Valeria 🌹

The sooner we push back getting code out for ppl to see the more she is just going to make herself feel this way

We should be able to figure out a more iterable approach.. Like we can't promise perfect code but we can show we are thinking about our tech debt and have plans and strategies, goals to work towards. This is a future community project not a job interview nor a tech startup product feature.

Ruby is imagining a gigantic perfect refactor & I think we need to hold our expectations a bit & really figure out our goal. Need to share the code/make sure it doesn't destroy people's computers but shame/unreasonable self-criticism of her code quality is leading to necessitate radical changes…

Since I don't know what else to do really, might go and poke Maddie and see if she wants to cowrite more weird catgirl vampire visual novel

Identity crisis struggles being a factive -_- and not only that but factive become subsystem

The reality is not as clear cut like that and we have various mixes of asexual/aromantic/lesbian and some poly stuff here and then we also have subsystems. You'd need to ask each individual headmate.

The closest singlet-relatable concept might be "autosexual" but that label doesn't feel right for us, even if it is practically correct if you view us purely as a singlet.

No, there aren't really any labels for romantic or sexual attraction towards headmates and I think that is fine bc we are just ppl? In an ideal world at least we wouldn't have to say stuff like "we are [externally] asexual/aromantic" but we do.

How will our catgirl vampire smut survive in these trying times

Visa and Mastercard reportedly coming for FAIRIES and CAT EARS

Get on the phone and ask them wtf is up because this even made me double take
bsky.app/profile/dark...

10 of them are already done, so hey, you're halfway thru at least?

If you wanna follow all the roses, I made a nice lil starter pack for u. Follow at your own peril bsky.app/starter-pack...

Tarot pulls this week have been appropriate. And today's line up with the fact we are all doing a lot better. The time needed to heal is real.

For those who know we have bipolar and are wondering, no this isn't a depressive episode. We are still aware of what we're capable of and do not believe that all hope has been lost.

None of us are particularly fond of putting out this kind of dull energy. But you can def see it from us now. To some of us, putting on the happy exterior rn feels like a shallow roleplay.

Anyway. Not fishing for solutions specific for us. I am curious about what works for *you*, my dear reader

I'm not sure I'd even call our state of being chaotic. It's more like a stagnant mess. It's hard to find peace with a fire lit below you, of urgency, but seemingly devoid of any motivating drive.

Our system struggles to build up momentum or desire and we often feel lost and. Dread feeds into the executive dysfunction of it all.

I suppose it's important to find equilibrium.

What are some things you do to bring back some joy into your life? And I don't mean things that are pure escapism that feel miserable to come back from, I mean things that you can take with you, to rekindle a little more motivation.

We don't need permission. What we need is protection from our stories being erased.

In a system with a rich imaginative inner world, the sky is the limit, you can more easily visualise and even attempt to role play things that are not practical, or are too fantastical to work IRL. We can make settings where *we* decide what is "normalised".

I wouldn't even say that the majority of our smut we write for ourselves is even explicitly sexual in nature, but regardless of whatever it is, I am a proponent of writing whatever the fuck works for you.