That was the tail end of my extra money but i wanted to do an actual family vacation before i find work and time becomes scarce.
We stayed in a tiny pirate themed houseboat, fed stingrays, NASA, natural history museum, and a cat cafe before home. 💕💕
hello my strange lovely flawed friends on the internet. Two months of unemployment went by real fast but it feels good. I think I’m actually seeing some major headspace improvements. Fiddling with med dosing, going down acceptance rabbit holes, trying to be kinder and softer and more aware.
move slow and repair things
Oh no.. Slay the Spire 2 is out today. I have completed StS 1 with Asc 20 on all characters and hundreds of hours.. buckle up, here we go again!
I dislike personality/temperament tests as part of a job interview, but do appreciate that I got an immediate follow-up to my interview yesterday. So that's nice.
.. take for granted. There was a snippet from some recording in a Greek market or someth, circa late 30's give or take, and the sounds these street musicians made was just absolutely grab your soul, and these guys, right, are just like the butcher on a day off doing what the community music guys do.
Got a little toasty last night and wandered around a bunch of thoughts regarding ambient/weird/noise/texture experiences and albums and why they appeal to me so much as art and as a different experience than music. And then on to the beauty of captured sounds of daily life and the talent we ..
should probably add ice skates to my Throne wishlist! We’ve been coming frequently enough and I’m tired of rentals!
Lovely partner suggested we go to Harbor Freight to pick up another long extension outlet bar. I told them that sounds cool but if I go in there, I'm coming out with an airbrush. "I don't see the problem with that, you need to get some more painting time." Welp, hell yeah.. let's do the thing!
Oh right and I have an interview in two hours. They list management responsibilities under an Associate title and pay so... yeah, that's going to be some interesting conversation but if the vibe is right, ya girl needs work so we'll feel it out.
Called UE to sort shit, applied for jobs, bought a balloon and coffee creamer, gonna do a tidy then maybe finally after eight weeks of dragging ass, break out the primer and get some figures primed? Yeah... let's attempt that.
Greg Davies: Great task, well done. Didn‘t eat a thing.
Persephone: Thank you.
Alex Horne: Ah. Well. Let’s take another look at that pomegranate.
Honestly, this sounds fucking great right now.
Ooooh and that clinic is closing on the 15th and is completely booked between now and then. Fuck. My. Life. Whew, it's okay, it's okay I can do it.. right?
Ah yes, 35 days since my last infusion will also do it. I need to schedule that now. They have doubled in price though, still the most affordable in town and a requirement for me to not slip into the abyss.
This week is turning into a lot. And I think it's all kind of necessary stuff but I feel my brain creeping into overwhelming static zone. I gotta figure out how to not hit that point.
I love when the mountain laurel blooms. It feels like it’s suddenly all the flowers IMMEDIATELY, no preparation no half measures just every dang flower at once. You wake up one morning and there’s purple everywhere.
Having a decent, easy 3D printing setup is the kind of cool tech that makes me feel actually like the future. That and VR. I don't like the other tech paths, it makes 80's cyberpunk kiddo me very sad (though also should have seen it coming).
The little sister goes on. "I worry that my time will erode to the point where I will fing myself alone most nights. I don't wanna lose myself in pursuit of an elusive security. I want to do things that make my soul sing. I want to be close to my family. And every day there's more work. And the work seems vaguely important. It seems important enough that it's worth making the sacrifice of hours. But I don't want to sacrigice anything. I want to honour the time I've been given. I don't want to burn it up like an expendable resource...
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The world could be such a nice place if we allowed it. It's all so goddamn unnecessary. There's no need for any of it. It's so beautiful here. It should be so cool to be alive
Some hardcore fans took care of my kiddo so well. Made sure we got barricade, got them a guitar pick. Definitely a great introduction to how good fandoms treat folks and I’m very thankful. 💕
My body is so old. Absolutely exhausted after last night! And today is ice skating and also I do NOT want to get up. The cats really seem to like my new blanket.
it’s work done hand in hand with LAPD and very much a positive spin on the department as a whole.
There’s a newish one, vortioxitine, that has really positive outlook for emotional blunting and sexual side effects but it’s like $300/mo cause ya know… Maybe once it’s generic I’ll try meds again.
Yeah, Prozac doing its thing. I’m not sad but I got a completely emotionally flat point. Going to see Lights tonight with my kid, haven’t even thought about what to wear. Motivation non existent. Haven’t cum in a month. A dozen meds, all lackluster. Taper off. Ketamine only.
Finally getting around to watching this clip and it feels like such a non-answer. Doing it for exposure feels really cheap and misaligned entirely. Wrong audience even. I see the industry value, I’m sure the staff is nice, but so is the cop I used to see downtown all the time. Still a cop.
Thanks for sharing this!
Woof. This feels like a Twilight Zone premise. @dropout.tv and @samreich.bsky.social what kind of call did you make? It feels so entirely out of place with the brand that it feels like a "Blink twice if the network is in the room with us." Fuck, man. I just wanna have one nice thing. Disappointed. 🫠
Motivation. Mo. Ti. Va. Tion. Mmmmootivation. I understand the word but am struggling with the function. Is there a Motivation Store? Can I get an infusion? Doordash an order of Motivation? I really don't know how to acquire it but boy howdy I'm tired of not having it. I could be doing so much!
