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Gris in a panel from my manga Go! Go! Gris! looking all amazed and sparkly
mfw when the
the urgency made scientists lose sight of the personal "realities" of normal people, if that makes any sense
it's also hard to visualize, because we HAVE done a lot of work, things have gotten a ton cleaner compared to a few decades ago, smog is not something newer generations have experienced
climate change is such a stupid framing, it's so abstract and it's not really something you can feel
the real question to ask people is, do you want blue skies? rain and snow that's not toxic? clean air that feels great to breathe?
not "it will get 0.4 degrees hotter"
Clean Energy Charging In your region, iPhone will try to selectively charge when lower carbon emission electricity is available.
When Your Homie Likes Hetslop #momojirou #todomomo #momoyaoyorozu #myheroacadamia #bokonoheroacademia
it's empty and desolate
i made a discord server against my better judgement. you can apply. i don't think i'll actually let anyone in but i'd like to scope out the vibes at least.
discord.gg/fEQGvsuZ
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this is me btw
yandere cecilia sketch ๐ #Immergination
japan is a soul-crushing society for most. but there is that basic level of respect. and it is not being a weeb that made me feel freer than i have anywhere before. that respect is a core part of freedom for me.
it's a place i felt like i fit in even though i stuck out like a sore thumb.
i don't want to glorify japan, but there is a lack of basic respect here, and that basic respect is something i've always naturally had.
not smoking around others, putting back shopping carts, sitting through credits even if there's nothing extra.
they're small, humbling things i've always done.
if you think my thread is about you it is. if you think it's not, it doubly is.
when i was outside yesterday, cars kept turning onto the crosswalk even though the light was red for them
if i was crushed by one of them? it would be an "accident"
a shame, but oh well. I'm just a simple statistic.
not that anyone is gonna notice anyway
i don't know what to do.
i want to believe, but i've exhausted my reasons for believing.
i want to blame myself, but i've exhausted all the excuses for that too.
so i'm in a weird-ass limbo, wondering.
wondering why we can't just work instead of bitch.
wondering why we can't just hold hands.
this world has a lot to offer and no one deserving of it.
and so they destroy it for their own comfort, at the expense of everything else.
all i can do is like tell people to watch little witch academia or something. that's the extent of my power. and no one listens anyway.
but people are only warm when it's convenient for them. and i'm just not a very convenient thing.
i think i might have to face the world alone. except you can't do that without money either. all you can do without money is starve to death.
usually i blame myself in situations like this. clearly i must have done something wrong. but i've run out of ways to blame myself at this point. i suppose that's good.
all i ever wanted is to make things. to share feelings with people. to feel warmth.
this is the torment nexus. and i am living in it. for all i know it is made to hurt me specifically, and i am like a boltzmann brain in here.
what is beyond this world? probably nothing. i'd like to hope that there is something though. hell is probably nicer. demons are probably less evil.
people talk about dysphoria a lot. well i have a dysphoria. it's a dysphoria with this fucking world and the people in it.
i fundamentally do not fit in this picture. i seriously feel like i'm in the wrong world. why am i somewhere so fucked up. what did i do in my past life to deserve this.
but will anyone reflect on their actions? ahahaha
imagine what society would be like if most people could do that. we'd be living in a utopia.
instead here we are in our boring, stressful, loud dystopia. just digging our holes and filling them up.
i got what i wished for. turns out it was a curse.
recently, even though i feel lonelier than ever, i also simultaneously miss being alone.
will anyone notice? no, no they won't, and even if they do they won't care. maybe they'll send some token message.
what the fuck did i want for so long yearning for relationships. i guess i wanted what i saw in the movies. couldn't separate reality and fiction i guess. love is just a word we throw around for convenience in reality i guess. i guess what i wanted doesn't exist.
and i really do mean all of you. i try my best to understand everyone, and i fully understand that everyone reading and not reading this is simply projecting their insecurities into others but holy shit i cannot put up with it any longer. friendship feels like politics in a one-party state.
