Circe

i have put on a brave face for every single way the world has kicked my teeth in this week and the result is me crashing out over nearly nothing because i am so tired.

i dont have the energy to delete shit. i am Worse this week, sorry..

what are you talking about? that didn't happen

i just need someone to tske care of me and beg me not to kill myself because thats what life is all about, finding people to flatter you and beg you not to die

next time i ideate im gonna do it in the cool way that makes everyone my best friend and take care of me and live in a big house with me and alienates nobody at all because i won't be an idiot idiot idiot awful awful creepy ugly stupid creepy

rotten on the inside selfish selfish selfish fake fake fake dumb vain woman everyones problem

who caresssss ughhhh dont ne worried about me im ugly ugly ugly

just fucking kill me already why won't somebody just do it im too lazy for suicide just get the job done already fuck

if i wasnt such a fucking coward id be in the ground a long time ago.

who cares about me being groomed and raped repeatedly for three years that was almost a decade ago now i keep causing people problems for no fucking reason and all i do is whine and wimper shut the fuck up helen shut the fuck up

remember friends, if you start saying that you want to kill yourself make sure its because of your tragic backstory and not because you are a thin skinned little asshole who cannot withstand thirty seconds of embarrassment

cancelled for ideating over something that is incredibly petty and selfish rather than tragic and horrible

need to be held

cptsd has got me bad rn

i don't like her comics much to be perfectly honest but she deserved better than to be the artistic shield of some of the most loathesome men in the scene

im not gonna talk about it on main but the abusive man comics publisher of some repute continuing to prop up the corpse of a dead trans woman in the pages of its abuser apologist anthologies id fucking sickening

tumblr

i can accept a lesbian man just fine. i like my lesbian men like i like my lesbian women, not addicted to tumble

gotta be real some of those he him lesbians gotta start walking the walk a bit better at the whole talking to girls thing

im not posting nudes on this app but rest assured im taking them and theyre great

THISS CITY ISS GUILTY! THE CRIME ISS LIFE... THE SSENTENCE ISS... DEATH!

was about to have a depressive spiral and then instead of ideating i started thinking about Judge Death and idk why that worked but it did

that i have more good days than bad is good tho

bad days are more important to how i understand my recovery than good days

i hate crying!@@@!!

who built this thing

looking for the off switch on the imagining my death machine oops it dont got one

my smart but traumatized brain excuse me

hitting the "nope thats not someone being rude that is your ptsd" button until my dumb bitch brain accepts it

do i need to not date bi women? id like to think it doesnt matter but the vibes are often kinda off.