Lottichu

Me: I miss chuchu.
People: He's in heaven.
Me: But heaven is very faraway.

I miss you everyday

I miss my pet.

If you're not going to help, I'm muting myself.

I don't want to do anything.

a great start to a day

IT'S LOTTICHU! just chatting & asobo~ feat. strawberry catto (🍓^•⩊•^)~ @lottichu.sgvtubers.com #SGVT #vtuber #vtuberEN

📅 Nov 2nd (Sat) ☆ 2024年11月2日 (土)
⏰ 10:30 EDT / 22:30 SGT

📺 stream link: twitch.tv/niconiconii

the nap didn't help 😒

an ace in my books!

Going to take a nap and shutdown my brain.

i keep telling myself it's a temporary state. I'll feel better with time and get through this but I keep sinking. It's increasingly getting harder to feel happy.

Really being a girl failure right now.

Sobbing away in an office

I'm so tired of trying to be better.

Playing valo tonight!

I've been spamming yokoyoko all day.

with mods!

Anyways enough yapping. Tonight I'm playing left 4 dead!! Super excited as I haven't touch that game in a long while.

The amount of times I've cried in my bed this year just cursing my own life and asking God why is too damn high. But I feel a bit lighter these days. I'm enjoying my time, the games and the things I do. And I think it's important to take note of these things.

But I think the me before, would be proud of the me I am today.

At the end of it all, I'm just a really lucky person I think.

The friends I've made before vtubing and their unwavering support through my stages of life. I am forever grateful to all of them. The friends I've made during vtubing and how interconnected my life is with them now, I'm super thankful to know them all.

I just find it a bit funny that to discover myself better, I had to put an identity in front of me.

The vtubing experience ironically showed I was not a cog in a machine. That maybe for once, there was something genuine I wanted to do and felt happy doing.

My entire life before vtubing was putting myself second. By enjoying my oshi streams I felt something new for once, to do something I deemed back then as a "selfish" decision due to the required investments on time, money.

My oshi has helped me on so many occasions, super grateful. I feel teary just reflecting.

All it took was watching one tiktok of a bird in the ER looking lovingly at the owner before the owner left the hospital and IM SHATTERED.

I think a part of my soul flew away with chuchu.

Super excited for a project. But gotta put in the effort !! 😚😚

another starter pack!!

pls lmk if i missed you ⬇️

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