estelle 🌹

same tho. this is the way

forgot how fun FL Studio is

light pink hair is cool but PITA to maintain for dark natural hair!!

there was also a custom ruby(lang) based MML to MIDI thing that preceded it. thankfully she added MIDI file import so i can make direct use of my sketches from that lol

ruby writing a whole ass tracker/daw to make a hyper specific client workflow easier for me

coming out plural to old friends on IRC sdfkjldfg

i miss it too. similarly i don't remember much about it either. i do know that people i talked to regularly back then are not amongst ppl i do today though and i feel i have lost connection to that and i am missing that too

ugh it's febree already

RE: realtime stuff, we collectively have a good background on low level programming and it's not like we haven't already tried doing stuff in this space. also i need ur help when i work on a GBA sound driver later this year :P

impostor syndrome. i think u know more than you are letting on. i don't think you need to drop everything to learn DSP back to front. you can still learn as you need to

as the ol saying goes: healers will adjust

reinforcing isolation. i am preaching to choir here, everyone knows why this is. i am seeking out and acting on as much hope as i can restore hope but as u said its slow progress

ppl often don't have time to act on curiosity when every effort is exhausted towards just trying to survive, baseline exist, and take care of what they already have to.
lots of effort to undo any of this is thankless and invisible and just adds to it and also make it seem like ppl accept this world-

ultimately killed by, ironically, adopting the same tracker core you're using, and us being unable to solve performance problems and some of the harder more intricate UX things

iOS even back then had a very strong UX guideline to follow too. back before it became a mess of a platform and geared towards something else. MelodyMaker also struggled a lot in a similar way to your project. it was the same, ambitious and open ended,

you are selling yourself soooo short here. lots of those apps had far smaller scopes. i think they got accelerated bc we did mockups in Sketch (what was around before Figma) and heavily mapped out user interaction, something that's really hard to do with what you're currently working on

will also help with piano roll workflow, audio clip editing, and horizontal UI ideating. the thing that will make this Not Just A Tracker anymore.. the audio stuff is already p cool tho. its still a little too rooted in Tracker ways tho

i feel like i've forgotten how to write music... or well, idk, not really. that feels weird to say bc its not true.
but its more, i'm so out of practice. i've been spending a lot of time exclusively in ruby's DAW but i wanna mess around in logic just.. personal stuff, not client stuff. …

like Selene set up this detailed "mandatory quest objectives for going out of the house for the day" and i had learned recently that yeah ADHD ppl just have to do this level of prep and ceremony

WHEW the most important things we gotta do this week. i need to make like serious project on this soundtrack project

second need to take our sister to the city & arcade

the latter requires a lot of coordination.

what's interesting is i've had my old name longer than we've had the name maddie, i've been around forever lol

y'all, identify is fluid. you don't need to hold onto a name that was given to u or u don't resonate with. and if something better comes along tomorrow u don't need permission to change

re-logging in fixed it

i'm hoping it isn't age assurance bullshit actually

Change Handle screen on Bluesky settings requesting for "estelle.rosemade.art" showing "Failed to verify handle. Please try again." error.

i'm trying to update this, this has always worked instantly in the past even just second after adding the TXT record (we've done this dozens of times for all our other accounts!) but for some reason it isn't now.

WAH i changed my name. hi

wahh discovering ppl u think r real cool are actually plural too is awesome

if u like trails or if u like just good vgm in general i made this cool thing, w the tracker @ruby.rosemade.art has been working on

i think one reason why it's hard to start or continue conversations on here is we all engage with social media for very different reasons

yeah i was made aware of both Los Del Mar and Los Del Rio version as both were popular here! i recall some conversation as a child abt someone passionately explaining to me the which one was "the real one" lol. the Los Del Rio/Bayside Boys remix was the slightly more popular one here tho iirc