he has now passed on, may he rest in peace. burning a candle irl now so that his spirit knows that he is always welcome here, I even said that in the room just in case he could hear me
Shit... He is going to leave us in a bit instead of on Friday.
My heart is broken but I am glad he doesn't have to suffer anymore.
Rest In Peace
P.
Obviously not sharing his name out of respect.
Friday will be a really difficult day for me and bysco, his uncle will pass away then. He is one of the kindest souls I know and I am happy I got to meet and know him for about 10 years
So I absolutely love "stemacteren.nl" it's where I am doing my voice acting course love it so much that when bysco told me to go to it instead of his grandfather's cremation I happily went. But this week's family matter has made me reach out to reschedule today's final booster session.
Depending on how I feel those days I may need a talented camera person again :3
I was going to be part of this but due to family reasons I can no longer participate, that said will still cheer on everyone participating and will do my best to catch the stream!
Image of an event saying. Live on Twitch Sunday March 8th. Events, giveaways, celebrations. Plunder With Purpise for ActionAid. IWD26 #GiveToGain
This International Women's day on the Sea of Thieves and Twitch twitch.tv/pixxy_doll. We're hosting an event of fun games to raise money for an international Women's charity called ActionAid. We'll be hosting giveaways at certain milestones of money raised.
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A cloudscape being lit up by the moonlight
My amazing partner made this amazing photo of the night sky today and omg look at the clouds!
@cxve.dev
Honestly it isn't helping seeing the pedophile related things including the one in the white house to somehow non stop reach the news. The person that abused me never really got punished and now seeing this all just causes more harm
Ugh I hate trauma related nightmares. Feel so drained due to having them again foe the past few days :c
You know what just beacuse of the support of you and the publisher I have set my mind. When the game releases (granted I can afford it upon release) I will be doing my first stream back after a really long break!
Maybe once @wearesecretmode.com's everything is crab releases I could try to stream that for a bit to get back into it!
Photo of Scruffy's head looking directly into the camera, Scruffy is a puppy (15 weeks at the time of the photo being made) he is a mix between a mini Australian Shepherd and a corgi.
And uhm as a thank you for reading my late night post here is a Scruffy photo
Photo of Scruffy's head looking directly into the camera, Scruffy is a puppy (15 weeks at the time of the photo being made) he is a mix between a mini Australian Shepherd and a corgi.
And uhm as a thank you for reading my late night post here is a Scruffy photo
A lil pirate swimming ;)
Also genuinely don't even know what to even stream if I do other then those swimming streams.
That said if I do gather my courage to stream again I will bring back my @seaofthieves.com swimming the maiden voyage streams and will try to find everyone who showed interest in joining me.
But if I do those streams I need some new fun questions to ask people ;) so please give me some good ones ;)
Frequently I have been wanting to stream again. But anytime I am ready something in my brain panics and makes me not do it.
Part of the reason is that I will have to start over due to the extreme long break I had to take. The other part is fear of not enjoying a game off stream anymore if I stream.
@callme0wl.bsky.social
If it doesn't, something I have been using to have borderles gaming with any game is a program on steam called "borderles gaming"
Slept slightly better thanks to being able to throw this in the bluesky void. Still slept bad but I'll take any small victories
Worst bit is I never feel like I can really talk to anyone about it beacuse my brain doesn't allow me and also always thinks that there is people worse off then me
Nightmares caused by the sexual abuse I suffered as a child and the way law enforcement treated me when I finally dared to go to the police when I was in my early 20's so many invasive questions making me feel like I was at fault.
Alongside the guy that did the abuse only got a slap on the wrist.
Have been sleeping a lot worse the past week or so, partly due to pain in my chest due to my new hormones (good pain as it means growth) but the big reason I have been sleeping bad is recurring nightmares
Next post I'll explain why the nightmares
As the Swimmer of the Maiden voyage I would love to represent the hunters call, that is of course if you would have me :)
@cxve.dev clouds!
A photo of the mewgenics missing cat poster with a photo of me as a kid dressed as cat, the missing poster is taped to a lantern pole. The poster says "missing cat Name: Stacey Well technically stacy#2367 but I doubt that matters since she deaf due to the whole bull horn fiasco... But that's a whole other thing so. Color: *B1B1B1 100$ reward If you play your cards right. If found please visit Mewgenics.com"
Has anyone seen my cat "Stacy"
She has been missing since @edmundm.bsky.social's missing cat poster contest started. I think I miss her?
If found please contact mewgenics.com
Disclosure: this is an old photo of me in a cat suit. Also made sure for the photo the cars licence plate isn't visible.
On this week's Crewcast we discuss Don't Stop, Girlypop!, Perfect Tides: Station to Station, Tearscape, and more, then in the second half Danny talks with @edmundm.bsky.social & @tylerglaiel.com about their upcoming tactics game Mewgenics.
youtu.be/AAg12CxPwdw
