Ive got 2 weeks left until im going to get evicted and everything is so expensive and gatekeepy and i dont wanna be in a boarding house or month to month lease again and im afraid to ask for help cause im so exhausted i need help on how to organize another help me post.
Its crazy to me because […]
Okay buds, here's a call for help. My confidence in executing ideas is shot when it comes to drawing. Its like I'm aware I'm good enough even for myself, but that inner critic is just a really vicious fight. I either have to phase out or lock in and its kinda difficult. Sad to have panic […]
Protecting X character "from the antis" by making terabytes of lolisho porn with said character by hand
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#Citruscon was so fun but sooo exhausting too. I met friends new and old and it was lovely. See you all next year.
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[Mild eating disorder flippancy]
If i want to eat I'll have to wash dishes -> _starves_
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Me: I FUCKING LOVE downloading images
Me later: I FUCKING HATE organizing images
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I try not to harp on being depressed because i was always told "no one wants to be near someone who's always miserable" and because i dont want to just become known for only venting. Even when things are okay my fried nervous system finds it very difficult to lower my guard and be honestz […]
Ive also been having a legitimate stressful amount of difficulty reading. Im getting back into rp after 2 years since my ex and I've been fighting for my life reading. Its almost painful. I dont know why. Its not that the content isnt something i dont want to know, but longform text has becoke […]
This is hard to explain exactly but I feel like I'm tired of trying? It feels like with depression alone I'm using all my strength to do the opposite action technique so that my depression doesnt get worse that everything, even things i _want_ to do feels like a Herculean effort.
I wonder how […]
[Distress about EX, Vague reference to USPOL]
Its been 2 years I need to stop thinking about my ex and yet.
Wondering how it feels to be a white woman who let their latino ex partner be on the street rather than share space with me for more than 3 months. Saying i wasnt trying hard enough even […]
["Thanks I'm Cured" type quote, harmful depression advice]
Just remembered probably one of the worst "tough love/thanksI'mCured" shit ever said to me:
"If you don't love yourself how are you supposed to expect anyone to love you if you dont love yourself?"
Like I get the spirit or idea behind […]
She use to call me and go awawa~ 🎵 I used to call her and go buh buh buh 🎵
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A screenshot of the self care app Finch. There is a purple and pink bedroom as the backdrop. There is a pink bird with Genderqueer Shades and a pink outfit with blue accented shoes, tie and bow.
God #Finch is probably the todo app I've been with the longest and a lot of that is due to the accountability i have with friends on there too. Its very heartwarming.
Also I get to make eye candy like this
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Might make a slideshow/video of what Pokemon #ShadowMilkCookie would like/use (up to gen 6 or 7 cause I'm so out of the loop of these creatures and I wanna have fun exploring, not feel like i have to study all possible options, lol
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Wondering if I count as a fandom influencer and cycling between "I can use the force for good" and "god I hope not"
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a screenshot of folders for each episode of hetalia filled with screenshots of each episode
I hope squidge is gonna be ready for the unholy #Hetalia wrath I'm unleashing. I just went and renamed all the source files so they're consistent and it makes my eyes so happy.
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Oh hell yeah NintendoCapriSun just finished his Wind Waker randomizer LP I'm eating good tonight.
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A few doodles of catboy fursona, Triste Miedo looking sad and forlorn with interspersed poetry: Where does it come from? Why won't it stay? I want the joy of satisfaction And satisfaction rarely comes Afraid to take one more step, I feel toxic and poisonous. A contamination I'm afraid, scared, frightened, tense, stiff, scared. Because I'm not good enough but I NEVER will be and thats ok This isnt my instinct anymore, its fear And self loathing And inward disgust I have to make it be okay You have to give in to the fact you already know people are laughing at you
[Sketch Comic Essay on Fear and Self Doubt, Paranoia Trigger]
You have to give in to the fact you already know people are laughing at you
Creating becomes hard when it couples with panic attacks
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I got up to go get my rice and unplugged my router during the stream-- and I didn't realize for probably at least half an hour. :trans_weed:damn
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My friend bribed me into watching more #HauntedHotel with her with Abbadon porn and I am WEAK!!
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Its funny that I want seafood but am put off by buying fish because I dont feel like fighting my cat he goes ballistic with seafood, especially when I have shrimp cocktail. Mmm speaking of which ... I should get some
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A person wearing headphones relaxing on a bench with a huger hulking figure looking at them from close behind with a grin
Me: Man, at least we dont have a Teto
The mysteriously electronic voice from behind: " Sue PRIZE mudda fucka"
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Lmfao my nails are messing up my #pjsk score because sometimes the angle clacks against the screen and doesnt detect my finger 😭 Maybe its time to trim my claws?
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[Crying]
Every now and then, I have one of those deep cries about My Situation and its like yes i can really feel that cortisol in my tears, purge, you bastards.
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My art will always have a right to exist
/I/ have a right to exist non perfectly
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A doodle of a happy person lying in bed surrounded by love hearts. They have a ventilation mask on them with a tube to a tank labeled "Validation"
When you praise me, this is who you're praising btw
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