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toy finds a toy

Me n.n

"I'm a hypnotist, I make logic my bitch".

Me feeling prideful for a change.

Hey lovelies, I don't think I ever explicitly announced that I've temporarily halted taking on new hypnocomms- I realised I was opening up slots further into the future to accommodate folks and I need to get caught up with what's already booked.

I'll post sometime in April when they're reopen <3

Awh heck critter, it's just I know that misery loves company and that venting onto social media doesn't make me feel any better, sometimes it makes me feel worse.

Talking about it with friends instead, and seeing people react to something nice I posted in place of the vent, often does help.

What if you just don't ever hear your unbind trigger again? Every now and again remembering your conditioning which reinforces the conditioning which makes it stronger and so more likely you'll remember it again later. A perpetual lack of silly adult words

I guess you still have your safeties... ;p

Thanks Grif, I think I need to hear this more often. It often 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 like it is even when it obviously isn't.

<3

Warms my fluffy soul to be identified in this way, thanks so so much for the kind words. I had such a great time hanging out with ya and I'm looking forward to when we get to do that again, share more of that joy with yourself <3

So long as ya don't mind me taking a hot minute to reply I definitely don't mind you replying right away <3

It's been on the front of the fridge for how long now? Holding up incredibly well in spite of the fact it exists in a kitchen my clumsy self operates in :p

I made that crayon drawing 🥰✨

It's been through some stuff x3;;

It was an absolute privilege to have been there, all the more for getting to have performed as much hypnosis on the folks that I did. You did really well for me and it was so much fun getting to reinforce your conditioning while your friends all watched <3

Thank you Garnet, it's good to know I'm durable and capable of being played in rougher ways. A week later and I'm still reeling in the best way. I want to do a writeup and share more photos, you helped me understand myself and this body more than I had done and that means a lot to me <3

Thanks critter, gosh. Not just for being there but all the photos and videos you got over the course of the scene. I need to decide what to share and it means so much I have the amount to choose from that I do.

👀

Gonna be implanted subdermally (under my skin) by a professional, I'm expecting to be able to feel everything but I don't think it'll hurt worse than a wasp sting

Glad for us both to be doing better <3

I wonder how much of it is repression, like being awful makes handling pushing everything down easier? God knows I had a lot to unpack about my identity.

If we're cancelling creatures based on how they used to be I'm in trouble cause I used to be a real big piece of opinionated shit.

Hate is learned & I'm probably gonna be trying to unlearn all the damaging shit put into my head for the rest of my life. I'm proud of my growth & hope it's recognised

That's probably how it's felt to interact with me lately to be honest x3

And you were such a wonderful little puppy for me <3

Same and I'm sorry it's hard. Hope it's less so soon <3

Tonight I gave a solid hypnosis session, my subject had a great time despite me feeling really off my game. Often I feel I need to cancel on clients when I'm this off. I'm proud I pushed through and I'm feeling like a good toy as a result

Love to see some self appreciation <3

When I get to that point I try to post something positive or supportive that I'd wanna hear instead of what I wanted to vent about. Feels like I'm taking the negative energy and redirecting it to something hopefully better.

Proud of you for still doing your best, critter <3

Lately I've been failing quite badly to keep in touch with, or respond to, people across social media and IMs.

If I haven't gotten back to you and it's been days- I'm really, really sorry. I won't give excuses, just please know it's not personal and that I'm trying to get back on track.

A shipping box revealing a box labelled 'dangerous things dot com'

You can and I am so, so hyped.

Mine's gonna light up and link you to my hypnotic triggers if you scan it >///>

A cute crayon drawing of me, it appears to be looking at a Princess license plate.

Same but only part time n.n

"I've got lots of friends all over ... scattered about like stars in the sky; Brilliant, bright and unique. All of them."

I love y'all. Hang in there <3

Starting to wonder if there's something fundamentally broken about me, with how I consistently find myself being so wholly enriched and inspired everywhere away from my desk, but once I've sat down, the prospect of actually drawing anything becomes a terrifying proposition.

Any advice is welcome. 💝

Honestly you should have your mind hypnotically twisted into a pretzel 'til the definition of sex is "getting dropped repeatedly, never rising always falling faster velocity never reaching a terminal state accelerating infinitely"

or swirly eyes that's ok if you like that sorta thing that's sex too