every year and has a smarter head on her shoulders. Although the professor’s software found content similarities between the student’s work and what published works were included in its comparison dataset, the professor did not take the next step to consider why those sections were flagged as similar. Believe you me, I have it on good word that he’s not a thinking type in general. Let me paint you the picture: male Mormon gynecologist. He’s white too, if that sweetens the pot. I explained previously what plagiarism is: misrepresenting someone else’s work as your own. Did the students who wrote the data summary sections of their projects plagiarize the works which they summarized? No. Again: they were citing, quoting, and summarizing those existing works because that’s the entire point of (that section of) a review article. Each of those is important. If they didn’t summarize the data, they wouldn’t contribute anything to the project. If they didn’t quote the original publications, the summary would not necessarily be reliable in the eyes of a reader. If they didn’t cite the original works—even that by itself would just be neglectful since the reader would probably understand from context that they’re reading a summary. What if they didn’t cite or quote any of the original literature, but simply reworded it to give the impression that the data or insights were their own? Only then can content similarities be potentially attributed to dishonesty. So, even barring that professor’s lacking interpretation of the data, how does a content similarity checker work? Let’s say you have a work by Alice and a work by Bob. When you put the two texts next to each other, maybe you notice that Alice’s work (for one reason or another) has striking similarities to Bob’s work. At that point you can interrogate why those similarities exist and maybe ask Alice why she copied Bob if, e.g., she wasn’t citing and quoting Bob throughout the paper. But what we call anti-plagiarism software doesn’t just compare one work to another. Rather, it has a collection of works published by Bob, Carol, David, Eve, Frank, and so on, against which it compares Alice’s article. Sometimes the software is a simple text comparison, though more recently there are some expensive (computationally and otherwise) machine-learning approaches. Regardless, red flags tend to pop up if Alice’s work is more than 10% similar to works in the software’s dataset, and then it’s the reviewer’s job to determine why. Those poor students from earlier, since they wrote the data summary sections, probably had a stupid percent similarity (maybe 30% to 50%) to published works by the nature of writing the section to aggregate and contextualize existing data. That would be extremely alarming if they wrote a more analytical section of their group’s article, but it makes sense considering it’s the section where you cite, quote, and summarize already published work. I wouldn’t be surprised if the overall articles had similarity rates of 10–20% (which is the norm for outright review articles), with most content similarities occurring in those poor data summary sections. Human interpretation of comparison data is how we distinguish true positives from false positives, because all the machine can provide us is a percent of how much of a text is (superficially!) similar to texts it knows. How about false negatives? Let’s say Alice is smart and bilingual, or maybe she just has some more-or-less shitty translation software. There’s a paper written in Spanish by José, about the exact topic Alice has to research and report on. Even if the professor’s content similarity checker has the paper in its dataset (which is potentially unlikely depending on whether the software developer has access to non-English journals), José’s original paper was written and published in Spanish. All Alice has to do—and this is a real strategy I have seen mentioned by others—is translate José’s article to English and pass it off as her work. Neither the professor nor the machine are any the wiser because textually speaking there are no detectable similarities between Alice’s work and any published work. If positive cases warrant interpretation, negative cases warrant investigation. Software is just a first layer of checks for the most obvious clues of plagiarism. Are the citations ‘real’ and consistently cited? If Alice translated the entirety of José’s paper, the professor might find that none of the cited sources actually exist (except, perhaps, in Spanish); although, if Alice had not translated the citations, that would have registered as a textual similarity in the anti-plagiarism software (if its dataset included José’s article). Does the work read like Alice’s other works? Are there instances of awkward language or unfamiliar idioms? Does the raw document lack a version history? None of these are indicators of plagiarism by themselves. Again, evidence must be interpreted, and just because it warrants investigation doesn’t mean it proves plagiarism. You need the proverbial smoking gun: the original text which was passed off. The best the machine can do is compare a text against other texts it happens to know, which is on one hand why it’s a good place to start, but on the other hand why it’s not omniscient. Here’s a practical example of the above case. Let’s take the below quotation from Ovid: > […] quo mente feror? quid molior?" inquit > "di, precor, et pietas sacrataque iura parentum, > hoc prohibete nefas scelerique resistite nostro, > si tamen hoc scelus est. sed enim damnare negatur > hanc venerem pietas: coeunt animalia nullo > cetera dilectu, nec habetur turpe iuvencae > ferre patrem tergo, fit equo sua filia coniunx, > quasque creavit init pecudes caper, ipsaque, cuius > semine concepta est, ex illo concipit ales. > felices, quibus ista licent! humana malignas > cura dedit leges, et quod natura remittit, > invida iura negant. […] > > Ovid, Metamorphoses X.320–31 That registers as 100% similar to some other works in one plagiarism checker’s database—obviously, it’s Ovid. Below is a translation by A.S. Kline: > [… and she] says to herself: “Where is my thought leading? What am I creating? You gods, I pray, and the duty and sacred laws respecting parents, prevent this wickedness, and oppose my sin, indeed, if sin it is. But it can be said that duty declines to condemn such love. Other creatures mate indiscriminately: it is no disgrace for a heifer to have her sire mount her, for his filly to be a stallion’s mate: the goat goes with the flocks he has made, and the birds themselves conceive, by him whose seed conceived them. Happy the creatures who are allowed to do so! Human concern has made malign laws, and what nature allows, jealous duty forbids." That one was flagged at 97% similar (I can’t imagine what the 3% difference is; maybe formatting). Finally, below is my original translation: > Herself she asked, "Where is my mind leading? What am I arousing? > To the gods, I pray, and to the duty and sacred laws of parents: > forbid this transgression and oppose our wickedness, > if indeed it is wickedness—but duty truly deigns to condemn this loveliness. > Other animals come together indiscriminately > and it is not unseemly for a heifer to be taken by her father from behind, > for a stallion to make his filly his wife. A goat goes into the flock he made, > and birds themselves are impregnated by him whose seed had conceived them. > Happy are those who are allowed! Human anxiety imparts malignant laws, > and what nature permits, envious laws deny. What shocked me is that translation registered as 0% similar. I must be a shitty translator if it’s not like anything ever published. Or maybe no one likes that passage. I wonder why. Now imagine if I presented that piece of poetry as my original work. Who else is going to admit to be familiar with Orpheus’ misogynistic incest screed in _Metamorphoses_ X? Just joking, but you understand the point: if a text is translated or has been sufficiently reworded or is simply sufficiently obscure, there is no machine that could tell you whether someone has plagiarized it. They’re not that knowledgeable, no matter how much data they scrape, and even with knowledge the best they can do is a comparison on the level of content rather than of meaning (whether it's based on primitive comparison or machine learning). One thus needs to demonstrate a clear line of ‘descent’ from one text to another, with or without the machine’s help. Anyway. Brush your teeth. Wash your butt. Eat your vegetables. Don't hash out what you can't take. Blend your foundation.
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Cinco: December 2025 I’ve been making changes to my homebrew heartbreaker _Cinco!_ based on my most recent play-sessions. These aren’t published yet because I have some new empty space I’d like to fill with handy tools for myself. * The document is now A4 so that it can be resized to A5 for print. The main character sheet is now digest/A5 sized, and cards for items and exhaustion will be moved from your sheet to your hand. * Replaced supply with rations. Rations are only spent when resting for a whole night, specifically to treat any place in the wilderness like a haven. Health potions however can be consumed at any point, including during an encounter; this makes them very valuable as treasure! * Removed distinction between equipped and packed cards. You can now use any of your 7-ish items during combat, except that: large items cost 1 extra action to use; and you can’t use duplicates of the same armor type. * Levels are now from 1 to 10. When you play with feats, you start with one at level 1 and gain additional ones at levels 3, 6, and 10. There are no more origin feats; rather, your concept lets you establish up to three NPC contacts. What else? Someone told me Canvas is surprisingly nice for hex maps, which is good to know! I’ll need that.
17.12.2025 02:52 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Translating Λόγος There’s an idiom by which evangelicals refer to the Bible, namely the “Word of Gxd”, and they will read bits of the Bible referring to the _Logos_ as being self-referential towards the Bible (never mind that the form in which we receive it is different from what the authors, who probably had not realized they were contributing to canon, would have had in mind). Then it occurred to me: wait a second, the _Logos_? Are there any references to the _Logos_ in the New Testament which are not either referring to the _Logos_ _qua_ ontological function or to _logos_ _qua_ reason (if not _logos_  in its most basic, literal sense)? Keep in mind that the New Testament is addressed to the Hellenistic world which was well acquainted not only with the language in which the various authors were writing, but also probably (whether by being literate or via cultural osmosis) with the concepts of Greek philosophy which Christians were both competing with and borrowing from linguistically as Hellenized Messianic Jews (or Gxd-fearers). I pulled some passages in which _logos_ is popularly understood to refer to the Bible, replacing instances of “word” with _logos_ so you know where to look. > Then Pharisees and scribes came to Jesus from Jerusalem and said, “Why do your disciples break the tradition of the elders? For they do not wash their hands before they eat.” He answered them, “And why do you break the commandment of Gxd for the sake of your tradition? For Gxd said, ‘Honor your father and your mother,’ and, ‘Whoever speaks evil of father or mother must surely die.’ But you say that whoever tells father or mother, ‘Whatever support you might have had from me is given to Gxd,’ then that person need not honor the father. So, for the sake of your tradition, you nullify the _**logos**_ of Gxd. > > Matthew 5:1–6 (NRSVue) Matthew (let’s just refer to the author as per tradition) is a Jewish writer concerned with what it means to fulfill the Torah, and he (I assume that’s not controversial) takes what I’d consider a relatively conservative approach (relative to other New Testament authors) in emphasizing the continued observance of Mosaic law—or, at least, that’s the typical read and I don’t see a reason to disagree unless you warp either his words or those of others to make them agree with each other. Anyway, fun fact: did you know that _logos_ never refers to “word” as a semantic unit? It’s etymologically “that which is ordered” or “reckoned”, and it refers literally to an utterance of speech or a train of thought, and then by extension to one’s capacity to reckon or order. I think the reason why translators usually go for “word” is because Jerome when translating to Latin opted for “verbum”, which might be fine in a case like the passage above but less so in John 1’s hymn to the _Logos_. Nevertheless, I still think that “word” is not an ideal translation here because it overemphasizes the linguistic aspect of _logos_ over its aspect as dictum or command. After all, it’s specifically Jesus’ point that the Pharisees nullify Gxd’s commandments by taking them at the letter. > Once while Jesus was standing beside the Lake of Gennesaret and the crowd was pressing in on him to hear the _**logos**_ of Gxd […] > > Luke 5:1 (NRSVue) I usually like citing passages at length, but this just frames the start of the episode where Jesus calls his first disciples. I’d be hard-pressed to read _logos_ here as “the Word”, at least in reference to the Bible or even the Torah specifically. Jesus here is serving as a prophet, and what does a prophet do? They speak on behalf of Gxd. The word _logos_ could be read both literally as “utterance” or even as “word” in a strictly literal (but not grammatical) sense, or in the extended sense of being an account or command of Gxd—it could also be a pun on Luke’s part since the audience is both listening to a _logos_ and Jesus as the _Logos_ —but I see no way in which one can read it as referring to the Bible in part or whole. > Then his mother and his brothers came to him, but they could not reach him because of the crowd. And he was told, “Your mother and your brothers are standing outside, wanting to see you.” But he said to them, “My mother and my brothers are those who hear the _**logos**_ of Gxd and do it.” > > Luke 8:19–21 (NRSVue) Nope. If I could time-travel, I would pull Jerome aside and say: “Look here, Jerry: _dictum_ , not _verbum_. Don’t fuck it up for us hundreds of years down the line.” Again, in English, “word” is not necessarily a bad translation, except that our language is a little imprecise and the sense in which “word” (and _verbum_) means “word” has a different emphasis than how _logos_ (and _dictum_) means “word”. Anyway, again, hard-pressed to see that as referring to the Bible in part or in whole except in as much as the Bible records utterances that we understand as being _logoi_ of Gxd. And I feel like metonymy is a step too far. > While he was saying this, a woman in the crowd raised her voice and said to him, “Blessed is the womb that bore you and the breasts that nursed you!” But he said, “Blessed rather are those who hear the _**logos**_ of Gxd and obey it!” > > Luke 11:27–8 (NRSVue) Nope. Not convinced. > Now during those days, when the disciples were increasing in number, the Hellenists complained against the Hebrews because their widows were being neglected in the daily distribution of food. And the twelve called together the whole community of the disciples and said, “It is not right that we should neglect the _**logos**_ of Gxd in order to wait on tables. Therefore, brothers and sisters, select from among yourselves seven men of good standing, full of the Spirit and of wisdom, whom we may appoint to this task, while we, for our part, will devote ourselves to prayer and to serving the _**logos**_.” What they said pleased the whole community, and they chose Stephen, a man full of faith and the Holy Spirit, together with Philip, Prochorus, Nicanor, Timon, Parmenas, and Nicolaus, a proselyte of Antioch. They had these men stand before the apostles, who prayed and laid their hands on them. > > The _**logos**_ of Gxd continued to spread; the number of the disciples increased greatly in Jerusalem, and a great many of the priests became obedient to the faith. > > Acts 6:1–7 (NRSVue) Luke–Acts is supposed to be really one big work by the same author, so I thought I’d first show two instances from there first. Nope! I see _logos_ as referring generally to a message from Gxd and specifically as what we would call the gospel. Again, Luke as an educated gentile probably also has some familiarity with both Greek philosophy and probably the _Logos_ -centric theology of his contemporaries (late first century, early second century), so there might be some multiplicity of meaning in referring to what we call the gospel as the _Logos_ as if it were not only a message from Gxd but an ordering principle of the universe (see also Luke 1:1–4; it’s ambiguous about whether _logos_ refers to Jesus or his message). However, Luke postures as a historian, not as a philosopher, so that would be besides the point and either way could not be construed as referring to the Bible. What’s interesting to me is that the clearest instances of _logos_ seeming to refer to holy scriptures is also in the books of the New Testament with the highest Christology. > The Jews took up stones again to stone him. Jesus replied, “I have shown you many good works from the Father. For which of these are you going to stone me?” The Jews answered, “It is not for a good work that we are going to stone you but for blasphemy, because you, though only a human, are making yourself Gxd.” Jesus answered, “Is it not written in your law, ‘I said, you are gods’? If those to whom the _**logos**_ of Gxd came were called ‘gods’—and the scripture cannot be annulled—can you say that the one whom the Father has sanctified and sent into the world is blaspheming because I said, ‘I am Gxd’s Son’? If I am not doing the works of my Father, then do not believe me. But if I do them, even though you do not believe me, believe the works, so that you may know and understand that the Father is in me and I am in the Father.” Then they tried to arrest him again, but he escaped from their hands. > > John 10:31–9 (NRSVue) John? The one with the hymn to the _Logos_ —which, unfortunately, some evangelicals read as referring to the Bible and not to the literal fucking subject matter of his work? Anyway, this is a fascinating bit which I won’t talk about in itself; Dan McClellan has a good tiktok. I’m just worried about the use of _logos_ which here relates directly to “the law” (_nomos_), as not just the Torah but more broadly the Hebrew Bible (in this case, Psalm 82). But notice the distance between _nomos_ and _logos_ : it’s written in the _nomos_ which (Jesus implies) had come from the _logos_ of Gxd. I don’t think that necessarily precludes a functional identity between _nomos_ and _logos_ , but it’s complicated in light of John’s _Logos_ -centric Christology. It reads more like Jesus saying: “Don’t tell me the Law. I _gave_ the Law. Hell, I _am_ the Law.” That identity, in other words, seems like it’s meant to illustrate Jesus’ claim to divinity on the basis of him being the _Logos_ who gave or created the Law. > Remember your leaders, those who spoke the _**logos**_ of Gxd to you; consider the outcome of their way of life, and imitate their faith. Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Do not be carried away by all kinds of strange teachings, for it is good for the heart to be strengthened by grace, not by regulations about food, which have not benefited those who observe them. > > Hebrews 13:7 (NRSVue) I just don’t see it in this case at all. That’s the gospel, literally put in Pauline opposition to the dicta of the Mosaic Law, seemingly identified with Jesus himself as is pretty standard across the New Testament. So many evangelicals treat their canon as a divinity identified with Jesus or even unto itself, as if it were the Torah or the Quran, but that’s against what the New Testament authors teach across the board with regards to the gospel (specifically referring to Jesus’ thesis of neighborly love) as the ultimate message from Gxd, everything else being a mere image which by elaborating upon that principle alienates itself from it—can you imagine explaining to someone how they can express love for you, and yet even by doing everything perfectly they miss the feeling behind the action, or even act entitled to the benefits of expressions of love made without love? Simultaneously, what is a love that does not express itself? Gxd doesn’t want a down-low lover. Doesn’t it all click now? Jesus is Gxd's _Logos_ , the _Logos_  is the gospel, and the gospel is love.
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Gospel of Paul With help from James Bishop’s blog, I’ve compiled quotations from Paul which elaborate upon his understanding of Jesus’ life (a sort of mini-gospel): > But when the fullness of time had come, Gxd sent his Son, born of a woman, born under the law, in order to redeem those who were under the law, so that we might receive adoption as children. > > Galatians 4:4 (NRSVue) > Paul, a servant of Christ Jesus, called to be an apostle, set apart for the gospel of Gxd, which he promised beforehand through his prophets in the holy scriptures, the gospel concerning his Son, who was descended from David according to the flesh and was declared to be Son of Gxd with power according to the spirit of holiness by resurrection from the dead, Jesus Christ our Lord, through whom we have received grace and apostleship to bring about the obedience of faith among all the gentiles for the sake of his name, including you who are called to belong to Jesus Christ, to all Gxd’s beloved in Rome, who are called to be saints: Grace to you and peace from Gxd our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. > > Romans 1:1–7 (NRSVue) > For I received from the Lord what I also handed on to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took a loaf of bread, 24 and when he had given thanks, he broke it and said, “This is my body that is for[f] you. Do this in remembrance of me.” 25 In the same way he took the cup also, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” > > 1 Corinthians 11:23–5 (NRSVue) > For you, brothers and sisters, became imitators of the churches of Gxd in Christ Jesus that are in Judea, for you suffered the same things from your own compatriots as they did from the Jews [NB: not all Jews categorically, but just a subset of Judeans, analogous to the subset of Thessalonians persecuting the church there] who killed both the Lord Jesus and the prophets and drove us out; they displease Gxd and oppose everyone by hindering us from speaking to the gentiles so that they may be saved. > > 1 Thessalonians 2:14–6 (NRSVue) > You foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you? It was before your eyes that Jesus Christ was publicly exhibited as crucified! > > Galatians 3:1 (NRSVue) > For I handed on to you as of first importance what I in turn had received: that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the scriptures and that he was buried and that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the scriptures and that he appeared to Cephas, then to the twelve. Then he appeared to more than five hundred brothers and sisters at one time, most of whom are still alive, though some have died. Then he appeared to James, then to all the apostles. Last of all, as to one untimely born, he appeared also to me. > > 1 Corinthians 15:3–7 (NRSVue) > And when you were dead in trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, Gxd made you alive together with him, when he forgave us all our trespasses, erasing the record that stood against us with its legal demands. He set this aside, nailing it to the cross. He disarmed the rulers and authorities and made a public example of them, triumphing over them in it. > > Colossians 2:14 (NRSVue; note that Col. is deutero-Pauline) In an attempt to hit on all of these points: Jesus was a human descendant of David, born (like most of us!) of a woman. In life, he taught the fulfillment of the Law through Love. Then he was betrayed and crucified by fellow Jews who had opposed the extension of salvation to the nations. However, he had foretold his death as well as his resurrection three days later, after which he appeared to Cephas, then to the ‘twelve’, then to five hundred others, then to his literal bio-brother James the Just, and finally to the apostles (who at this point in time were categorically distinct from the disciples; think of Paul etc.). Through death, Jesus redeemed our debts under the Law so we could be adopted by Gxd. Through his resurrection, he himself was adopted as the Son of Gxd (though he was also already apparently the Son of Gxd before being born—is this a difference of Christology, or a matter of human versus divine perspective?). Missing are: general historical details (accurate or otherwise), a special birth narrative, tales of exorcisms and miracles, the march on Jerusalem, and the Temple’s occupation. We shouldn’t argue from silence about what were or were not considered to have really happened by the Church (or by various assemblies) at the time of Paul, much less what really happened historically, but that should give us some hints in terms of what parts of the Gospels were written from ‘tradition’ versus what parts were invented by nature of them being (literarily speaking) a Greco-Roman divine biographies. How much of this is Paul as opposed to the larger community? I lean towards Paul being not as controversial as is sometimes assumed. I actually wonder if he has better relations with the twelve than with James who, I realize, is not counted amongst the twelve! Is James, despite being Jesus’ literal brother, as much of an outsider as Paul even despite the former’s position as leader of the assembly in Jerusalem? Keep in mind the twelve all kind of fucked off and ministered elsewhere anyway. I understand and accept that Acts is not a reliable narrative, but it seems like it’s not unfair to locate James as a geographically limited leader in the Assembly, compared not just to Paul but to the twelve. Maybe, then, it’s fair that Paul asks James to stop messing with his assemblies w.r.t. matters of the Law. Maybe we should read the various councils in Acts as the twelve trying to reconcile Paul with James as fellow community leaders, rather than James being a birthright hegemon whose authority is gradually wrested away. Anyway, I see zero central leadership in this. Every figure seems unsure of what to do or how to collaborate on paper, acting on their hunch faster than they can agree on what they’re doing. See poor Cephas/Peter getting chastised by James for eating with gentiles, and then by Paul for not eating with gentiles, in Gal. 2:11–3; this seems to culminate in the Jerusalem Council in Acts 15, where they all finally get together to talk it out. Slow-motion train wreck. The following are teachings of Jesus according to Paul: > Therefore one must be subject [to the authorities], not only because of wrath but also because of conscience. For the same reason you also pay taxes, for the authorities are Gxd’s agents, busy with this very thing. Pay to all what is due them: taxes to whom taxes are due, revenue to whom revenue is due, respect to whom respect is due, honor to whom honor is due. Owe no one anything, except to love one another, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law. The commandments, “You shall not commit adultery; you shall not murder; you shall not steal; you shall not covet,” and any other commandment, are summed up in this word, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” Love does no wrong to a neighbor; therefore, love is the fulfilling of the law. > > Romans 13:5–10 (NRSVue) > To the married I give this command—not I but the Lord [Jesus]—that the wife should not separate from her husband (but if she does separate, let her remain unmarried or else be reconciled to her husband) and that the husband should not divorce his wife. To the rest I say—I and not the Lord—that if any brother has a wife who is an unbeliever and she consents to live with him, he should not divorce her. > > 1 Corinthians 7:10–2 (NRSVue) > Do you not know that those who work in the temple service get their food from the temple and those who serve at the altar share in what is sacrificed on the altar? In the same way, the Lord commanded that those who proclaim the gospel should get their living by the gospel. > > 1 Corinthians 9:13–4 (NRSVue) > [Jesus] himself granted that some are apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors and teachers to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until all of us come to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of Gxd, to maturity, to the measure of the full stature of Christ. > > Ephesians 4:11–3 (NRSVue) As you can tell, these are all referred to in passing as common knowledge (that is, as an appeal to what the audience independently understand as sayings of Jesus). I’ve noticed a common assumption that Paul and his audience had some access to a sayings gospel such as the ever-elusive, hypothetical Q. Speaking of, I’ve ordered a critical edition of Q which will be interesting to read! It both seems that something like Q existed but also, w.r.t. the composition of the Synoptic Gospels, it seems more likely that Luke wrote from Matthew (or vice versa) rather than independently integrating Q with Mark. And I’m not an expert; it just seems like a reasonable position. I’m writing this down to specifically compare with Q. I know the common understanding is that Paul takes the apocalyptic prophet Jesus and ascribes to him divinity, turning him (in the words of James Tabor) from the “proclaimer” into the “proclaimed”. Simultaneously, I don’t think Paul is so removed from the cultural or theological context of Jesus. After all, at least one other (and relatively recent) rabbi was understood by his followers in life and after death to be the Messiah and even an incarnation of Gxd. Despite being technically unorthodox on paper, it seems like a recurrent pattern in Jewish thought. So, you know—it’ll be interesting to compare and see if Paul’s gospel is so deviant and if Jesus’ teachings are so conservative (speaking relatively to his time).
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My Dream + Readings I had a dream a few nights ago. Maybe you can help me. I was taking someone to a childhood favorite bakery of mine—not a real place, just in the dream—and I was very excited. However, no matter where I stood at the counter, the workers there would either ignore or heckle me while serving others. Eventually, even the other customers became frustrated that I was standing there even though I obviously wasn't welcome there. Some time passed, but then someone I understood to be the owner came out and apologized to me. He said that they might not have what I originally wanted—it was so busy and they were running out of goods, I remember in particular slices of cookie cake and a fried sheet cake which they iced like a donut and sliced into long rectangles, none of this making any sense—but that he was going to give me a box and I could pick out anything I wanted. I woke up and felt melancholy. A dream is a dream, but I understood intuitively what my mind was trying to communicate through its choice of symbols. This project is good for me. I'm not an unwelcome reader, and in fact the text seems to invite me to read it. It delights me. And this blog is like an open diary. The reason why I blog instead of writing it down is because I want my thoughts to be registered in the Other even if I don't want to share them with anyone in particular (or in general). So, if you don't enjoy this little exploration, sorry? I've removed the "Anti-Gnosticism" title from these posts because I think this effort is a little broader than beefing with an ancient heretical category, even if it's proved (for me!) to be a useful lens through which to read the literature in order to criticize later interpretations and practices. Any case, as Stefani Germanotta said, "Some of us just like to read." So I've read some more books lately, and I wanted to put down my thoughts. I need to emphasize that, coming out of evangelicalism, I am not an expert in any of these topics. I'm shooting from the hip. I'm taking it raw. And so on. ## James D. Tabor’s _Restoring Abrahamic Faith_ Started off strong! Tabor, a critical scholar specializing in early Christianity as a particular sect of Second Temple Judaism, wrote what started off as (what sounds like) a semi-hefty printout zine and turned into an exploration at length of Abrahamic theological continuity from the composition of the Torah to the emergence of Jesus _qua_ human prophet neither Messiah nor Yhvh. The first chapter is the strongest, focusing on the characterization of Gxd in terms of three core values: steadfast love, justice, and righteousness. Tabor argues that the project of Abrahamic faith is to save humanity and the cosmos from the former’s tendency towards idolatry and self-destruction. Yhvh Gxd is also not distant but an active participant in history motivated by love for all humanity. All’s well and good. I cried at the quotation from Genesis below, where Yhvh expresses regret at creating humanity: > Yhvh saw that the wickedness of humans was great in the earth and that every inclination of the thoughts of their hearts was only evil continually. And Yhvh was sorry that he had made humans on the earth, and it grieved him to his heart. So Yhvh said, “I will blot out from the earth the humans I have created—people together with animals and creeping things and birds of the air—for I am sorry that I have made them.” > > Genesis 6:5–7 How terrible is that? I’ve seen the passage more recently mocked for how it suggests that Gxd can't be omniscient if He could do something only to regret it later, but that’s besides the literary and rhetorical point of the passage, especially as a reframing of flood myths in the Ancient Near East. The Elohim (a phrase which Tabor interprets in its singular plurality the “force of forces”, which is fascinating and agreeable) are not destroying humanity just because they’re loud or annoying. It’s because the human condition (perhaps specifically in the context of civilization as a ‘post-garden’ enterprise) is so evil and destructive that it’s upsetting to anyone who cares, especially to the Creator. I’m reminded of a quote by Gillian Rose, a favorite of my friend Ènziramire, where she says: “Marxism has not failed; we have failed Marxism.” The Abrahamic story is that we have failed Gxd and yet He still tries to save us before we destroy ourselves absolutely. But it gets weird real quick, as I suppose one might have figured by a work which claims to restore (not reconstruct!) a past faith. What’s the way of Gxd? Well, Jesus summarizes it pretty well in Mark that first you love Yhvh Gxd with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind and all your strength, then you love your neighbor as yourself. Remember how the Pharisee discussing with Jesus says, to paraphrase, “Wow, Rabbi, you’re so right! Why are we even doing any of these burned sacrifices? You’ve just boiled down Torah to its bare essentials.” Tabor agrees with that up until he doesn’t. You know, there’s also the Decalogue, can’t forget about that. And, of course, there’s the entire law encoded in the Torah, including the male homosexuality taboo. Ah. He cites Jesus in Matthew's Gospel on this overall position. > “Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I have come not to abolish but to fulfill. For truly I tell you, until heaven and earth pass away, not one letter, not one stroke of a letter, will pass from the law until all is accomplished. Therefore, whoever breaks one of the least of these commandments and teaches others to do the same will be called least in the kingdom of heaven, but whoever does them and teaches them will be called great in the kingdom of heaven. For I tell you, unless your righteousness exceeds that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." > > Matthew 5:17–20 Maybe this is a controversial opinion—and I’m not an expert, so this is just based on my own interpretation—but I don’t think you can have it both ways. Mark and Matthew seem to disagree fundamentally about whether the laws enumerated in the Torah are essential to Jewish _politeia_ , whether one participates as a Jew or gentile. Again, Jesus is talking to a Pharisee scribe in Mark after all, and proverbially they pat each other on the back! I feel like I would catch the author of Matthew, despite its reputation as a Jewish Christian work, dead before complimenting a Pharisee. I may disagree with certain scholars that James was written against Paul, but I think in this case Matthew was almost certainly writing against Mark. One Jesus says that the Torah is an imperfect attempt to elaborate upon fundamental moral principles (“Nothing that goes into you is impure because you’ve purified it by the time you’ve shit it out!”), and another Jesus says that the Pharisees aren’t taking the Law far enough. Maybe Matthew needs to be qualified or reframed—like, maybe Jesus is referring just to the Decalogue which his Sermon on the Mount is specifically about, and maybe fulfillment of the Law implies some supersession into a more fundamental Law—but it’s only in as much as Matthew seems to counter Mark that Tabor can deploy Jesus to advocate strict Torah observance for gentiles. If the Gospels are incomplete or unreliable accounts of Jesus’ teaching, that makes it very difficult to treat any part as authentic, especially when two of them are cited to unwittingly opposite effects in the same analysis. Tangentially, I think it's more likely the historical Jesus preached supersession rather than fulfillment of the Mosaic Law, since our earliest textual sources in Paul and Mark imply supersession, and I don't think even James actually argues for strict observance (I'm pretty confident he just uses different Mosaic laws as examples of what it means to practice a Law _in toto_  partially, as an analogy for what it means to practice the 'Law of Liberty' partially). I also don't think he would have proved such a controversial figure in his time if he just said that other Jews weren't going far enough, as opposed to them outright missing the forest for the trees, even if his discourse on the Decalogue was more-or-less authentic as received—although the author of Luke–Acts, who thinks they're compiling the true story out of what disparate sources they have, excludes that discourse from a seemingly equivalent sermon which otherwise includes the Beatitudes and an elaboration on loving your enemies and judging others (though maybe, as a gentile, they just didn't want to include what comes down to Jewish inside baseball; not their place, perhaps). On its own, in any case, I think the discourse on the Decalogue can be read either way but the author of Matthew frames it (as one does) according to their own view. Not that it matters what the historical Jesus said or didn't say. We receive him only as a semi-consistent literary character. Anyway. And then Tabor mixes his correct analysis (as far as I can tell) of the messiah prophecy, as originally described by the Jewish prophets, with weird geopolitical commentary about the modern state of Israel as the fulfillment of related prophecies (which are themselves more fundamental to Jewish eschatology than the messiah). It was at that point that I realized, wait a second, we’ve stopped pretending to meditate on some pre-institutional, historical-ideal, archetypal Abrahamic faith, and we’ve arrived at trying to be better Jews than actual Jews by virtue of acknowledging Jesus as a prophet—this being unfortunately not an uncommon destination for these types. I’m not upset that I read the book, and it’s given me good stuff to think about, but the way it quickly descends into a generalized Abrahamic fascism is nuts. Remember, comrades: there is no text or tradition which you are not actively in the process of interpreting. ## Robyn F. Walsh’s _The Origins of Early Christian Literature_ How about something totally different? I often watch academic interviews with lunch or while I cycle, and of the various doctor-of-philosophy personalities that have consistently popped up, my favorite is Robyn Faith Walsh. In the first interview I’d watched with her, she kept angling her face towards the camera and I was like oh my god she’s real as fuck. Just like me for real for real. Etc. Every academic has a ‘thing’ or a ‘move’. My own move is, “You think you’re talking about _X_ , but you’re really talking about a concept of _X_.” Adorno’s move is, “You think you’re talking about 1 thing, but you’re really talking about 2 things.” Walsh’s move is, “You think this literature is an expression of a community, but it’s really the expression of a specific position in the social matrix.” Specifically, she’s interested in how Roman society and culture shaped early Christianity—or even more specifically in this book’s case, how the Gospels slot neatly into the elite literary culture of their time (especially Mark and the other Synoptics by extension, though Matthew and Luke seem to integrate a sayings tradition into Mark’s narrative template, whether or not Q exists), and are less expressive of early Christian communities than of vicarious poverty tourism exploring the effects of Roman imperialism through lands and ideas exotic to the author. It’s a cross between “Spiritual white man moves to Thailand” (as my partner put it), and “Iraq War veteran is traumatized by killing brown people” (my first thought, but I prefer my partner’s half of the interpretation). First, unrelatedly to any Jesus shit, Walsh has a chapter of meta-critique where she goes over the genealogy of the community-expression framework from the Brothers Grimm to the post-structuralist Death of the Author. The first was interesting because you realize how unfortunately intertwined the Brothers’ interests in anthropology and folklore were with nascent German nationalism centered on the _Volk_ —uh oh!—and how that analytical framework directly informed the assumption that the Gospels were authentic expressions of early churches that were simply recorded by their most elite (hence literate) members. But her critique of the Death of the Author interested me. There’s a vulgar version of the idea related to the consumption of literature as commodity, which I won’t relitigate here. Then there’s a soft version, which is that you can’t rely upon an author’s stated intent or lived experience as ‘Word of God’ when interpreting literature; rather, you should take a given text on its own terms. Finally there’s a hard version, which Walsh criticizes, that an author is none other than the voice of a social context, and to speak of individual authors is both modern and a fetish-in-flesh. Walsh instead deploys Bourdieu’s notion of habitus, saying that social context is less important or intuitive than one’s position in that context, and that we can analyze texts as incarnations of intersections or nodes in a larger matrix which elucidate the writer’s position in their context (even if we don’t know their name!). That’s the framework through which Walsh reads the Gospels: not as religious texts, but as classical literary works like others contemporaneous with them. I have very little to complain about this book! Walsh identifies literary parallels in Mark from the _Satyricon_ , from Philo of Alexandria, from the Alexander Romance, from Socrates, and from the life story of Aesop. She thus demonstrates not only is there a known model of authorship from the Greco-Roman world as the one she hypothesizes best applies to the Gospels, but that many Gospel motifs (both authorial and narrative) have precedent: the special birth, the unjust trial, the missing body, the deificiation. This has said before, she clarifies, but is often explained away by reference to some oral tradition, rather than being literary motifs knowingly deployed by the author. This is not to say that Christianity was invented wholesale by Romans—obviously there is still Paul and Josephus’ account—but that if you want to verify the historicity of various episodes in Jesus’ life, you need to sift from the text what aspects are not justlifted from the ‘general intelligence’ of Roman literature. This all in turn casts those who take the Gospels as more authentic narratives of Jesus compared to what little we find in Paul in a silly light. Maybe Q is also untouched (which is supposed to have also lacked any narrative—most strikingly the Passion!), if it exists as something that isn't Matthew. ## Fleeting Thoughts Not related to any particular books, but just reflecting on my recent studies so far: * I don’t think free will is a useful concept for reading the Bible. Very enlightenment. Very liberal. Shooting from the hip, it seems truer to form if we understand will as an external force which possesses and acts through us—whether divine or otherwise. Divine will in fact is intuitive from Nature and incarnated in it, according to Paul, and I think there’s a reading that sinful will (even if it’s basically instilled at birth by virtue of being inundated in a sinful society) is not that of the individual but of idolatrous forces who inhabit the mind–body vessel. Perhaps this is better called _pneuma_ , using the vocabulary of Paul and maybe Jesus, than will or volition. * I don’t want to suggest that Paul does not believe in the existence of demons or evil spirits (_pneumata_), or ascribe to him a fully social theory of idolatry. I just have a bias: when I read Paul describing idols and demons, I can’t help but think of Lucretius and how on one hand he doesn’t deny the existence of gods with ‘fine bodies’ essentially made of the same _pneuma_ as Paul describes demons, angels, or the ascended body—but on the other hand, it’s not because of those fine beings that humans do bad shit, but because humans attribute superstitions to them which justify their own actions. So I read those authors echoing each other. * I improved my structural model of the pneumatic cosmos, and then realized that it resembles the cosmological model of West Asian Semitic cultures—you know, with the big fucking dome with the holes into which the sky god sends rain, and with the division between not just fresh water and salt water but between the earthly waters and the primordial deep. A question which doesn’t help anyone: is a sky god a useful analogy or basis for some transcendent ground of being, and an earth mother in turn a useful analogy for immanent being, and does that inform how increasingly abstract cosmological models emerge? Does that analogy by itself reify patriarchal relations or only if those relations are inscribed onto the model, e.g., by asserting the ontological primacy of transcendence or dependency of immanence? Been fun!
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Anti-Gnosticism: Inside & Outside Previously, I submitted a working definition for gnosticism, an infamously vague category which typically serves to mark various doctrines as heterodox. These still have in my view a family resemblance, despite the exonymic nature of the term itself. There’s no minimum viable criteria to which all doctrines called gnostic can be reduced without shaving off the edges and possibly mischaracterizing many (or _all_) of them. However, there are tendencies manifest in doctrines called gnostic, which distinguish them from others called orthodox, and we should think of these tendencies not as specific beliefs but as relations between a believer, their dogma, and their praxis. My earlier go was: > that physical creation is a corrupt prison in which our souls are trapped, and that the goal of religion is to release our souls into a perfect immaterial realm where we’re free of material trappings and temptations But even my attempt to cast a wide net is too specific and thus fails to accomplish my real goal to ensnare orthodoxy within its own discursive terms. That first clause suggests not a creation corrupted by Adam’s fall—to one degree or another, depending on who you ask—but one essentially corrupt as a matter of material. I’m happy to announce a breakthrough which encapsulates the thrust of this ‘series’, by identifying the primary conflict in gnostic thought and cutting across it in a way which opens up new interpretive opportunities for reading not only Paul or the Gospels but also the Torah in as much as the early Christians are fellow interpreters of the latter, and in as much as the latter was also itself composed (at least in part) as a critique of hegemonic ideology through the lens of idolatry. Then, I'm going to try to extend that thesis into the realms of ontology and ethics. I’m definitely reinventing the wheel, but it’s been a nice process revisiting these texts. ## The Material Fetish The New Testament authors mix metaphors in ways which render exegesis difficult if we interpret the works through the Platonic or Aristotelian philosophical traditions by which those works were eventually transmitted to us. Two binaries are important to Paul, one of which I have discussed at length and the other I have avoided until now: nature–sin, that sin is either a corruption of or deviation from some divinely prescribed nature expressive of the _Logos_ ; and flesh–spirit, that the carnal desires of our flesh run contrary to those of the Spirit, one leading to evil and the other to goodness. Compare Romans (again! but we can now skip over the homosexuality bit, which is besides the point here): > For the wrath of Gxd is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and injustice of those who by their injustice suppress the truth. For what can be known about Gxd is plain to them, because Gxd has made it plain to them. Ever since the creation of the world Gxd’s eternal power and divine nature, invisible though they are, have been seen and understood through the things Gxd has made. So they are without excuse, for though they knew Gxd, they did not honor him as Gxd or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their senseless hearts were darkened. Claiming to be wise, they became fools, and they exchanged the glory of the immortal Gxd for images resembling a mortal human or birds or four-footed animals or reptiles. > > Therefore Gxd gave them over in the desires of their hearts to impurity, to the dishonoring of their bodies among themselves. They exchanged the truth about Gxd for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen. > … > And since they did not see fit to acknowledge Gxd, Gxd gave them over to an unfit mind and to do things that should not be done. They were filled with every kind of injustice, evil, covetousness, malice. Full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, craftiness, they are gossips, slanderers, Gxd-haters, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil, rebellious toward parents, foolish, faithless, heartless, ruthless. They know Gxd’s decree, that those who practice such things deserve to die, yet they not only do them but even applaud others who practice them. > > Romans 1:18–25,28–32 (NRSVUE) With Galatians: > Live by the Spirit, I say, and do not gratify the desires of the flesh. For what the flesh desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to prevent you from doing what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not subject to the law. Now the works of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity, debauchery, idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, anger, quarrels, dissensions, factions, envy, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these. I am warning you, as I warned you before: those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of Gxd. > > By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things. And those who belong to Christ have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, competing against one another, envying one another. > > Galatians 5:16–26 (NRSVUE) Do you see the game? This seems like a contradiction—not in the gotcha bullshit sense, but in that Paul deploys superficially simple binaries (nature–sin and flesh–spirit) which in isolation are self-explanatory but in conjunction conflict. How can the desires of the flesh be sinful when they are natural? Though Paul is translated here as referring to none other than the Holy Spirit, what about spirit in general is good when there are “so-called gods in heaven or on earth—as in fact there are many gods and many lords” (1 Cor. 8:5). How can these binary frameworks, these simple analytical tools in themselves, be reconciled into a cohesive analysis? What is Paul really getting at? It’s easy at this point to slip headfirst into gnostic thought. We need only to identify spirit with nature and flesh with sin. You don’t need to construct a new myth in which a hapless demiurge creates a material cosmos which (unbeknownst to him) is structurally alienated from the true spiritual reality. You can just say that, when sin enters the cosmos thanks to Adam, it not only impacts the children of Adam but all of creation. No matter how you go about the rationale, it behooves you to get out of this material mess so you can return to the spiritual, pre-material source of everything. Maybe Gxd will create the cosmos anew, and it won’t corrupt the second time. Or not. Pick and choose. What’s the alternative? We could deploy some awkward linguistricks about the nuances behind the Greek words for flesh (σάρξ) and spirit (πνεῦμα), that what the former means is not _stricto sensu_ natural but excessive, or that what the latter means is not _stricto sensu_ immaterial but a partial object in the composition of the body (not necessarily lacking the concept of something like modern mind–body dualism, but consisting of a more complex system whose components are at once multiple and partial). Do you feel enlightened yet? Knowing those facts helps complicate the popular interpretation, providing good context, but in themselves they don’t bring us any closer to actual understanding. It also does not help us to suppose that Paul is deploying these concepts rhetorically. Then we’re fucked. What would be the point? What’s the reason behind any of this? I just read a book by my woke Mormon king Dan McClellan, _YHWH’s Divine Images: A Cognitive Approach_ (2022), in which he proposes an outline of the cognitive development of the concept of deity (he argues, from an identification of unseen natural agents with ancestors) and their relationship to physical media which are thought to be at once (this is a recurring quote) “identified with and distinguished from” the particular deity they are said to represent and thus embody. This has interesting implications with regard to, e.g., the divinity of Christ as the bearer of the divine name, or human beings as likenesses of Gxd’s image; but this notion can be reflected back onto Paul’s critique of idolatry, and thus contextualize how he understands sin to function. I was going to frame this around Žižek’s Lacanian reversal of Deleuze and Guattari, referring to organs without bodies as opposed to bodies without organs, or wielding Lacan as Mr. Secularized Catholicism to conceptualize the subject as an experience emergent of many partial objects and drives, but we need only look at Paul’s analogy of the body as a vessel or temple: > According to the grace of Gxd given to me, like a wise master builder I laid a foundation, and someone else is building on it. Let each builder choose with care how to build on it. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one that has been laid; that foundation is Jesus Christ. Now if anyone builds on the foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw—the work of each builder will become visible, for the day will disclose it, because it will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test what sort of work each has done. If the work that someone has built on the foundation survives, the builder will receive a wage. If the work is burned up, the builder will suffer loss; the builder will be saved, but only as through fire. > > Do you not know that you are Gxd’s temple and that Gxd’s Spirit dwells in you? If anyone destroys Gxd’s temple, Gxd will destroy that person. For Gxd’s temple is holy, and you are that temple. > > 1 Corinthians 3:10–7 (NRSVUE) > “All things are permitted for me,” but not all things are beneficial. “All things are permitted for me,” but I will not be dominated by anything. “Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food,” and Gxd will destroy both one and the other. The body is meant not for sexual immorality but for the Lord and the Lord for the body. And Gxd raised the Lord and will also raise us by his power. Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Should I therefore take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that whoever is united to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For it is said, “The two shall be one flesh.” But anyone united to the Lord becomes one spirit with him. Shun sexual immorality! Every sin that a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against the body itself. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from Gxd, and that you are not your own? For you were bought with a price; therefore glorify Gxd in your body. > > 1 Corinthians 6:12–20 (NRSVUE) > Therefore, since it is by Gxd’s mercy that we are engaged in this ministry, we do not lose heart. We have renounced the shameful, underhanded ways; we refuse to practice cunning or to falsify Gxd’s word, but by the open statement of the truth we commend ourselves to the conscience of everyone in the sight of Gxd. And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing clearly the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of Gxd. For we do not proclaim ourselves; we proclaim Jesus Christ as Lord and ourselves as your slaves for Jesus’s sake. For it is the Gxd who said, “Light will shine out of darkness,” who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of Gxd in the face of Christ. > > But we have this treasure in clay jars, so that it may be made clear that this extraordinary power belongs to Gxd and does not come from us. We are afflicted in every way but not crushed, perplexed but not driven to despair, persecuted but not forsaken, struck down but not destroyed, always carrying around in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be made visible in our bodies. For we who are living are always being handed over to death for Jesus’s sake, so that the life of Jesus may also be made visible in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us but life in you. > > 2 Corinthians 4:1–12 > So it depends not on human will or exertion but on Gxd who shows mercy. For the scripture says to Pharaoh, “I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I may show my power in you and that my name may be proclaimed in all the earth.” So then he has mercy on whomever he chooses, and he hardens the heart of whomever he chooses. > > You will say to me then, “Why then does he still find fault? For who can resist his will?” But who indeed are you, a human, to argue with Gxd? Will what is molded say to the one who molds it, “Why have you made me like this?” Has the potter no right over the clay, to make out of the same lump one object for special use and another for ordinary use? What if Gxd, desiring to show his wrath and to make known his power, has endured with much patience the objects of wrath that are made for destruction, and what if he has done so in order to make known the riches of his glory for the objects of mercy, which he has prepared beforehand for glory—including us whom he has called, not from the Jews only but also from the gentiles? > > Romans 9:16–24 (NRSVUE) Do these passages even need to be interpreted? Not really! Creation is a temple of Gxd, and so is the body of the believer, and this is characterized as embodying the Holy Spirit of Gxd as a vessel. Paul describes this believing body poetically as a treasure in a clay jar, evoking both Genesis 2 with the creation of Adam and Isaiah 45 where Cyrus, despite not knowing Gxd [!], becomes His anointed vessel to execute His will (does this not position Cyrus as an exception to the tendency Paul criticizes in Romans 1:18–21, being someone who despite Gxd’s invisibility _qua_ Gxd ends up acting in accordance with Gxd through his righteous stewardship over creation?). The cohabitation of the body with Gxd’s spirit and one’s own is a uniquely human condition owing to their likeness to Gxd’s image, through which humanity via idolatry augments the material creation with a virtual semiotic reality, investing mere creation with divine agency by projecting upon it their own social relations through their pseudo-creative imagination. The defining conflict is thus not between flesh and spirit as such, but between actual and virtual, or between natural and social. The stereotypical gnostic reading, that the vessel concept really represents some material prison which entraps our pre-material soul, does not seem to reflect the ethos behind the analysis of nature and sin Paul submits. Each individual human vessel, or even the totality of creation as one grand vessel, was created by Gxd to embody _Pneuma_ and express _Logos_ rather than having been created or corrupted by some antagonist to serve as an obstacle to those ends. The real antagonist is the fetish form, the _theos tou aiōnos_ (maybe _Zeitgeist_ or _Weltgeist_), the idolatrous virtual cosmos through which humanity transforms the living creation (of which it is part) according to its own image. ## Anatomy of Gxd > Now concerning food sacrificed to idols: we know that “all of us possess knowledge.” Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. Anyone who claims to know something does not yet have the necessary knowledge, but anyone who loves Gxd is known by him. > > Hence, as to the eating of food offered to idols, we know that “no idol in the world really exists” and that “there is no Gxd but one.” Indeed, even though there may be so-called gods in heaven or on earth—as in fact there are many gods and many lords—yet for us there is one Gxd, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and through whom we exist. > > 1 Corinthians 8:4–6 (NRSVUE) I was originally going to cite 1 Cor. 8 at length for the next section, but I realized verse 6 in particular expresses a counterpoint against the Trinitarian theology, submitted by Larry Hurtado in _One God, One Lord_ (1988) and developed by McClellan in his aforementioned book through his own framework of image theology. The gist is that Jesus Christ or the _Logos_ is not ontologically Gxd, whatever Gxd is—have you noticed my new convention?—but wields divine agency, i.e. the ability to speak and act on behalf of Gxd, or even to be identified with Gxd, by virtue of bearing Gxd’s _Name_. This is contrary to the Trinity which developed some centuries after the composition of the New Testament using neoplatonic philosophy to conceptualize the Father, the Son (_Logos_), and the Holy Spirit (_Pneuma_) as a single essence (_ousia_) shared by multiple persons (_hypostases_). This sort-of got vulgarized over time as Euro-Christianity (for lack of a better word) become detached from its earlier Hellenistic philosophical context, into a bare-bones concept that the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are each Gxd, but none are any of the other. See also below, which segues nicely from the previous section in the second paragraph: > The Son is the image of the invisible Gxd, the firstborn over all creation. For in him [!] all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him [!]. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together [!]. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For Gxd was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross. > > Once you were alienated from Gxd and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation—if you continue in your faith, established and firm, and do not move from the hope held out in the gospel. This is the gospel that you heard and that has been proclaimed to every creature under heaven, and of which I, Paul, have become a servant. > > Colossians 1:15–23 (NRSVUE) Maybe I’m unsophisticated, but I dislike ontology. Every time I stumble upon ontological discourse it reminds me of Plato’s much-maligned-by-myself thought-heaven, in that they always talk like they’re describing things and their relationships, but always end up really talking about how we conceptualize things. I was pleasantly surprised to learn Heidegger, for his part, relativized his ontological framework such that his analysis is framed around how things exist for _Dasein_ , and this explains why Lacan could later easily appropriate his analysis by giving it a linguistic turn (since what we are really dealing with are signifiers)—though I could easily be mistaken. In any case, that’s why I’ve come to dislike the Trinity as a conceptual framework. It attributes to an ontological essence what the New Testament authors by-and-large seem to attribute to a name (or _The Name_ in particular) because the later readers could only conceptualize divinity (especially one shared) in terms of essence, resulting in the ontological identification of the _Logos_ and _Pneuma_ with the deity Gxd with whose divinity (signified by _The Name_) they shared and identified. I submit that essence is less significant than embodiment, that what we call ‘monotheism’ is a divestment of divinity from unseen agents called deities to cosmic physical principles which emanate from the source of creation and whose invisible dynamics can be grasped through reason if one is not blinded by idolatry. In other words, for there to be one Gxd—bearing in mind the ontological difference between the transcendent Gxd as opposed to the typical personal deity—is the same as if there were no god. To argue about if the _Logos_ or the _Pneuma_ can be ontologically identified with Gxd _qua_ creator, source, or even deity is besides the point of how those terms express or embody divinity as such. Essence and personhood are red herrings, concept-signifiers in ontological drag, idolatry by definition. _The Logos_ , none other than the _Name_ itself, takes center stage over the _Name_ ’s signified—after all, as Gxd’s image, it is the only way we can grasp Gxd. Isn’t it telling that we’re first introduced to the _Name_ when we enter Adam’s semiotic cosmos in Genesis 2, although it is via speech that Gxd creates the material cosmos in Genesis 1? The _Logos_ and _Pneuma_ may best be understood as neither (necessarily) preexistent nor created, but as emergent relational properties between Gxd and creation, or nothing and being. “ _’Ehye ’ăšer ’ehye._ ” What better translation is there of the _Name_ than _Becoming_? It’s one thing for Jesus to have apparently borne the _Name_ and embodied the _Pneuma_ , these seeming to correlate with each other as per McClellan’s image theology framework (an image embodies a deity in as much as it signifies it, and _vice versa_ , but it is a symbolic identity of divinity rather than an ontological identity of deity). But what distinguishes Jesus from a human being who also embodies the _Pneuma_ , functionally as a temple does? My impression is that for Paul, as well as in Johannine literature, it is only through Jesus as bearer of the _Name_ that we can embody the _Pneuma_ and thus access Gxd (‘the Father’) in a mediated fashion—which (again!) we already know because that’s what the _Logos_ is, conceptually speaking. Is it a disservice to flatten the _Logos_ and Jesus himself (according to Paul and John) with the _Name_? To reiterate, I don’t think this calls for discrete ontology. Jesus minus the _Name_ is just a guy. Metatron minus the _Name_ is just an angel. The Ark of the Covenant minus the _Name_ is just a box. Regardless, it is through the _Name_ that we in turn can embody _Pneuma_ , like a pipe through which fluid flows down from source to sink. Can the _Logos_ be identified with matter itself? If Paul were espousing an earlier, simplified variation on Kabbalah, it wouldn’t be surprising. He’s certainly at least a Merkabah mystic. There’s probably something going on. In any case, you don’t need essentialize the _Logos_ or _Pneuma_ as Gxd by reference to _ousia_ and _hypostases_ to conceptualize their shared divinity. This is not just semantic nitpicking about whether Gxd ‘the Father’, the _Logos_ , and the _Pneuma_ share an ontological essence, but that it should be referred to as divinity rather than deity (which was certainly reserved by Paul and others to refer to ‘the Father’). We could instead conceptualize deity, divinity, and creation as structural dimensions of a fluid-mechanical system. Thus any apparent divisions in divinity are virtual from the vantage of creation (in humanity) observing itself, forming concepts through which it alienates itself from its hidden material composition. Otherwise, as we might put it in our modern context, it’s quantum wave–particle bullshit all the way down. This is not a controversial view in the context of other traditions which may also be considered monotheistic or even Abrahamic, as if a sufficiently self-conscious religion eventually trips and falls into panentheist or pantheist notions: the Jewish _ēn sōf_ , the Islamic _wahdat al-wujūd_ , the Hindu _Brahman_ , or just the general premise of Buddhism. Paul’s very particular truth-claim is that the historical person of Jesus had incarnated the divine image (which Paul defines rather broadly above: all things were created in, through, and for this divine image with whom Jesus is identified; what exactly is _not_ Gxd’s image? or what does it mean to exist _inside_ Gxd’s image?). That’s the stumbling block. ## Law & Love Back to food sacrificed to idols. > It is not everyone, however, who has this knowledge. Since some have become so accustomed to idols until now, they still think of the food they eat as food offered to an idol, and their conscience, being weak, is defiled. “Food will not bring us close to Gxd.” We are no worse off if we do not eat and no better off if we do. But take care that this liberty of yours does not somehow become a stumbling block to the weak. For if others see you, who possess knowledge, eating in the temple of an idol, might they not, since their conscience is weak, be encouraged to the point of eating food sacrificed to idols? So by your knowledge the weak brother or sister for whom Christ died is destroyed. But when you thus sin against brothers and sisters and wound their conscience when it is weak, you sin against Christ. Therefore, if food is a cause of their falling, I will never again eat meat, so that I may not cause one of them to fall. > > 1 Corinthians 8:7–13 (NRSVUE) Like I said, this one of my favorite passages because it’s surprisingly morally relativistic in that Paul asks the mature believer to spare the confused feelings of less mature believers to avoid offending their developing conscience (or perhaps critical thinking facility). I had joked with my partner along these lines: is it gay (for a heterosexual male) to fuck a (male-to-female) trans(-sex individual)? We can turn the spice up, since the physiological reality of medical transition is perhaps too reassuring, as is perhaps the woman’s self-concept—both of those reasons being ones I have seen to objectively declare the relations non-gay. How about, let’s say, Katya Zamolodchikova when she’s too lazy to get out of drag as her body hits the sheets? Or a self-hating fascist femboy? It’s not gay to just be attracted to feminine expression, is the third formula I see, but therein lies the problem. There’s plenty of heterosexual men who don’t have weird complexes about their sexuality as it relates to trans-females or even potentially feminine cross-dressers. But the ‘objective’ presence of feminine signifiers is also what enables down-low trade to indulge in their homosexuality at what they perceive to be a symbolic distance. Yet, doing so ‘offends’ their conscience, because they fully understand that they are playing games, so then they take it out on the unwitting ‘objects’ of their fetishistic (in both senses) attraction, often violently. This leads to a vastly more destructive and unethical situation—for themselves and everyone else—than if they didn’t try to work around ‘legal’ obligations they thought binding. Maybe that anecdote’s a bit of a stretch, but (at least) I think it well illustrates the sort of tizzy in which we find ourselves when subjecting our life to the law. The New Perspective on Paul tends to interpret Paul’s reference to “the law” as being to the Torah specifically, and that seems to be the historical context in which he’s criticizing the centrality of works of “the law” to believers’ self-conception of their faith—the big question being, do gentiles need to maintain Mosaic laws (especially of purity) to maintain or demonstrate their faith, and to commune with Jewish members of the movement? I want to stake a few claims. First, that though contextually Paul refers to the Torah, what he says applies to any formal or ritualistic lifestyle supposed to embody goodness (a capital-L, no article, Law). Second, when Paul refers to works, and to their non-efficacy on salvation, he is referring to works of Law, i.e. conscious efforts to live according to formal ‘rules’. As such, and third, there is no conflict between what Paul says of works of Law and what James says about works as essential to justify faith, the latter of which we might call works of Love. Jame’s epistles was actually one of, if not alone, my favorite books canonized in the Bible. The author is concerned most of all with hypocrisy within the assembly and the reduction of religion to statement of belief, especially as pertains to a degeneration of praxis toward materially supporting the poor and oppressed. I’m going to quote at length up to the part in question, for no reason other than I think it’s poignant. The author—if he is not James—certainly carries on the legacy of James, who carried on Jesus’ own, in deinstitutionalizing Jewish _politeia_ and deploying it as a framework to organize against oppression. Note the author’s terminology, “the perfect law”, “the law of liberty”, “the royal law”, in referring to Jesus commandment to love your neighbor as yourself. > But be doers of the word and not merely hearers who deceive themselves. For if any are hearers of the word and not doers, they are like those who look at themselves in a mirror; for they look at themselves and, on going away, immediately forget what they were like. But those who look into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and persevere, being not hearers who forget but doers who act—they will be blessed in their doing. > > If any think they are religious and do not bridle their tongues but deceive their hearts, their religion is worthless. Religion that is pure and undefiled before Gxd the Father is this: to care for orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world. > > My brothers and sisters, do not claim the faith of our Lord Jesus Christ of glory while showing partiality. For if a person with gold rings and in fine clothes comes into your assembly, and if a poor person in dirty clothes also comes in, and if you take notice of the one wearing the fine clothes and say, “Have a seat here in a good place, please,” while to the one who is poor you say, “Stand there,” or, “Sit by my footstool,” have you not made distinctions among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts? Listen, my beloved brothers and sisters. Has not Gxd chosen the poor in the world to be rich in faith and to be heirs of the kingdom that he has promised to those who love him? But you have dishonored the poor person. Is it not the rich who oppress you? Is it not they who drag you into the courts? Is it not they who blaspheme the excellent name that was invoked over you? > > If you really fulfill the royal law according to the scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you do well. But if you show partiality, you commit sin and are convicted by the law as transgressors. For whoever keeps the whole law but fails in one point has become accountable for all of it. For the one who said, “You shall not commit adultery,” also said, “You shall not murder.” Now if you do not commit adultery but you murder, you have become a transgressor of the law. So speak and so act as those who are to be judged by the law of liberty. For judgment will be without mercy to anyone who has shown no mercy; mercy triumphs over judgment. > > James 1:22–2:13 (NRSVUE) I’ve seen a subsection of the last paragraph to argue that the author advocates for total adherence to the Torah. Of course he would, some say, since James is not just a Christian but a Torah-observant Jew (keeping in mind that ‘Christianity’ begins as a sect of Second Temple Judaism which only de-judaizes when gentiles institutionalize it as a new religion, arguably as an orientalized neoplatonism). But I read it differently as: to be partial towards different members of the assembly, especially on a classist basis, is the same as if you do not cheat on your spouse but do murder people. The latter situation would constitute a transgression of the Mosaic law and, by analogy, the former would constitute a breaking of the “perfect law”. > What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but does not have works? Surely that faith cannot save, can it? If a brother or sister is naked and lacks daily food and one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and eat your fill,” and yet you do not supply their bodily needs, what is the good of that? So faith by itself, if it has no works, is dead. > > But someone will say, “You have faith, and I have works.” Show me your faith apart from works, and I by my works will show you faith. You believe that Gxd is one; you do well. Even the demons believe—and shudder. Do you want to be shown, you senseless person, that faith apart from works is worthless? Was not our ancestor Abraham justified by works when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? You see that faith was active along with his works, and by works faith was brought to completion. Thus the scripture was fulfilled that says, “Abraham believed Gxd, and it was reckoned to him as righteousness,” and he was called the friend of Gxd. You see that a person is justified by works and not by faith alone. Likewise, was not Rahab the prostitute also justified by works when she welcomed the messengers and sent them out by another road? For just as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is also dead. > > James 2:14–26 (NRSVUE) Incredible passage by (most probably) pseudo-James! We all know so-called ‘Christians’ who need to hear this today (not like they’d act on it). The millennial holy work, _The Office_ , puts it wisely: “You can’t just say the word ‘bankruptcy’ and expect anything to happen.” What good is a belief system to posture? It’s no good except to feel like you’re absolving yourself and perhaps look good in front of others (those who won’t see right through it). My friend, a software engineer, encounters many annoying transbians in his line of work. “You say you’re a lesbian?” he asks. “Prove it!” I’ve also said recently that nothing is more frustrating than someone who bases their discourse on posturing or seeking authenticity. We all have the same complaint, when you get to the down-and-dirty of it. What people sometimes notice is that what James seems almost like a point-by-point counterargument against Paul’s use of Abraham in his epistle to the Romans (are you familiar with what we in the business call the Romans Road?). Let’s also meet Paul where he’s at: answering the Romans’ questions about whether they should circumcised, saying outward circumcision is a signifier of faith one already practices, and those who are circumcised “inwardly” will not be discriminated against those circumcised “outwardly”: > Circumcision indeed is of value if you obey the law, but if you are a transgressor of the law your circumcision has become uncircumcision. So, if the uncircumcised keep the requirements of the law, will not their uncircumcision be regarded as circumcision? Then the physically uncircumcised person who keeps the law will judge you who, though having the written code and circumcision, are a transgressor of the law. For a person is not a Jew who is one outwardly, nor is circumcision something external and physical. Rather, a person is a Jew who is one inwardly, and circumcision is a matter of the heart, by the Spirit, not the written code. Such a person receives praise not from humans but from Gxd. > > Then what advantage has the Jew? Or what is the value of circumcision? Much, in every way. For in the first place, the Jews were entrusted with the oracles of Gxd. What if some were unfaithful? Will their faithlessness nullify the faithfulness of Gxd? By no means! Although every human is a liar, let Gxd be proved true, as it is written, > >> So that you may be justified in your words > and you will prevail when you go to trial. > > But if our injustice serves to confirm the justice of Gxd, what should we say? That Gxd is unjust to inflict wrath on us? (I speak in a human way.) By no means! For then how could Gxd judge the world? But if through my falsehood Gxd’s truthfulness abounds to his glory, why am I still being judged as a sinner? And why not say (as some people slander us by saying that we say), “Let us do evil so that good may come”? Their judgment is deserved! > > What then? Are we any better off? No, not at all, for we have already charged that all, both Jews and Greeks, are under the power of sin. > > Romans 2:25–3:9 (NRSVUE) You’ll notice that despite dealing with opposite behaviors—‘James’ dealing with believers for whom a simple statement of faith suffices, and Paul dealing with believers performing an outward act of faith in order to validate it before others—both authors have the same complaint about one underlying rationale. Performance! Hypocrisy! Authenticity-seeking! Let’s skip ahead; we don’t need to cover Paul remixing seven different Psalms with Isaiah and Ecclesiastes, though one must appreciate his audacity. > But now, apart from the law, the righteousness of Gxd has been disclosed and is attested by the Law and the Prophets, the righteousness of Gxd through the faith of Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction, since all have sinned and fall short of the glory of Gxd; they are now justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom Gxd put forward as a sacrifice of atonement by his blood, effective through faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over the sins previously committed; it was to demonstrate at the present time his own righteousness, so that he is righteous and he justifies the one who has the faith of Jesus. > > Then what becomes of boasting? It is excluded. Through what kind of law? That of works? No, rather through the law of faith. For we hold that a person is justified by faith apart from works prescribed by the law. Or is Gxd the Gxd of Jews only? Is he not the Gxd of gentiles also? Yes, of gentiles also, since Gxd is one, and he will justify the circumcised on the ground of faith and the uncircumcised through that same faith. Do we then overthrow the law through this faith? By no means! On the contrary, we uphold the law. > > Romans 3:21–31 (NRSVUE) Again, the emphasis on rebuking boasters! The second paragraph is key: one is justified by faith, not by outward signifiers of faith as expressed in Law (or the Torah in particular). I won’t be a broken record. Let’s now see that passage from Paul which James apparently rebuked above in his discourse about Abraham being justified not by works alone but by faith made manifest by works (giving the specific example of offering Isaac as a sacrifice as demanded by Gxd). > What then are we to say was gained by Abraham, our ancestor according to the flesh? For if Abraham was justified by works, he has something to boast about, but not before Gxd. For what does the scripture say? “Abraham believed Gxd, and it was reckoned to him as righteousness.” Now to one who works, wages are not reckoned as a gift but as something due. But to one who does not work but trusts him who justifies the ungodly, such faith is reckoned as righteousness. So also David pronounces a blessing on those to whom Gxd reckons righteousness apart from works: > >> Blessed are those whose iniquities are forgiven > and whose sins are covered; > blessed is the one against whom the Lord will not reckon sin. > > Is this blessing, then, pronounced only on the circumcised or also on the uncircumcised? We say, “Faith was reckoned to Abraham as righteousness.” How then was it reckoned to him? Was it before or after he had been circumcised? It was not after but before he was circumcised. He received the sign of circumcision as a seal of the righteousness that he had by faith while he was still uncircumcised. The purpose was to make him the ancestor of all who believe without being circumcised and who thus have righteousness reckoned to them, and likewise the ancestor of the circumcised who are not only circumcised but follow the example of the faith that our ancestor Abraham had before he was circumcised. > > Romans 4:1–12 (NRSVUE) Let me tell you what I imagine. There are some dumbasses in Rome, saying that gentiles aren’t going to be saved unless they get circumcised, or perhaps wielding circumcision as a cudgel of significance while being a shitty person (this may be implied when Paul says, rebuking an apparently hypothetical person, that you can’t do bad shit and act like you’re covered by grace). Then there are some dumbasses somewhere else—the author of James addresses diaspora Jews in the capital-C Church, perhaps under a hellenizing influence—who quote Paul selectively, especially the first paragraph of Romans 4, to claim that they don’t need to be accountable to anything except their declaration of faith, and use that to shield against criticism of doing bad shit or nothing at all. When you read them together, you get a really cohesive and consistent theory of religious praxis. No outward signifiers, whether in the form of rituals or declarations. Have faith and live according to it, which to Paul means “to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to Gxd, which is your reasonable act of worship” (Rom. 12:1). What does that look like? On one hand, similar to what he prescribes in 1 Corinthians, church members should contribute and participate according to their abilities: prophecy, service, teaching, encouragement, giving charity, leading, showing mercy (is that a job, Paul?). But in general, Paul suggests the following, clearly paraphrasing the teachings of Jesus: > Let love be genuine; hate what is evil; hold fast to what is good; love one another with mutual affection; outdo one another in showing honor. Do not lag in zeal; be ardent in spirit; serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope; be patient in affliction; persevere in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints; pursue hospitality to strangers. > > Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice; weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another; do not be arrogant, but associate with the lowly; do not claim to be wiser than you are. Do not repay anyone evil for evil, but take thought for what is noble in the sight of all. If it is possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of Gxd, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay, says the Lord.” Instead, “if your enemies are hungry, feed them; if they are thirsty, give them something to drink, for by doing this you will heap burning coals on their heads.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. > > Romans 12:9–21 (NRSVUE) And finally (skipping the infamous bit about submission to authorities), echoing Jesus and pseudo-James: > Owe no one anything, except to love one another, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law. The commandments, “You shall not commit adultery; you shall not murder; you shall not steal; you shall not covet,” and any other commandment, are summed up in this word, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” Love does no wrong to a neighbor; therefore, love is the fulfilling of the law. > > Romans 13:8–10 (NRSVUE) Maybe it’s the evangelicalism jumping out of me. I don’t mean this to be a conservative reaction against textual or historical criticism about degrees of conflict within the early, perhaps pre-Christian Jesus movement. I just see a very consistent ethos between Paul and James and Jesus. The _Name_ our Gxd is one. Love your neighbor as yourself. Boasting about faith or works probably means you lack both. Following a Law won’t keep you from hurting others, and it won’t help you do good to them. The perfect commandment (in the senses of being both flawless and final) is to practice Love for its own sake, for goodness, which surpasses and fulfills whatever Law exists (perhaps analogous to how monotheism functions as atheism by divesting agency from human superstitions). Law, however, is an approximation of the perfect commandment by means of an exhaustive enumeration of various (not to mention historically contingent) practices, which gives names to one sin or another, and by its structure invites the practicioner to find ways to bypass it without yet transgressing it by the letter. Law is a simulacrum of Love. Law is insufficient, _stricto sensu_. One can argue about whether the “Law of Love” is inclusive of e.g. the Torah in its totality, and certainly the Gospels argue with each other about that, but that discourse is besides the point and it reeks of authenticity-seeking. I’d like to close with quotations from Sarah Ruden’s poignant translation of Mark’s Gospel, supposed to be the earliest, in which Jesus seems to agree with (and perhaps can serve as a mediator between) James and Paul. Ruden is an excellent translator and analyst. I’ve just read her books _Paul Among the People_ and _Perpetua_ , and her translations of not only those authors but also of Ovid and Petronius kept striking me in their candid realness. So, then I picked up her translation of the Gospels, and was again delighted (though I’m still making my way through it—right now, in the middle of my least favorite, Matthew). I’m not going to add diacretics since I’m typing this from looking at my physical copy. > And [Iesous] said to [the Farisaioi], "Esaias was right when he prophesied about you play-actors, as it’s been written: > >> The people honor me with their lips alone, > While their heart is far away from me. > Uselessly they “worship me”, > Teaching human injunctions as the teachings. > > “Throwing away god’s command, you hold to what human beings have handed down.” And he said to them, “That’s a fine way to break god’s command—in order to set up on firm ground what _you_ hand down. Mouses in fact said, ‘Honor your father and your mother,’ and ‘Whoever insults his father or mother is to meet his end and die,’ You say, on the other hand, that if someone tells his father or mother, ‘Whatever help might have come from me is _korban_ (meaning an offering),’ you no longer allow him to do anything for his father or mother! In this way, you cancel what god spoke by this handing down of yours that you’ve handed down—and you handle a whole lot else in different ways.” > > Then he called the crowd back again and said to them, “All of you listen to me, and understand. Nothing outside a person that makes its way _into_ him, however indiscriminately, can make him dirty; rather, the things making their way _out_ of a person make that person dirty.” > > Then when he came home, away from the crowd, his students asked him what this analogy meant. And he said to them, “You too—do you have so little understanding? Don’t you realize that nothing outside that makes its way into a person can dirty him? It’s because it doesn’t make his way into his heart but into his belly, and then makes its waydown the latrine—and that makes all kinds of food clean!” Then he said, "The thing that makes its way _out_ of a person, _that_ dirties a person. In fact, _out_ ward, _out_ of people’s hearts, bad calculations make their way, and whoring, thefts, murders, violations of marriage, rapacious greed, nasty vices, fast and loose living, the nasty stare of envy, backstabbing lies, shameless gall, moronic behavior. All of these things make their way from the _inside_ to the _outside_ and make a person dirty. > > Mark 7:6–23 (Sarah Ruden) Doesn’t that tie, surprisingly, the first and third sections of this well together? It’s what comes out of you, not what goes into you. I’m going to let the multiplicity marinate. > Then one of the scholars approached, having heard them arguing; seeing that Iesous had answered them well, he questioned him: “Which is the chief command among them all?” And Iesous answered: “The chief one is 'Listen, Israel: the lord our god is one lord, and you are to love the lord your god with the whole of your heart and the whole of your life, and the whole of your mind and the whole of your strength. The next most important commandment is this one: ‘You are to love the one next to you as you love yourself.’ There is no command greater than these two.” Then the scholar said to him, “That’s right, teacher. It’s true what you said: there is one, and no other, none except him, and to love him with the whole of the heart and the whole of the understanding and the whole of the strength, and to love the one next to you the way you love yourself—this is more than all the animals burnt to ashes as offerings, and all the other sacrifices.” Then, seein that [he] had answered intelligently, Iesous said to him, “You’re not far off from god’s kingdom.” And no one dared to question him any further. > > Mark 12:26–34 (Sarah Ruden) One last note: I think it's interesting that the physical world has virtual layers of abstraction as well, in that things on one layer interact with each other, even though those things and interactions are emergent aggregations of lower levels. That feels like a different phenomenon than how human beings and cultures project social realities onto nature and thus reshape it. Kohei Saito says something along similar lines as Deleuze and Guattari: humans are part of nature too, but we've created this self-expanding virtual enclave in capital and civilization which nature (including ourselves) can't metabolically sustain.
08.11.2025 01:44 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
General Update (Icon0clasm and more!) Back from wherever I was! First, I’d like to call attention and give thanks to those of you who have submitted projects to the Icon0clasm Ball (extended to end of the year for my sake!): * **Songs for Polymede (Oleander Garden):** I was fully gagged when I saw this project submitted. It’s freak shit in the most delightful way: a module whose setting is encoded through fictional myths in poetry and prose, combined with new rules for manufacture and trade, and a possible elaboration of _0E_ ’s combat rules. Transsexual body politics meets Capital-as-God meets neko goblins. This is a really fascinating setting which I’d love to explore someday, and the way in which it transforms (or, as Oleander puts it, tortures) _OD &D_ reflects the material culture of the original work, being in line with the form factor of the 1975 supplements. * **The Hidden Chains of Command (Anteater):** This is a really fascinating critique of _FMC_ as a facsimile of _Chainmail_ and _OD &D_. Specifically, the author argues that the pseudo-historical wargaming figures in _Chainmail_ which were excluded from _FMC_ ’s corresponding _Chain of Command_ are actually key to understanding the loose setting of _OD &D_ (itself reproduced in _FMC_). I was worried about seeing exegesis submitted to the jam, because most exegesis of _OD &D_ is interested in reproducing its logic and play culture, but this work is fantastic cultural critique of _OD &D_ as a setting as well as a critique of _FMC_ as a facsimile. “This booklet’s intention is to hold up a mirror to the Medusa that is [_OD &D_ or _FMC_], to show it what it doesn’t want to see about itself, hoping that this will allow referees and players to confront its setting in novel and rewarding ways” (p. 23). Very thoughtful! If it didn’t mean redoing page numbers, I’d highly reconsider my decision to exclude this content from _FMC_. * **Elfgame (Ancestral Peninsula):** This work is a well-produced, aesthetically pleasing retroclone whose goal is to be “as far as possible from its inspirations [in particular, _OD &D_] without compromising its retrocompatibility” (p. 5). To be honest, I think the OSR at large lacks aesthetic sensibilities, but the Brazilian scene in particular always consistently excels at producing materials which look welcoming and fun, while also being well-organized for play, aligning with (I’ve noticed) a tendency towards casual, fiction-forward play. That specific OSR vision is the only one that personally appeals to me despite its play-premises, and it fascinates me as an alternative strain. My own thing is almost done, and has already been wonderfully illustrated by Hodag, but I’ve been procrastinating on making a (nicer version of the) scenario map and—as I’ve put it to some of my friends—I’ve been high on proverbial opium lately due to the extenuating circumstances of our world-historical situation. Care for some late-night meditations from when I was driving for five hours? Some ledes buried in messy trains of thought? * Paul is interesting because his concerns are organizational, especially with regards to the interactions between particular cultures (in his world, Jewish or Hellenistic) and the universal _politeia_ (of God), and which concerns belong to one sphere or another. However, he does not take for granted an objective _politeia_ , but is rather interested in actively building communities organized around the singular _politeia_ he believes is correct and most just, against the one which was dominant in his time. * I think liberals tend to prefer the Gospels over Paul because, as second-generation texts, they are more concerned with individual moral guidance than what we might consider political, organizational, or cosmological issues (or at least what can be construed as such by emphasizing the “red letters” and eliding the world-historical dimensions of Jesus’ life and mission). * Liberal Jesus is perhaps nicer but even less useful than conservative Jesus. The idea that religion is an individual sphere of personal belief lacking social or historical force is in service of the liberal bourgeois society we call secular, despite being organized around its own social relations and embodied idolatrous fetishes. We can’t surrender clarity of purpose to the fascists. * The Gospels should be read as narratives which attempt to situate key teachings and events in the mission of Jesus, not even as conflicting histories (necessarily) of Jesus and his actual life. All four are useful as a constellation through which we get the gist of who Jesus was, what he taught, and why he died; but one must take an individual gospel with a grain of salt, because of their authors’ particular concerns and values. You’re better off writing a new gospel from scratch than trying to reconcile the four we canonically accept into one narrative. * Paul’s seems to self-posture as someone who is authoritative, but not necessarily dogmatic except in convictions he seems to consider core and outside of himself—probably coming from Jerusalem or perhaps revealed to him in his visions of Christ. Relatedly, I think that the conflict between Paul and James (et al.) is overstated and comes down to questions of implementing _politeia_ given cultural differences. What is actually just, as opposed to what is Jewish or Greek? Nature is a possible heuristic according to Paul. One more thing: I'm revising a concept I had for a Harvest Moon type-shit solo game or downtime procedure into a role-playing game where one player (the mayor, I guess) sends weekly digests to other players who submit their activities each month. I think this would be especially fun using physical letters and stationary, but I'm considering running something like this via mailing list. If you are interested, please let me know on Discord (assuming we're already friends there).
03.11.2025 17:41 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Transgenderism & Class Realness Try to guess context from this bit from a conversation I had with my friend Ènziramire: > when they figure out womb transplants we’ll be back to square 1 > > gonna be the first tbitch to be denied an abortion and they’ll be like why did you want it you stupid bitch He had shared with me a recent article called “Reject Transgender Liberalism” by Jules Gill-Peterson, author of _Histories of the Transgender Child_. We knew someone who was going to see her at a guest university lecture, so we read up on her out of curiosity and felt like that new article was in contrast to certain tendencies in the introduction to her aforementioned book. Earlier, she over-historicized cultural expressions of trans-female experience such as the _hijira_ so as to emphasize differences between those expressions and conceptualize them as categorically distinct: > Clearly there have been people in nearly every recorded human culture who have lived in the roles of women, or between specific understandings of manhood and womanhood, despite not having inherited that role at birth or through anatomy. However, to deduce that trans women as we know them today have “always existed” would be foolish for several reasons. First, there is no meaningful way to land on a definition of trans femininity that could apply to all places and times, much like there is no way to agree on a single definition of womanhood. It has largely been people from the global North who have romanticized non-Western, indigenous, and ancient societies into a self-serving and ethnocentric definition of trans femininity that mirrors their own. Is the above passage not chock-full of ideological humiliation rituals, not only towards the author’s own self-admitted privileged demographic, but towards non-white trans-females who live in the global South, apparently too ethnic to be trans according to our modern, western frameworks? Such is _le wokisme_. I could deploy Talia Bhatt’s standout article, “The Third Sex”, against Gill-Peterson’s noble savage position: that even if experiences are mediated through culturally relative expressions of gender/sex, there is some underlying continuity in trans-sex subjectivity as well as shared experiences of violent repression due to the patriarchal relations underpinning our societies regardless of whiteness, northness, and modernness. However, I don’t need to cite Bhatt; I can cite Gill-Peterson’s new article which pits proletarian transsexuality against bourgeois transgenderism: > Transgender partisans […] elevated a deliberate incongruence between physical sex and gendered personality as more sophisticated than transitioning from one sex to another and living unmolested for it. Over time, the position has stretched into several of the core transgender claims that conservative justices took advantage of in _Skrmetti_ :1 that one need not experience dysphoria or even try to change sex to be transgender; that transgender identity involves endless and shifting personal identification, making it impossible to define; or that everyone might be, in fact, a bit transgender because anyone can adopt an androgynous style or challenge stereotypes about women and men. > > The paragon of transgender liberalism is the rejection of transition as what distinguishes transgender people from the rest of the population. Instead of political liberation taking the form of redistributing the means of transitioning sex, liberation would now be _from_ gender as such—a proposition so abstract that it appeals to people who don’t transition, are afraid to, or who try to cope with how difficult it is by recasting their suffering as noble. The blame thus heaped on the lawyers from the American Civil Liberties Union since _Skrmetti_ was handed down is superficial and wrongheaded. This historical process formed neoliberal gender politics long before the ACLU took its first transgender case. I agree with Gill-Peterson’s general sentiment. She has her finger on the pulse of a new, burgeoning awareness in trans circles of the failure of LGBT or queer politics to actualize medical care and legal protections for trans people, and of a developing perspective that trans people are more akin to intersex people—that they are essentially intersex on some neurological level w.r.t. other sexed bodily components like genitals, gonads, or genes—than being contrarian performers of socially expressed gender. But Gill-Peterson makes an awkward structural analogy “between middle-class transgender politics and working-class transsexual politics”. She attributes the difference between the trans narratives to be one emanating from class antagonism, ever since the 90s. Look at me going to bat for Feinberg. I agree that gender ideology is a liberal bourgeois expression of anti-patriarchal frustration (which one might call feminist, though I’d not). However, I had a realization a few months ago that we often mischaracterize Feinberg’s mission statement despite having decades of hindsight. The individuals whom Feinberg had known as transsexual were not the subjects of her transgenderism. No. It was drag queens and butch lesbians, gender non-conforming homosexuals and even heterosexuals whose contributions to the gay rights movement were quickly historically erased because they were not appealing to the ascension (or domestication) of the movement, which had become preoccupied with marriage _qua_ property relation (specifically of inheritance) and with open participation in bourgeois social relations. Feinberg was an honest proletarian and communist revolutionary. She was butch-butch. But she was a masculine-presenting female, in her own words, who proposed a tactical association between cross-dressers of various stripes and transsexuals on account of them being painted by patriarchal society as all being (for one reason or another) de-gender-ates. That tactic failed. Not only was it eventually also domesticated into the form that has since become culturally dominant even in reactionary discourse, but we cannot attribute the now-historical failure of gender ideology to capitalist roaders because it was from the very beginning, in its very DNA, a movement which sought authenticity in mere aesthetic (if even that) expressions of counterculture, and which attributed trans-sex subjectivity to a reification of inauthentic gendered norms from which they had to be liberated for their own authentic actualization. It is a hysterical discourse on the basis of the _ideal ego_ pitted against the _ego ideal_. Note a tendency continuous from Feinberg to Gill-Peterson (in both of her articles, despite their content-wise disagreement): authenticity-seeking. Everyone wants realness attributable to race, class, geography. Gill-Peterson thinks transgenderism is bourgeois because it’s alienated from the material experience of dysphoria, whereas I’m sure we’ve all seen others say so-called transmedicalism2 is bourgeois because it requires that trans people have the material means to transition. Stop it. We’re so close to articulating material demands and yet keep getting caught up in authenticity-seeking bullshit. We don’t need to dress up our hormones in miners’ clothes, and we don’t need to act like it’s woker to forgo them. The reactionary state is restricting access to hormones and procedures, and has ceased legally acknowledging trans people, because it hates trans people and doesn’t want anyone to change their sex. Do you want to change your sex without compromising your legal personhood and/or personal dignity? Good! Advocate to expand access to trans medical care (monetarily, geographically, etc.), and for the state to allow individuals to update their legal identity. You can’t seek realness because that fundamentally makes you less real, and it doesn’t matter anyway. As Ènziramire pointed out, just as patriarchy and capitalism reified homosexuality, and just as it reified transgenderism, so can it reify this supposed proletarian transsexuality. Hence the punchline. Incoming review of _Brat and It’s Completely Different but Also Still Brat_ (2024). * * * 1. Justice Barrett ruled in _United States v. Skrmetti_ that restricting access to hormone replacement and puberty blockers as treatments for dysphoria does not discriminate against trans people because having dysphoria is not definitive of being trans. ↩︎ 2. In the vulgar sense that undergoing medical transition (or just wanting to medically transition) is definitive of being trans, rather than in the original sense of wanting to restrict access to medical transition via strict diagnostics ↩︎
25.10.2025 20:53 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
The Friend's Boyfriend Scale I was at brunch with my two of my girl friends (this was on a weekday; we call it our Networking & Collaboration Lunch) and it had just been National Boyfriend Day. I was talking about how surprised I was that all my friends' boyfriends are good this year, like, actually good. Some of them traded up, others of them domesticated their existing guy, and others still (from my perspective) tripped and fell into a really nice relationship. Except for one—she knows who she is because I've read her and him to filth, but even though she doesn't read this blog I'll be kind and not elaborate. I'm not a ranker. Tier lists make me roll my eyes. But I wondered: I'm obviously judging these men I barely know and talk with, according to criteria which obviously exist but I don't process consciously. So I searched within myself to figure out why my opinion of one guy improved over the past year, or why I think one guy is a better boyfriend than another guy. This isn't about their appeal as boyfriends, to be clear: this is about their appeal as your friend's boyfriend, someone who mostly exists in the peripheral of your visible social cosmos. This is what I came up with. * **Useful Around House:** I was at a birthday party where, although I was good friends with the girl, I barely knew the rest of the group (because they were mostly from the boyfriend's friend group, with whom my friend had sort-of integrated). We had all gotten there before my friend and her boyfriend arrived because it was a surprise party, and I learned that the boyfriend had tasked this other girl in his group to decorate and prepare the apartment. I started helping her as soon as I arrived, and very quickly was annoyed at how _her_ lazy-ass boyfriend and some other guy were just sitting on the couch talking about AI and sports gambling and phone fighting games. Except for that my friend's boyfriend was grilling carne asana—which on one hand I don't want to discount the effort, but on the other hand I don't think a guy goes out of his way to grill—I would have withheld from every man in this situation 1 star. Compare with another birthday party. I didn't realize until after that the boyfriend had baked the cake because he does really nice patisserie as a hobby, but he didn't make the party about him. The whole time, as well, he was very attentive to his girlfriend's (my friend's) friends and checked if we needed anything. That whole thing netted him at least 3 stars, the other 2  of which you can surmise below. * **Attractive/Confident:** Oh no, I'm superficial and vain! This isn't about there being some objective measure to attractiveness, or about the boyfriend being attractive in my own eyes. This is about the guy putting effort into himself and carrying himself confidently. Two friends started dating about a year and a half ago. The guy was cute before, but then (with much help and encouragement from the girl) he started styling himself—his clothes, his hair, his glasses—and became CUTE in all capitals. The opposite end of the spectrum is a guy who's almost repulsive in his non-caring. Nothing wrong necessarily with a blue-collar white guy, but one time my partner's cousin brought her new boyfriend to dinner and he wasn't cute, he dressed like shit, and he thought men don't eat vegetables (we had literally just made stir-fry with onions, maybe broccoli). At some point the lack of effort is so embarrassing it reflects poorly on my friend or acquaintance. Like, you're attracted to him? And he smells like literal ass? * **Considerate of Others:** Sometimes I'm deployed as a boyfriend sniff test. One time, my friend invited me to get boba and watch a movie at her place. My Machiavellian tendencies are such that I don't just enjoy gossip, but being an active participant in social situations where I am an outsider, so of course I said yes. So we went to the boba place. I don't actually like boba that much, so I usually order an iced mocha or other latte type thing. Have you ever been asked if you want your mocha to be dark or white chocolate? I guess it's a real question; I just always thought dark was the default. Anyway. They're both socially awkward people, and my friend was sat in the chair next to the wall. When they called us up to get our drinks, the boyfriend didn't move, and my friend didn't either, so I got up and picked up all three of our drinks, and after I got to the counter my friend managed to slip out of her chair. Boyfriend stayed sat. Big red buzzer. He also picked the movie we watched which on one hand is sort-of fine, because my friend is too awkward and I was quiet because I wanted to see what those two would do, but he also picked some fucking action movie. Whatever. * **Has Creative Hobby:**  I feel like a lot of guys consume media in their free time. Or gamble. Maybe most people do, except anecdotally my partner and most of my female friends have various creative hobbies. So when a guy has a hobby through which he's able to express himself or practice a craft that he isn't trying to turn into a hustle, that's both really neat and demonstrates some thoughtful interiority on his part. Provided that he isn't some sort of freak. * **Can Hold Conversation:** This one is almost a bonus point because I don't really talk to the boyfriends unless all three of us had been mutual friends. But when the boyfriend can hold a conversation? Very pleasant surprise! I actually had a really nice conversation with one of the guys at my friend's birthday party who I thought was being a lazy-ass, but he turned out to be a total girl-dad for a very sweet looking puppy. It's interactions like those that re-frame first impressions and make me feel like I can give the benefit of the doubt; this was especially because I noticed in conversation he often apologized and shit, which made me realize he's someone who's worried about taking up space. People are nuanced. I guess. So, congratulations to everyone! Very good year.
23.10.2025 15:53 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0